Chapter 4: Confusion
Santana's POV
After much consideration, Brittany decided that she would take up the offer to be in the TV show if it gets picked up. She's going to speak to some of the creators and producers of the show today and I'm going with her since I'm due to film a few scenes this morning.
"Morning" Brittany says yawning as she walks into the kitchen.
"Hey" I smile. "How's your ankle?" I ask.
"Yeah its ok I guess, still not a significant improvement though" she states.
"I'm sure it'll get better soon enough" I say smiling sympathetically.
"Yeah" she nods.
"So are you excited about today?" I ask trying to change the topic.
"Yeah I am, I just hope this show gets picked up because it could be exciting working together" she says. "I don't think we've ever worked together before" she states.
"No we haven't so it could be fun" I say. As soon as we are both ready, we head off to the set. "Hey do you want me to come with you to talk to them?" I ask Brittany once we get there since I'm not scheduled on set for another half an hour.
"If you want to you can" she shrugs.
"Cool" I smile and we go over together. As the meeting progresses, everything seems to be going really well. Brittany is getting on great with them and they seem to love her.
"How would you like to make an appearance in the pilot?" John asks Brittany. "I think we could incorporate your injury into the story" he says.
"Really?" Brittany asks shocked and John nods. "I don't know what to say, I mean…I'd love to be in the pilot" she says excitedly.
"Ok that's settled then, you're in the pilot" John smiles before leaving.
"This is awesome" she says excitedly.
"I know, it's so exciting" I say.
"Oh I'm one step closer to getting you" she smiles.
"Uh…what?" I ask confused.
"Well now that we're working together, I'll be spending more time with you therefore one step closer to getting you" she smiles again.
"Um…ok" I say because I don't know what else to. I mean what Brittany said the other day at her doctor's appointment has thrown me a bit. She was saying things about how she might not be straight and initially I thought she was joking but then she said it like she was serious. It's been playing on my mind ever since and I don't know why. I mean what difference to me does it make whether she might be into girls or not?
"Anyway we should…"
"Yeah I need to go and get ready, see you after" I say cutting Brittany off before quickly leaving.
The rest of the day goes by pretty quickly except I just can't stop thinking about what Brittany has been saying. I just don't understand it and I can't tell if she's just winding me up or not. The whole way home she didn't say anything so it was if it had all been just an innocent joke but then when we sat down to dinner she mentioned something about my favourite foods and how she would cook them for me whenever I wanted because that's what really good friends do. She didn't just say friends, she said really good friends and Rebecca happened to be in the room at the time as well so that got me even more confused because it was if she was making a point to Rebecca. It took me quite a while to get to sleep because I couldn't help going over and over things in my mind.
"I don't want you to get mad at me but I just need to do this" Brittany says while lunging forward and capturing my lips in a passionate kiss. Just as she is about to pull away, I kiss her so we start to kiss more intensely again.
As the kiss heats up, I feel Brittany's hands gently slide under my shirt and she slowly glides her hands up and down. After a few moments she unclasps my bra and before I know it, she is gently caressing my breasts. "Oh god Brittany" I say with a moan slipping from my mouth.
"You can unclasp mine too" she says obviously noticing my hesitation.
"Ok" I nod before unclasping Brittany's bra. Before I know it, everything has changed so quickly and Brittany is no longer caressing and paying attention to my breasts but she's got her head between my legs. "Yeah…oh right there…that's it Britt" I moan while pushing Brittany's face closer to my core.
"You taste amazing" Brittany states.
"Please don't stop…please" I say almost begging her.
"Don't worry, I'm not planning to stop any time soon" Brittany smirks at me before continuing what she's doing.
"o-ok" I stutter. "I think I'm about to…"
"Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god" I say loudly in a panic. "What the fuck just happened, did I seriously just have a dream about Brittany and I having sex" I say aloud to myself.
"Did you say something?" Rebecca asks sleepily.
"No…no I didn't" I say quickly. I totally forgot she was in the bed next to me, god I hope she didn't hear me.
"Ok" she says yawning before falling back asleep. Ok this is seriously weird and sick and completely just wrong. It's one thing to have a sex dream about someone but it's a whole other thing to have it about your best friend especially when your girlfriend is lying sleeping next to you. After a moment, I realise there is no way I'm going to get back to sleep so I go through to the living room to watch TV. Luckily I'm not working today so if I get tired later, I can rest later in the afternoon or something.
"SANTANA!" I hear Rebecca shout snapping me out of my daydream.
"What?" I say annoyed at her loud tone.
"I was talking to you and you did nothing but stare at the coffee machine" Rebecca states. "What is going on with you? I mean I wake up at 4am and you're not even in bed and then when I get up to get ready you're lying on the couch in the living room, and then right now you're staring at a coffee machine ignoring me. It's like you're somewhere else today" she says.
"Just stop annoying me please, I didn't sleep great so I'm tired ok" I state.
"You're acting like you have a hangover or something, did you drink last night?" she asks.
"No I didn't Rebecca, jeez I just told you I am tired. How is that so hard to comprehend?" I ask still annoyed.
"You're just acting weird babe so I'm just wondering what is going on with you" she states.
"For the third time, I am tired ok" I say louder than I meant to.
"Fine" she huffs. "I'll see you later, I'm going to work" she says before leaving. I let out a deep breath just as I notice Brittany standing in the doorway rubbing her eyes and yawning.
"Why are you two being so loud?" she groans.
"Sorry, did we wake you up?" I say apologetically.
"Yeah" she nods.
"I'm sorry, why don't you go back to bed to rest?" I suggest.
"No it's ok, I'm awake now" she says. "I may as well stay up now I guess" she shrugs.
"Cool" I smile. "Hey maybe if you're feeling up to it, you could help me do some cleaning?" I say jokingly.
"Sure, I'll help" Brittany replies.
"I'm only messing, you don't have to" I say.
"No I can help and that way we'll be done quicker" Brittany says. "Then I thought we could meet our friends to catch up and maybe get coffee or something" she suggests.
"That sounds like a plan Britt" I smile.
"Cool" she smiles back. "I'll text our friends just now and make sure they're free and perhaps you could get started on the cleaning" she says and I nod before making a start. Once Brittany has got in touch with our friends and sorted out the arrangements, she comes to help me. As soon as the cleaning is done, we both get ready and then meet our friends for coffee.
Once our little catch up is over, Brittany and I go back to the apartment and hang out for a while. I'm just relaxing in front of the TV while Brittany is in her room talking on the phone with her sister, when I get a text from Rebecca.
From Rebecca: sorry babe, I'm working late again tonight so I won't be home for dinner. I'll see you later ok?
To Rebecca: ok no problem, see you later.
Ever since that dream last night, I can't help but look at Brittany differently. I've got to say I'm actually relieved that Rebecca is working late and I don't need to sit at dinner with her because it would be awkward. Even though she doesn't know about the dream, it would still be weird to sit there at the same table with my girlfriend and my best friend who I happened to have sex with in a dream last night. The really annoying part is that I actually enjoyed it in the dream and I can't help but feel something funny inside whenever I see Brittany now. I mean the way she was…
"Hey breasts…BRITTANY, I mean BRITTANY" I say emphasising her proper name when I walk into her room.
"Did you seriously just call me breasts?" Brittany asks in a fit of laugher. "Where the hell did that come from?" she says trying to control her laughing but it just isn't working.
"I have no idea where that came from" I say. Of course I fucking know where it came from, I basically had a sex dream last night and Brittany was definitely naked and definitely exposing her breasts and squeezing mine and…ok enough talking to yourself in your head.
"So what's up?" she asks when her laughter finally dies down.
"Rebecca is working late yet again so I wondered what you wanted for dinner, I could make us something really nice" I say. "I could go to the store and get some things if you want" I suggest.
"I don't mind, I'm fine eating whatever we have" she says. "You don't need to go out and buy anything" she tells me.
"I guess I could whip us up a stir fry or something using some ingredients we already have" I state.
"Sounds cool, let me know if you need some help" Brittany says.
"I will" I smile before turning to leave.
"See you later breasts" Brittany says laughing and I walk away completely embarrassed. "Are you not biting babe?" she shouts after me but I have to ignore her or I'll end up getting all flustered if I try to reply. All I can think of why I called her that is because of the dream and the fact her name begins with 'Br', the same as breasts.
Dinner was surprisingly not as awkward or as embarrassing as I thought because Brittany didn't tease me once so it was pretty relaxed. As soon as we cleared up, we went to the living room and watched a movie together before flicking through the channels on the TV until we settled on something to watch.
"It's freezing cold tonight" Brittany says before moving in closer to me and taking some of my blanket I have and covering herself with it. This closeness really has my heart racing for some weird reason.
"It is" I agree.
"You're very quiet tonight Santana, is everything ok?" Brittany asks.
"Yeah of course, why wouldn't it be?" I reply.
"Because you're very quiet" she says laughing. "That's why I asked" she says.
"Well I'm fine so can we please just watch the TV" I say harsher than I meant to.
"Sorry" Brittany states.
"I didn't mean that to sound so harsh it's just I…um…I really like this couple, I think they should totally get together" I say talking about the couple in the TV show that we're watching.
"Yeah me too" Brittany smiles. "They suit one another don't they?" she says.
"Yeah they really do" I say staring at the TV.
"I was thinking about taking you out to dinner sometime this week" she says and my heart races again. "I want to thank you for getting me that job, if it wasn't for you I wouldn't have said yes to doing anything in acting and I'd still be jobless so thanks Santana, you really are the best" she says genuinely.
"It's no trouble" I say smiling. "I'll look forward to dinner with you this coming week" I say already looking forward to it.
"Just let me know when Rebecca is free and I'll arrange it" she says.
"Rebecca?" I ask confused.
"Yeah, I mean she's your girlfriend so you'll want her to come too, right?" she says and my heart plummets.
"Right" I say nodding. For a split second I thought it was just going to be me and Brittany so I got excited but now I know Rebecca is coming too I don't feel as excited. I don't understand why that is, I mean it is my girlfriend.
"We can go anywhere of your choosing though, it's your night" Brittany tells me.
"Ok cool" I nod.
Brittany is organising dinner for Tuesday night but what she doesn't know is that Rebecca will never be able to make dinner that night because she's got a work thing. I deliberately didn't ask Rebecca because I don't really want her to come to be honest, I want it to be just Brittany and me. I know it was really bad of me but I can't help it, I'd much rather just have a fun night with Brittany.
"Dinner is all booked for 3 at 7pm on Tuesday night at one of your favourite restaurants" Brittany says walking into the room.
"Cool" I smile. "Oh shoot…I said Tuesday didn't I?" I say playing dumb because I need to explain why there will be only two of us there at dinner and not three.
"Yeah" she nods.
"I just remembered Rebecca has a late meeting on Tuesday, I meant Wednesday for dinner" I say pretending I didn't realise what I said.
"Oh what" Brittany groans. "They're fully booked on Wednesday I think so we're not going to be able to go now" she says disappointedly.
"Maybe we…"
"What's your other favourite restaurant and I'll try and book that for Wednesday" she says interrupting me. Ok I didn't want her to say that.
"Britt how about we just go and we'll organise something for the 3 of us another time. I mean I really did want to go to that restaurant and it seems a shame to cancel a booking now that you've already organised it and obviously cleared your schedule for Tuesday" I tell her.
"Are you sure she won't mind?" Brittany asks.
"I think it'll be ok" I say. "So is Tuesday still on then?" I ask with a hopeful tone.
"Yeah Tuesday is still on" she smiles.
"Cool" I smile back.
"I'm looking forward to it, it's been a while since I could go out and enjoy myself without worrying about money" Brittany says. "I mean it's not like I'm getting paid mega bucks for just appearing in the pilot but it's something, money is money right."
"Exactly and I've got to say it's good seeing you happy again" I tell her.
"It's good feeling happy again" she says.
"You know we should make a night of it, take a cab there so we can have a drink" I suggest.
"Yeah why not" she says agreeing. "I think we should definitely do something with Rebecca as well at some point because this is her apartment too and I want to thank both of you for letting me stay here" she says.
"Ok we can, just maybe when her schedule isn't so hectic" I reply.
"Yeah, sure" Brittany smiles.
"You know you don't have to thank us though for letting you stay here. I've told you many times before that it's ok" I say.
"I just feel really bad though because I don't even pay you guys rent or anything" Brittany says.
"Honestly Brittany we don't mind so stop stressing ok?" I smile.
"Ok" she smiles back. "If the TV show does get picked up then I'll have income coming in so I could probably get my own place so hopefully I won't be crashing here too long" she says and I suddenly get sad for some reason.
"You want to move out?" I ask.
"Well it's not fair staying here all the time, you and Rebecca need your space" she says.
"I like having you to stay, it's fun" I state.
"Yeah it is fun but you and Rebecca are probably at the stage where you need your own space and want to be alone" Brittany says.
"Look just don't feel pressured to move out, you can stay as long as you want" I tell her.
"How about we order for each other?" Brittany suggests as we sit at our table looking over the menu in the restaurant. "We used to do it all the time but we stopped for some reason so why don't we have some fun and I'll order what you're going to eat and you order for me."
"Ok cool, just like old times" I smile.
"Exactly" Brittany smiles back.
"I must warn you though, I am very hungry tonight so I hope you order me something good" I say.
"I'll try" Brittany says laughing.
"Good" I say. As soon as we decide what each other is having, we order the food.
"Can I just say you're looking as beautiful as ever tonight in your dress, is it new?" Brittany asks.
"Um…it's not actually" I reply. "I got it a long time ago but I've never really wore it before" I tell her.
"Well it looks really good on you" she smiles and I get this fluttery feeling inside.
"Thanks" I say smiling shyly. I really don't know why I'm acting like this, it's not like Brittany hasn't complimented me before.
"What are you thinking about?" Brittany asks while leaning over the table a little so I can hear her better.
"Nothing" I reply.
"You went quiet for a few moments and you looked deep in thought" she says. "You must have been thinking about something."
"Well I was but it was nothing important" I state.
"Ok" she nods. "Oh here's the food anyway" she says just as the waiter arrives with our plates and places them in front of us.
"Enjoy your food ladies" the waiter says before leaving.
"Did you see how he smiled at you before he left?" Brittany asks.
"I can't say I did to be honest" I state.
"He definitely gave you a flirty smile of some sort" she states. "I don't suppose I blame him though" she smiles.
"This chicken tastes so good, I'm glad you ordered it for me" I say trying to change the subject.
"It turkey babe, not chicken" Brittany smiles.
"Oh" I say examining the food before laughing. "I like this turkey then" I state.
"You're so cute sometimes" she says and I immediately feel a flutter inside again but I don't know why.
"Um…thanks" I say trying to hide the embarrassment I feel. Its one thing to be called cute by your best friend but it's another thing being called cute by…wait what is it I think we are? I mean obviously we're just friends so why am I embarrassed.
We finish the remainder of our meal in silence. "So how about dessert?" Brittany asks and my head immediately shoots up to look at her shocked. "Do you think you could manage more food?" she asks as she looks over the dessert menu completely oblivious to my sudden reaction. Seriously there is something wrong with me tonight, of course she just meant dessert as in food.
"Sure, I could eat dessert" I say.
"Cool, I'll pick for you and you can pick for me" she says looking up to smile at me so I smile back.
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