That same night
Erin's POV
I wake up alone in his bed, the sheets are still warm, so I know he hasn't been gone long, I look to the side, noticing that its still dark outside. The time on the alarm clock says it two fourteen. I run my fingers through my hair before getting up and throwing on my tank top, and panties before making my way to the kitchen where I hear glass clanking together. I hum quietly as I take him in. He's just got on a pair of sweatpants, giving me a view of his muscular back, and then he turns to face me, and I find myself wondering how I'm still able to walk. His sweatpants are hanging low, showcasing the deep v at the bottom of his perfectly chiseled, god like abdomen. My legs feel Jell-O, as I walk closer to him, and he hands me a beer.
"I need to rehydrate." He says, bringing his bottle up to his lips.
"That mean you're done?" I say in a low voice, with my lips hovering just over my bottle
"No. No no no no, just in between rounds." He says coming closer to me.
"Hmm." Is my response before we lean in and kiss. I guess he's rehydrated as both of our bottles get put onto the counter safely by him, without either of us breaking our make out session. He walks me backwards towards the bedroom, pulling my tank top off on the way, and then I'm falling back onto the bed, in a not so different way than earlier in the evening. He doesn't even bother taking off his sweatpants all the way before he's pushing my panties a side, and joining our bodies, for the third round of the night.
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Jay's POV
We get woken up just a few short hours later by the alarm on her phone. We both groan, as she rolls over to turn off the alarm.
"Can't you just call in?."
"mm I wish." She says as she leans up to give me a kiss.
"Plus you have work too." She adds giving me another kiss before getting up.
"I'll call in too."
"Yeah, good luck with that with Hank. Can I use your shower?"
"Only if I can join you?" I say raising my eyebrow
"We do that, and I'll be late for sure." She answers, and I put on my best pout.
"Cute." She says leaning down now to give me a kiss.
"We better hurry." She adds, giving in, practically running to the bathroom, and I'm not far behind her.
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I get out before her; going back to my room, and putting on a pair of jeans. I then go to the kitchen to make us some coffee. She comes walking out dressed in her scrubs only a few minutes later; her wet hair thrown up into a neat bun on the top of her head. She comes to stand next to me and lean against the counter, and I hand her a mug.
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Erin's POV
"This is the sugar." He says pointing to a silver container next to the coffee machine "and I only have lactose free creamer, but I can get regular creamer, for next time if you don't like it. I mean if you want there to be a-" He rambles nervously, and I can't help but smile at how adorable he is when he's nervous, before trying to stop him
"Jay."
"Next time." He just continues, as I kiss his jaw, and my hands roam his still bare chest and torso.
"Jay." I say bringing my hands to his cheeks, and pulling his face down towards me, whispering against his lips "I'm sure the creamer is fine." Before kissing him.
"and I'd love for there to be a next time."
"Me too." He says
"Good, now I've got to go or I'm going to be late, but I'll text you later." I say as he leans down to give me another kiss.
"Ok, bye."
"Bye." I say grabbing my things and leaving.
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Jay's POV
Friday
I sit dressed in a black suit, and a black dress shirt, anxiously waiting for her to get to my apartment. We texted for a little bit yesterday, she asked about my day, before she told me about hers. She said she had to go not long after. Today I was woken up by my phone ringing, I picked it up not even looking at it, just wanting it to stop ringing. She was nervous, I could tell as she didn't even say hello. The first thing she said to me was
"What does your suit look like?"
"Uh, like a suit." I said, while rubbing my eyes.
"It has to look high end."
"Hey I have nice suits" I said with a chuckle
"Maybe we shouldn't go."
"We can do whatever you want, but I think we should at least go, if you're not about it when we get there, then we can go somewhere else, or come back here."
"Ok." She said with a sigh.
"I'll see later than." She added
"Ok." I said, and she hung up.
Now its quarter to seven, and she text that she's on her way up to my floor. I stand up from the bar stool I was sitting on, and make my way to the door, I open it just as she's walking up. My breath gets caught in my throat as she comes to a stop in front of me in a tight black knee length dress. My eyes travel up her body slowly, and I feel my pants getting tighter as my eyes get to her cleavage. Then my eyes lock on hers, and I reach out, placing my hands on her hips, and I pull her into me. I lean down to kiss her lips.
"Hi."
"Hi, you ready?" She says with a weak smile.
"Yeah." I say stepping out of my apartment, and locking the door. She insists that she drives, and before I can argue she's climbing into the drivers seat of her jeep. I get in, turning slightly to grab my seatbelt. Out of the corner of my eye, I see something seating on top on the back seat, I turn my head a little more to take in the booster seat, that is placed directly behind the passenger seat. I finally buckle my seat belt, as I think about what that means. 'Maybe she babysits? But enough to need to keep a booster seat in her car? When I babysit Owen, I just borrow Will's seat if I need it. Maybe she has a kid? But why hide it?' I want to ask her, but I also want her to tell me. I hope she'll tell me.
"We're here." She says putting the car in park. She looks over at me nervously. I push my thoughts aside, and reach over to gently squeeze her hand, and she gives me another weak smile.
"Ready?" I ask her this time, and she nods her head. We get out of the car, and start to walk towards the hotel ballroom where the reunion is being held. I'm fixing the sleeve of my suit jacket as we turn the corner of the building. She stops then, and I look up to see what caused it.
"What am I doing here?" She asks, before she turns on her heels.
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We find ourselves sitting down at a bar a few blocks away. We sit down and order our drinks. Once we get our drinks, I ask
"So?"
"I'm sorry Jay."
"I wasn't looking for an apology Erin, you have no reason to apologize. I'm just curious about a few things." I say, and she nods, taking a drink from the short glass in her hand. She looks down at the table as she begins to talk
"I guess I should start at the beginning." She says, and I just nod, as she's bringing the glass back up to her lips. She takes a deep breath, and starts to swirl the amber color liquid in her glass.
"I had been Voight's CI for a while, so he knew me, knew some of what my mom put my little sister Nadia and I through. Turns out I wasn't too different from her, got in with a bad crowd, did some really bad things, while trying keep my sister safe, at least that was what I always told myself. And when I was fifteen, and Nadia was ten, Hank and his wife took us in. Saved me, saved us. He pulled some strings and got me into Saint Ignatius, when I got there I made up who I was. I was Hank's goddaughter staying with him while my parents were traveling." She stops there to take another drink.
"She you'd be good at undercover?"
"If you mean lying, yeah. I was a street kid. But Steph and her crew pulled me into their clique, and pretty soon we were doing everything together, shopping, parties, all of it. And then somebody found out who I really was. You figure out who your real friends are pretty quick when the word's out that your mom's a junkie and your dad's in jail. They'd taunt me, everyday, every class, but I took it on the chin, knowing I couldn't risk the Voight's kicking Nadia out. And Hank had to make a deal with the director of the school to get me in. If I got in a fight, even threw one punch, I was out. It still bothers me. I thought that maybe if I went tonight, everything would be put in perspective. I could show them that I did something with my life. I don't know why I just couldn't do it." I don't say anything, not really sure what to say, so I reach over, and take her hand in mine.
"You don't need to prove yourself to them or anyone Er, sounds like you were an incredibly strong kid, and you grew up to be a beautiful and even stronger woman. And one day you're going to make someone incredibly happy, by becoming their wife, and mother of their children, their everything." 'And I hope that someone is me' I think to myself.
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Erin's POV
"Maybe One Day." I say giving him a smile, and his eyes seem to twinkle in the dimly lit bar.
"Oh definitely." He says, standing up and grabbing my hand a little more firmly; pulling me up so I'm standing in front of him. We both lean in; kissing each other passionately, before he pulls away.
"We should get out of here." He says; still holding my hand, and leading us out of the bar.
"So where's your sister now?" He asks as we step onto the sidewalk.
"Umm-"
"You don't have to answer that, I was just wondering."
"No it's ok, she's uh, she's in rehab. She's actually why I came back, her and-" I say, I was about to tell him about Cole but get cut off by his phone ringing.
"Halstead." He says into the phone.
"Yeah I'll be right there." He says, before hanging up.
"You guys catch another case?" I ask, but he just shakes his head.
"No, but we got a new lead, Voight wants us working it now."
"Really? its nine."
"I know." He replies as he opens the car door for me, before running over to the passenger side, and getting in. When we pull up to his apartment building, he unbuckles his seat belt, and leans over the center console to give me a kiss.
"I'm sorry, our night was cut short."
"Its ok, we'll just have to make up for it another night." I say with a smirk.
"Oh definitely." He says pecking my lips again.
"Goodnight, I'll call you when I can."
"Ok goodnight." I say as he gets out of the car, I watch him until he disappears inside.
I feel a sense of relief as I start replaying what I said to him at the bar, and how he replied. But him still not knowing about Cole has that feeling of relief fade away quickly. I could tell that he saw the booster seat, and even out of the corner of my eye I saw the wheels turning in his head. I need to tell him the next time I see him, good timing or not.
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My thoughts make the fifteen minute drive seem even quicker. I walk up to my apartment, bringing my key up to the lock, and unlocking the door before opening it. I hear big brother playing in the living room, as I toss my keys on the table near the door.
"Hey Erin you're home early."
"Uh yeah my date got called into work."
"Oh that sucks." She says.
"Yeah, how was he?"
"Good, he ate, brushed his teeth, and then fell asleep about a half ago."
"Good, thanks Grace." I say and she nods, getting up and grabbing her jacket.
"Have a goodnight, see you on Monday." I say, as she nears the door.
"Thanks you too Erin."
After she leaves I go to lock the door before heading to my room to change, but then I decide to take a shower. I get out when the water starts to get cold. I pull on a pair of panties, sleep shorts, and a tank top, before going back to my room. I turn on the TV, and watch some old sitcom, eventually falling asleep.
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Jay's POV
After working the case through the night and into the early afternoon, I just wanted to go home, and sleep. And that's exactly what I did. I slept from two until eight. When I got up I went to take a shower to wake myself up a little more. Ruzek texted me while I was in the bathroom, letting me know that Atwater, Upton, and Burgess were meeting up with him at Molly's. I text Erin to see if she'd want to come with me, I get dressed in a pair jeans and a shirt while I wait for her response. After a about fifteen minutes I decide to call her.
"Hey." I say when I hear her pick up.
"Hey." She says her voice sounding a little more raspy than usual, and before I can ask, she says
"I'd love to go with but I haven't been feeling well today."
"Oh ok, maybe next weekend."
"Maybe."
"But tonight maybe I could come and make you feel better."
"As tempting as that is. I don't think I'm up to it."
"Ok, well get some rest we have a date we have to make up for." I say with a smirk, as she chuckles lightly, causing her to cough a little
"Have fun tonight."
"Thanks, goodnight." I say
"Night." She says, before hanging up the phone.
I grab my keys before leaving for Molly's. When I get there the four of them are sitting at our usual table. I get a beer first, then go to the table. The longer I sit there the more I start to feel like the odd man out, and the more I want to go to Erin's. Before giving it any further thought I go to the bar, and hand Herrmann a twenty, then I go back to the table
"I'm going to call it a night guys."
"Yeah right." Adam slurs, he's obviously drunk, so I don't even acknowledge him. Kim slaps his arm, and it causes him to whine. The rest of them say goodnight, before I leave.
The drive from Molly's to her apartment is quick, and soon enough I'm standing in front of her door. I knock lightly, hoping I don't wake her if she's sleeping. But then I hear the lock click, and the door opens, but instead of Erin standing on the other side, it's a little boy, maybe five years old. I don't get any closer, but I bend down so I'm a little closer to eye level for him.
"Hey buddy, should you be opening the door?" I ask, and he just shakes his head, his big brown eyes filling with tears, before he runs away from the door, and further into the apartment, just as Erin comes running to the door. She does look sick, her hair tossed up into a messy pony tail, her nose is red, and her skin looks pale, but when she sees me, its as if she's seen a ghost, as the remaining pink tint that was on her cheeks fades away.
"Jay what are you doing here? I thought you were going to Molly's?"
"I did go but I wanted come be with you. Now I know the real reason you didn't want me to come over." I say as I turn back towards the door.
"Jay wait." She says, and I stand there briefly before turning the knob, and opening the door, then I close it again, and lock it. I turn around to face her, but don't say anything.
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Erin's POV
He closes the door lightly, I walk towards him slowly, but he shakes his head at me. I decide to let him cool off, hoping he'll let me explain. I ask him to put the chain on so Cole can't open it anymore. I go to his room, and reprimand him for opening the door again, before reading him a story, and tucking him in. Even in doing that, I can't get Jay out of my mind. I go to the kitchen, to get myself a glass of water, before going to sit in the living room where Jay is pacing back and forth.
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