Chapter 4 "heaven to hell"

Clara was extremely aware of Marina's presence. She couldn't help but stare as she slowly walked into the water. Her perfect pale skin and beautiful curves. She went down into the water for a moment, and Clara stopped breathing when she came up again. The water drops sparkled on her skin, and her lips were slightly parted to inhale a deep breath. Ivan brought her back to reality when he yelled Marina's name. She smiled at him, and the next moment she grabbed his feet and pulled him towards her. The boy screamed and they both laughed joyfully. Clara watched them as they were playing along in the water.

Marina surprised her, when she pushed her body against her back under the water. She wrapped her arms around Clara's waist and her hands felt warm on her stomach. A shiver went down Clara's spine and she closed her eyes. She loved the sensation of Marina's body against hers and she could feel her breasts pressing against her back. She bit her lip and opened her eyes to check if Ivan was watching them. But he was playing at the other side of the pool. She secretly thanked him, as if he was aware they needed some privacy. She laid her hands on Marina's and pressed her body against hers. Marina's breath became shallow and her hand moved slowly towards Clara's hip. She felt her body shiver again, and surprised herself by laying her own hand on Marina's hip aswell. It caused a shiver and she gasped. Clara could feel the heat between her own legs and she slowly turned towards Marina. Their hands on eachothers bodies, dying to explore. Clara now faced Marina, and they looked deeply into eachothers eyes, which both turned dark. Full of desire… Marina bit her lip, trying to control the urge to kiss her. She lowered her hand and softly caressed Clara's buttock. She felt her muscles tighten under her hands and placed her lips on Clara's neck. She left a trail of kisses, and scooped if Ivan didn't see them. Clara felt her body become weak and moaned as silently as possible. She completely forgot Ivan presence, until Marina took a step back. If she hadn't been in the water, she would have fallen down. Her body instantly missed Marina's touch. Her eyes begged Marina to come back, but she watched her with a huge smirk on her face. She pointed with her eyes towards Ivan, and Clara felt her cheeks instantly turned red. She laughed shyly and turned towards her son.

When Marina and Ivan went to get some ice cream, Clara noticed how happy she felt. Ivan and Marina got along extremely well, as if they had known eachother a long time. Marina acted as his friend, but also as his mother. Protective when she needed to be. And it filled Clara with so much happiness, she could almost burst. Her feelings for Marina seemed to grow every minute, and it scared her. She had never experienced such strong feelings and desires.

She waived as she saw Flavinha walking towards her. "Hi Clara!" she greeted her enthusiastically. "Hi Flavinha! How are you?" "Fine, and you?" she replied, while she sat down on the poolside. She lowered her feet into the water. "Fine aswell", Clara couldn't help but smile. "I've noticed" Flavinha grinned "I'm happy for the both of you.." Clara smiled and noticed the change in her expression. Her eyes seemed sad, although she tried to hide it. "Is everything alright?" she asked carefully. Flavinha remained quiet for a moment, and Clara regretted her question. She got along well with Flavinha, but they weren't exactly friends. They didn't share their private feelings, apart from yesterday when she confessed she missed Marina. "No, I'm not oke". She took Clara by surprise, as she opened up to her. "I'm confused…" Clara raised her eyebrow and asked "About what?" Flavinha's eyes searched the area for a moment, when she replied "About myself. My feelings". She paused for a moment, when she continued "I'm sorry… I don't want to bother you. But I don't know who to talk to". Clara shook her head and picked Flavinha's hand "You don't bother me at all. Please tell". Flavinha's eyes filled with tears as she spoke "I think I'm in love.. With a woman.. I've never had feelings for a woman before, you know.. But she loves someone else". Clara felt a clutch in her stomach. Who was she talking about? Marina? "W…Who is this woman?" she asked nervous. Flavinha swallowed. "You wouldn't believe.." she softly replied and Clara held her breath "Vanessa". Clara felt relieved and confused at the same time. "Vanessa?!" she asked and immediately realized her spitfull tone. She soon added "Sorry, I didn't mean to say it like that. But I'm…. surprised!" Flavinha forced a little smile. "I understand, Clara. You two don't get along well.. And I don't understand it myself". Clara was searching for words, when Marina and Ivan were on their way back with ice creams. Flavinha grabbed her arm, and begged her to keep it between them. "Ofcourse Flavinha. This remains between us. And we finish this conversation as soon as possible, oke?" Flavinha nodded en pulled herself on her feet. "Lunch tomorrow?" Clara asked. "I would like that", she whispered. "Oke, deal" Clara replied. Flavinha's eyes were thanking Clara as she walked away.

Marina frowned when Flavinha passed her and Ivan and she noticed her expression. Although she greeted them with a smile, her eyes weren't shining. "Everything oke?" she whispered so only Clara could hear. "Yes, nothing to worry about" Clara replied en smiled at her. Marina sat down closely next to Clara, so their shoulders softly touched. Ivan settled on Marina's lap and her jaw dropped for a second as she searched for Clara's eyes. Clara felt her face begun to glow and smiled brightly at Marina. She could see her eyes tearing up, and she felt her own eyes filling with tears aswell. They smiled at eachother, silently sharing a moment which fulfilled them both with so much joy. Clara swallowed and caressed Marina's hand for a moment. It felt electrifying. Would this feeling ever change when their bodies met? "Mom, can I come back soon?" Ivan asked, while he licked his ice cream. "Ofcourse", Clara said with a broad smile on her face. "Great!" the boy almost yelled. Marina wrapped her arms around Ivan, while she said "You are always welcome, little man!" She tickled him and he started to laugh and scream. He almost dropped his ice cream, which caused the three of them to burst into laughs.

The moment Ivan left to the toilet, Clara forcefully pushed her lips on Marina's. They moaned in eachother, while their tongues collided. Marina felt Clara's hands sliding down her back and pulling her closer. She'd never wanted and needed her more than in this moment, after the perfect day they shared. When they both took time to breath, Clara whispered "My God, Marina… I love you so much". Marina's lips were softly touching her ear, when she whispered "I love you too, Clarinha". Clara pulled her in for another kiss and their hearts raced against eachothers chests. They took a step back when they noticed the footsteps, but their fingers remained entwined. Ivan entered the studio and was perceptive as always. "Can I get a hand aswell when you bring us to our car?" Marina grinned and blinked at Clara's delighted face.

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When Cadu arrived at home, Ivan was already asleep. Clara felt relieved, cause she didn't want her little boy to see them fight again. Which was unavoidably about to happen, when she would tell him about today. "Hi love" he greeted her with a kiss on her cheek. "Hi" she answered. He moved towards the kitchen to check his diner. When he realized she didn't cook he asked "did you got out for dinner?" Clara nodded and felt nervous. "Just the two of you?" For a moment she wanted to tell him a lie, but the truth came out of her mouth "No". His face immediately turned angry and he shook his head. "Let me guess… Marina?" Clara didn't trust her own voice, so she nodded again. His cheeks turned dangerously red as he walked towards her. "Are you serious?! You took our boy?!" When Clara didn't answer he continued "How could you! That woman is toxic!" he yelled. Now it was Clara's time to get angry. "Don't you speak about her like that! She is anything but toxic!" she yelled. He laughed provokely as he grabbed her wrist. "Still defending your girl fearlessly, I see.." Clara tried to get away from his grip, but he was way too strong. "Let me go, Cadu!" she yelled. The next moment happened so fast, that Cadu was unable to avoid it. Clara took a step back, and at the same time he let go of her arm, slightly pushing her away. She lost control and fell on the ground. She hit her head against the table and didn't move anymore. Cadu looked at her startled and fell down on his knees, while he desperately called out her name. "Clara! Wake up!" he cried "Love, please, open your eyes!" He held her face and checked if she was bleeding, which weren't the case. His heart skipped a beat when he noticed Ivan's pale and scared face. His eyes filled with tears, as he stood frozen at the doorway.