Nicole's POV
Sometimes I just want to strangle my sister. I mean I don't hate her for being who she is but I don't like her for our parents arguing all the time and us having to move out here because of her.
If she would have never got caught with her girlfriend our mom wouldn't have tripped out and moved all of us out here. I do feel really bad for Spencer though. I mean I shouldn't treat her the way I do but I can't help it because every time I look at her I get filled with rage about the whole situation.
But I do believe our mom overreacted. I remember I was just sitting on the couch when all of a sudden I hear screaming and yelling. Then mom is chasing Hailey, Spencer's girlfriend from Ohio, down the stairs and out the front door with Spencer following closely behind trying to get mom to stop the attack.
Hailey speeds off in her car and Spencer yells some vulgar thing to mom and runs upstairs crying but the sad thing is Hailey's parents called Spencer the next day to say Hailey got in a car accident with a diesel truck by swerving right into from not being able too see with all the tears coming down and she died at the hospital from loosing too much blood.
A couple weeks later mom decides too move us out of Ohio to LA. Spencer is still touchy about the whole situation and I feel bad for treating her like shit but Hailey would of never died if they weren't doing what they weren't suppose to be doing. If that makes sense.
So now here I am sitting on the couch thinking of all the shit that has happened in the past couple of months waiting for Spencer to get home to at least apologize to her for the way I acted. I have been sitting here for a few hours waiting for her to come home so we can talk with out yelling but now I'm kind of getting worried but it's not like she hasn't done this before.
Someone walks through the front door. I jump up hoping its Spencer. "Spencer?" I yell out looking around the corner but instead I spot mom putting up her jacket.
"No sweetie, its mom. Spencer's not here?" She says coming into the living room where I am and I just sit back down looking back at the TV.
"No…" I say grabbing the remote to change the channel hoping mom will just go away right now.
"That girl is something else." Mom says more to herself than me. Maybe if she just try's to understand Spencer we can actually be a family again.
"Mom, do you feel guilty?" I say out of nowhere. But I really do wonder this question; I am just hoping that I won't get trouble for asking it.
"What do you mean?" She says as she comes to sit next to me on the couch.
"Well… if you wouldn't have chased Hailey out of the house she would still be alive. Don't you feel guilty about that?" I kind of squinted my eyes at her to see the expressions on her face more clearly.
"Nicole I can not believe you are asking me this. It is not my fault she had to be gay with Spencer. You know I don't tolerate your sisters 'problem' but she could of least not of done that horrible stuff under my roof. It's there fault for being like that because they know it's a sin so she died because of her sin." Mom says in anger.
"I can't believe you mom I know people say its bad because of the bible and shit but that shouldn't be a reason for anyone to die!" I yell at her hoping she gets it thought her thick skull. I quickly run up to my room and slam the door making sure she hears.
I can't believe she can be so ignorant. We are talking about a human's life here, especially one of her daughter's love. I guess I finally realize that Spencer's right, mom is a sin herself.
I lye on my bed while putting my headphones in my ears so I can listen to my iPod. I just lay there staring at the ceiling and soon I fell asleep. While I was sleeping I had a dream.
The sun is just barely setting the horizon and I am sitting there on a porch of a semi-mansion, I guess you could say, with Spencer and some other girl and they're holding hands but they look like they are the age of sixty or something and all I can see is how happy Spencer is with the girl sitting next to her. I guess they're married because they both have wedding rings. All I remember is the look of Spencer's face when she looks at the girl and I can really see how truly happy she is with a girl.
I wake up to the sound of my alarm clock. I notice some one put a blanket over me when I sit up and stretch. I get up and grab my things to go take a shower. When I'm done I blow dry my hair, get dressed, and apply my make-up.I grab my bag and head down stairs and notice Spencer isn't down here. She must still be getting ready.
"Hey honey ready to go?" My dad asks coming down the stairs. He's dressed up in a suit ready for another long day at work. Usually my dad takes us to school and mom picks us up but when mom is working we sometimes have to walk but that was back in Ohio, I'm pretty sure it's more hectic out here. So more days for walking.
"Uh yea… where's Spencer?" I ask looking at him and him just giving me a disapproving look.
"She never came home last night." He says shaking his head and heading for the door.
I follow him and head out the door to his car where we get in. He drives me to my school in silence. When we get there I say a quick bye and so does he and I get out and head to the quad where all my friends are that I met yesterday.
There ok I guess but I wouldn't really call them friends more like acquaintances till I actually get to know them. The bell rings and I start to head to class when some one stops me. I turn around to notice a brunette smiling. Ok weird.
"Hey, I'm Ashley. Are you Nicole Carlin? Sister of Spencer Carlin?" She says nicely. I am wondering why she wants to know about Spencer though.
"Yea, why?" I say kind of looking suspiciously at her.
"Oh really no reason at all but hey we should hang out some time, yea?" She says giving me another smile. Ok what does this girl want?
"Yea sure." I say looking even more confused but whatever.
"Ok cool." She walks away and I just stare at her before heading in the direction of my first period class.
The rest of the day goes by normally but I am still wondering where the hell Spencer is. It is lunch time now. When I walk into the cafeteria I was greeted by that Ashley girl and some other chick.
"Hey Nicole. This is my best friend Erica. You should come and sit with us?" Ok why is she being so nice to me?
"Uh sure…" not really knowing what else to say. I start walking with them to their table, I assume, and sit down. I found out that this Ashley chick is a senior and the most popular girl in school. And now I am wondering what the hell she wants with me.
Through the whole lunch we sit there and gossip and laugh about random things. They are actually pretty cool to hang out with. All the people that were at the table are cheerleaders which are cool because I am associating with the coolest people in this school.
The rest of the day goes by and as I guessed I had to walk home because my mom had to work late today because usually she has night shifts but then Ashley sees me and asks if I need a ride and I let her give me one. Wow today went be pretty fast.
Ok there it is. Hope you liked it. Next ch is Ash's POV. Its going to get even more interesting. Thanks everyone for reviewing I love you guys!! and plz tell me what you thought of this one; it helps. Love, IWillAlwaysLoveSoN.
