Hey Guys, so I haven't wrote another chapter yet but I need your advice urgently. Thankyou so much for the reviews I've been getting by the way they make me happier and help me enjoy uploading! But, the real reason I updated is due to a question: Do you think chapter 10 is too early for an OLICITY kiss? I don't know and I'm mid writing it. Pleas, please, let me know in the comments. Anyway, about this chapter, Sara and Felicity friendship, Pushing Oliver away and much more! Thanks guys!

"Is he single?" Iris asks that lunch make Felicity choke on the apple that's in her mouth. Caitlin leans over and pats her back laughing at her friend's reaction. "Oliver" the dark haired girl presses and once she finally stops choking Felicity shrugs her shoulders.

Everyone around their table is laughing at her but it's not in a mean way and for the first time in quite a while Felicity feels involved. This is a two sided friendship she reminds herself with a bright smile. "I don't know, Iris, I've not really asked him?" She replies calmly.

She nods and continues to eat her lunch but Felicity doesn't miss the look of longing on Barry's face as he watches her. Felicity nudges his shoulders against her own and mouths Stop staring he blushes and looks away from her gaze until it's disappeared from view. Caitlin is talking about Ronnie, the baseball captain, when all of a sudden said person is stood behind her smirking. Felicity coughs and points behind her with a smile.

Caitlin's warm eyes widen and she glances behind her a blush rising steadily up her cheeks. He smiles down at her making her look at her feet in embarrassment "It's a good thing you feel that way because It makes my next job a little easier" he says and she looks up at him in confusion "Caitlin, who doesn't like snow, Snow would you like to go on a date with me?" Her eyebrows shoot up and she glances around the table meeting all her friends' gazes with clear confusion. Everyone nods in earnest and she looks back up at him to nod in answer. "Great! I'll see you at 7:00 Thursday night?" he asks and she nods again smiling. "It's a date" and with that he turns on his heel and walks out the lunch hall.

"What was that?" Iris screams when he's finally out of earshot. Caitlin's blush jumps back up as she shush' her friend quickly before looking round to see only a few people looked up. "He, the guy of your dreams, just asked you out!" Iris continues as if Caitlin hadn't said anything.

She nods and picks at her food "What are you going to wear?" Felicity asks quietly and Caitlin's head shoots up.

"I don't know. I don't know!" she cries and her problem was obviously hysterical for the boys as they're sitting, clutching their stomachs and wiping tears from their eyes, laughing. She glares at them before looking to the two girls in panic. "Oh god. I've never done this before!"

Then a reasonably tall girl with blond beach curls slides a chair up to their table. Felicity had seen her before in some of her classes but never spoken to her-she seemed nice but protective. The blond turns to Felicity and holds out a perfectly manicured hand "Hi, I'm Sara Lance. You're Felicity right, the girl the Queens adopted?" She introduced herself and the last name rang a bell but Felicity couldn't but her finger on it. "My sister, Laurel is in an on/ off relationship with Ollie" she informs her when she notices Felicity's confused face and she nods remembering him mentioning Laurel. What does get her attention though is the way Sara practically sighs Oliver's name.

"Hey Sara" Caitlin greets her with a cautious smile which Sara returns widely.

"Hello guys, I heard that you're having guy trouble. I think I'd be panicking if he asked me out so I understand and know exactly what to do" she turned to the guys "You aren't invited sorry!" she sings and grabs Felicity and Caitlin's hand calling Iris and dragging them away. "I know we haven't exactly spoken in a long while and I suppose that's partially my fault but now we have the time to reconnect and stuff." She's talking to Caitlin and Iris but Felicity can't help but listen and not understand, noticing her confused face Sara begins to explain "We-" she motions between the other two girls and herself "Used to be extremely close in middle school but then when I befriended Nyssa and her friends we drifted and haven't spoken since freshman year"

The three girls are talking animatedly, laughing and making up for the years they missed while Felicity watches with a smile. Then she notices Sara staring at her expectantly "Err, what?" she mutters sheepishly, Sara grins and shakes her head.

"You're cute. I said next time Laurel is at yours I'll come by too" Felicity nods. "I'd like that" she replies giving an easy smile.

The girls continue to talk about Ronnie and Eddie and Barry and Oliver while Felicity watches in fascination learning things about everyone mentioned she never knew. For example, who knew Eddie took his inspiration to be a detective from Iris and Barry's dad or that Barry wants to be forensic scientist when he's older.

She thinks about what Thea said this morning and sighs softly. Felicity wasn't sure how she was going to do but she'd had enough practise, she pushes almost everyone out of her life and those she doesn't leave anyway.

When Felicity was really young she and her father were extremely close and alike which made it so much harder for both her and her mom when he left. Her mother was left with a child who reminded her of her ex with everything she did while Felicity was left without a father and without a friend. Her mom tried her hardest to be there for Felicity and make enough money to support them with the things they need but eventually it became too much and Felicity was taken to the Orphanage where she stayed until her two failed adoptions.

The queens were different. Felicity felt at home with them, more at home she'd ever felt and that's wat made the thought of them giving her back all the more painful. She wished it was as bad as the others, maybe they'd get bored of her. If her first parents where any example that wouldn't take long…

They were a young couple both in their young 20's and unable to conceive children so naturally the only other option was to adopt. Lucky for her they weren't fussy for an age and quickly adopted her for the features her mom pointed out.

Then about two years later the miracle happened and the women had been diagnosed pregnant much to the joy of her and her husband.

They thought it over and maybe it was for the best but decided to send her back with the fear of not loving her as much as they should. They were very nice about it and tried to explain it in kind words but Felicity was smart and it didn't take her long to realise what had happened.

"Hey sweetheart. We… We have decided that maybe it was best if we take you back to the orphanage. Not because we don't love you, because we do very much, but because we feel that we don't love you enough. I don't think we're the right parents for you honey. I'm sor-"The women tried but Felicity cut her off with a small sad smile.

"It's okay. I understand, now you have your own child you want to be able to give them your full attention. Thanks for taking care of me these last few years I'll just go and pack my bags" Felicity said honestly. The women's eyes filled with unshed tears and she enveloped Felicity in a large hug a few tears escaping and falling into her hair.

She went upstairs and packed her small amount of items before going downstairs suitcase in hand and a smile on her face. They stood together wrapped around each other while the women cried silent tears. "Here you go, something to remember us by?" They passed her a photo of the three of them smiling at the camera in front of the Empire state building.

"Thankyou" she whispered before nodding to the door "shall we go?" they nodded and lead her out the orphanage. They pulled her in for a hug and she whispered "Whatever the circumstances never give your child away" the women cried and nodding kissing her forehead.

When she got in the Orphanage the girls were already at the door laughing at her. She rushed passed them into the main room where the care taker smiled and lead her up to her room. As she passed the girl they passed items "I told you didn't I. She'll never be adopted not without being given back" they whispered snidely behind her back.

Felicity bit her lip trying to keep the tears at bay "I'll leave you here" The care taker whispered when they got to her room "It's nice to have you back Felicity" she murmured before exiting the room.

When she was alone Felicity finally let the tears fall. The girls were right she'd never get adopted. She was never meant to be wanted hell her own mother gave her away.

"Felicity!" Sara yelled and Felicity blinked looking up at them through teary eyes. "Are you okay?" at that moment Iris and Caitlin came back in looking slightly worried.

"I…yes. Where did you go?" Felicity answered before addressing the girls. They blushed and muttered something "huh?"

Iris turned to Caitlin and Caitlin to her before saying "We called Oliver" Felicity didn't know if she should be angry or thankful "Thankful" Caitlin answered earning a nod from the other two girls after Felicity said her last thought out loud. "You started hyperventilating and Oliver talked us how to get you out of it. It didn't help much but we know for next time. He's coming by the way"

"He's what!" Felicity cried. Iris, Caitlin and Sara all blushed and nodded "why!"

They shared a look "He sounded pretty scared. Apparently, he was out with Tommy? But left immediately" Felicity sighed and buried her head in her hands, this wasn't going to make avoiding him any easier if they're calling him every five seconds.

"Next time… don't" she sighed and the three girls shared a countering look "He told us to-" they started but she cut the off "Well, I'm saying the next time I have a panic attack don't call Oliver" it took a few seconds of glaring but they nodding and Sara and Caitlin each grabbed an arm to drag her outside.

Oliver stood against his car looking extremely pale "Oliver, you don't have to come and get me after every-are you okay?" she started and then pulled her chastising short when she noticed his cold sweat. "Oliver" she tried again with no avail.

When he finally looked at her he smiled wearily and stumbled towards her "Glad you're okay 'lisity" he mumbled.

She turned behind her looking at her three new friends for help all of which shrugged "Oliver-look at me-what were you doing with Tommy?" she asks him slowly he shrugs childishly and turns heading back to the car "Oliver. What were you doing?" she presses and he sighs throwing his body weight against the car making it rattle.

"We we're just talking. Just talking, I just still don't feel 100% from last night, Y'know?" Felicity nods satisfied with her answer "Are you coming home or?" he asks her and she shrugs turning to the girls in question "Oh, hey Sara didn't see you there. Iris, Caitlin" he greets them all and gives Sara a small hug. Felicity is mildly surprised he remembered their names.

"No it's okay, erm, see you later?" Felicity offered remembering her personal goal-drive Oliver away. He nodded slowly and got in the car "Be careful Oliver" she muttered when he rolled his window down to say goodbye. With a small nod he drove away.

She turned back to the gaping girls behind her "What?" Felicity asked. They shook their heads in disbelief but said nothing before grabbing her hands and pulling her inside. "You could've skipped class to go off with Oliver Queen and you didn't-it's free period and everything Felicity are you mental?" Iris squealed even Caitlin and Sara were nodding.

"Sara your sister is dating him and Caitlin you just got asked out by Ronnie?!" they shrugged dismissively. "I can't believe you're talking about him like that…" Felicity muttered as they walked back in side. Iris turned to her in shock and started to list why they were so obsessed with Felicity's adoptive brother-who, personally, felt no brotherly feelings for what so ever. Thea was another question though, she was the little sister she never had and her closest girlfriend. Despite being three years older than her she felt as though her and Thea were very alike apart from their past.

"He's just so..." Iris drifted off with a sigh "OLIVER" Sara answered for her. "Yeah I mean, did you see how worried he was for you Felicity, he was practically dying himself yet you came first. Then all those years where he was over protective of Thea, god, he would barely let anyone go near her. I'd feel sorry for her if it wasn't Oliver's doing." They carried on and Felicity tuned them out thinking about how difficult avoiding and getting Oliver out her life would be.

Sara reached up and brushed a stray piece of hair out of Felicity's face "What's up?" she whispered in her ear while Iris and Caitlin babbled about Oliver. She blushed and tried to think of a convincing story "I tell you what give me a few seconds and you can tell me alone, okay?" Sara offered, Felicity nodded in thanks. "Hey, guys, I'm going to grab something from my locker and Felicity wants to use the bathroom, we'll be back soon and if we're not back before class starts we'll see you there"

They all nodded and Sara dragged her to the locker room. Felicity blushed ash realised where they were and what normally happened her however Sara was too busy to notice Felicity's embarrassment. "What're you doing Sara?" she whispered but she didn't answer and a few seconds later there was a cry of accomplishment and a bright light shone down on them. A slab of the roof tiles moved revealing a sliding step ladder leading into an attic "This is amazing how'd you find out about it?" Sara turned to Felicity with a smirk.

"Laurel showed me this when she left it was her and Oliver's… hook up spot" Felicity gave a shiver and climbed the ladder after Sara. "So what's up?"

Felicity bit her lip, tugging on it roughly "It's Oliver" Sara rolled her eyes "it's nothing like that I just… All my life everything's been chosen for me and because of this people leave, they leave me to deal with the consequences of their actions or they think I'm weird or- that's beside the point. I don't want to be left again and for the first time in my whole life I can choose and I choose not to hurt us both in the long term when he leaves. However, I don't know how I'm going to do it. In the last week and a bit, he's the closest I've ever come to a best friend, someone I can rely on and that… It scares me. I know he's going to go in the end, everyone does, but I want to push him away before he can. I don't know how to do it without hurting him though" Felicity rambled and to her surprise tears gathered in her eyes.

Sara smiled sadly at her "You want to know a secret?" Felicity nodded and she wiped the tears away that escaped down her cheeks. "I've had a crush on Oliver since I could remember, and I've had to watch him and my SISTER date and kiss and slowly fall in love all the while knowing she doesn't actually love him. She was looking for something stable that she can use as… that she can use to gain popularity. I know Oliver doesn't love her either but it still hurts, Y'know?" To be fair Felicity didn't know but she nodded anyway giving her friend the support she needed. "I don't know what to do?"

"Aren't we just a pile of f**k ups?" Sara mumbled leaning her head on Felicity's shoulder. Felicity reached up to play with the ends of her hair while nodding softly. "Shall we make a deal?" Sara offered "We help each other, I mean I'll help you push Oliver away and you can help me get over Oliver?" Felicity nodded softly.

They walked back down the stairs slowly and wandered through the halls careful to avoid the windows, Sara held her arm around Felicity's shoulders and they spoke in hushed voices. "You could always date someone?" Felicity wondered aloud. Sara nodded and turned to Felicity with a soft unreadable expression "Nyssa seems pretty friendly" She added.

"She does doesn't she?" Sara smiled thoughtfully and grasped Felicity's hand tightly "Now, about your… predicament. I don't think wat your doing will cause you less pain I think it's just going to keep increasing until you're too badly wounded to do anything about it. And think of Oliver. He cares about you, a lot, maybe even as much as he does Thea… This would break him if he kept seeing you every day and knowing you don't want anything to do with him. He'd go back to the way he used too, drinking and drugs and cheating. Play boy billionaire is back in motion." Felicity nodded taking Sara's words into account. "Yeah, maybe he will leave in the end but Oliver is… he's complicated. The days you're with him will be some of the best of your life." Felicity smirked at Sara earning a slight glare "I'm serious, even Laurel comes home buzzing after a day out with him and she knows he's cheating on her"

Felicity nods quietly "Okay, so I don't push him away but what do I do?"

"You be there for him. You're his shoulder to cry on, his living diary. His light. You're the one he can guarantee to be there waiting at the end of the tunnel. You be his best friend, not his sister, you let things take their own course and who knows what will happen at the end. If he says or does something harsh you're allowed to slap him and chastise him for it. You're going to be everything he needs until he realises how much he'll miss you when he's gone. Therefore he'll never leave. Fool-proof plan really" Sara answers and Felicity grins launching herself at Sara with a hug.

They fall to the floor Sara looming over her with a big smile but that's when things go crashing down and Sara's face turns into one she'd never forget.

Its 3:36 and try as she might Felicity can't fall asleep in fear of him coming into her room while she's asleep so instead she stares at the door almost begging it to move so she can get it over with and get some sleep.

He finally does come in, barging through the door with a small grunt. Felicity cowers in her bed pulling the covers to her chin in fear as her whole body trembles. Their eyes meet in the darkness and the terror he must see in her eyes makes him laugh so hard his whole body shakes. She hates him, hate shim more than anything in the whole entire world.

He stalks over towards her bed and sits on the edge by her and then begins to tenderly stroke her face almost patronisingly. She wants to flinch away but she knows if she does everything will just escalate ten folds.

There's a moment when she thinks he'll stop but he doesn't and his fingers trace the outline of her body through the duvet. He says something but the panic paralyses her into a comatose state, she can't move talk and now she can't hear what he's saying. His fingers stop and he raises them in a threat but again she doesn't know what he's saying. They hit her face with an almighty slap and she recoils back quickly and then catches herself at the last minute, freezing.

The hits don't stop they just travel. He sits on her legs, stopping them from moving as he continues his round of abuse. She blacks out half way through and when she wake up again he's gone but her whole body is aching so there's no doubt that last night wasn't real.

"Least I got rest, even if it was during his… acts" she mumbles as she applies the foundation and concealer that she stole from Mrs Rochev the first night. There's a repetitive banging in the room next to her and she doesn't put much thought into what they're doing.

She gets dressed quickly and grabs a few dollars of the side before rushing to catch the bus. It's late today and the rain is ever threatening to remove the makeup off of her face. So she shrugs her jacket off and puts it over her head in hope of keeping some secrets.

When the bus does finally come she's sat by herself on one of the last benches away from all the other kids. She pulls out a book that she rented from the library about codes and begins where she formally left off. There's a kid behind her kicking her chair in a repetitive motion and it's catching one of the bruises that were added to her skin last night. She pulls her head round to glare at the kid who shrinks back and stabilises there feet on the floor, she quickly apologises but that one action was enough to start the rumours.

As she enters the school there are whispers as she walks past "she's the one that beat up that kid" "It was her that yelled at the kid this morning on the bus" "She's been tormenting the poor kid for years no wonder he told someone, thank god he did" There are loads more but if there's one thing that Felicity is used to its rumours about her. She scowls and heads to the library to swap the book.

The day goes slowly and every minute gets longer with every point or laugh or stare. Then during last period her name is called up the principal's office and when she gets up the whispers start again.

"Felicity, it's quite unusual to call you up here for bad behaviour but hence the day has come. There have been rumours all round school that you hit a small boy on the bus this morning. For that you have been excluded for two days. We'll see you back here on Thursday." The professor speaks with high authority and she knows that any attempt to argue would be wasting her breath but she does it anyway.

"But sir, I didn't. He was kicking my chair and it kept hitting this bruise I have on my back so I turned round and glared at him. I quickly apologised and the rumours started, I never yelled at him. I said I was sorry and that was that?" Felicity questioned and the principle gave her a furrowed look before asking "Where'd you get these bruises?"

Time stopped and a lump appeared in her throat "I-I… err, I bumped into something last night" she offered.

"On your back?" he inquired and she nodded before rambling off some story about the corner of a table. "How do I know you're telling the truth?" he asks.

"Because I haven't done anything before. If I was going to yell at the kid I would've done it years ago, it was just this morning I had a specific bruise there… Plus, I know what it's like so why would I do that?" Then she swore under her breath realising what she just said "I mean, getting yelled at and stuff not the hitting or anything. But, you hadn't heard that rumour so…3, 2, 1" The principle just looked at her with sad eyes.

"I understand Felicity, but I'm afraid you'll have to be excluded for at least one day" she nodded and walked away "Oh yeah, Felicity-"she turned "Talk to someone" She nodded not quite sure which bit she should talk to someone about and exited the room.

That day when she got home her eyes immediately found the empty beer bottles on the floor "S**t, where are you" then she turned and tripped. His evil beady eyes found hers and he raised a beefy fist.

"I heard you were suspended" Then the cycle happened again and again and again…

Felicity's eyes flittered open meeting the scared blue ones of Sara. Then her face was pressed against Sara's stomach as her friend hugged her tightly "Oh I'm so sorry!" She cried into her hair as she hugged her.

Felicity sat up and dried her eyes "It's okay, it could've been anything. I'm sorry that you saw that" A moment later a young teacher walked down the stairs her gaze finding the two girls quickly.

"Why aren't you two in class?" her sharp voice swayed Felicity's memories but she pushed it away clutched Sara's hand like a lifeline. "Wait, have you been crying? Are you okay?" the young women jogged forward and squatted close to the two girls. "What's wrong? Do you need to go to the nurse?" Felicity looked at Sara in hope she'd answer.

Sara brushed her hands on her knees and stood up pulling Felicity with her "My friend, she gets panic attacks sometime and we needed to get somewhere quiet to bring her out of it. You're not going to get us in trouble are you?" Sara explained earning a sad shake of the head from the young teacher.

Then she two stood up "Why don't you two come to my office for the remainder of the day?" she offered and Felicity nodded slightly to Sara "It's this way" and they headed the way the teacher had come with small hesitant steps. All the while their hands never fell apart and Felicity managed to use Sara's strong grip to keep her grounded. "You can sit here while I carry on with some work." She muttered then hurried out the door.

"Are you okay? Do you want to talk about it?" Sara asked when they were finally alone. Felicity shook her head and rested her head on Sara's shoulder in defeat.

They sat in silence for a long time and finally the bell rang out through the school making them both jump. Sara hugged Felicity and muttered something about seeing her tomorrow before dragging her out the door and into the car park where she left her in front of Oliver. Sara pulled Oliver to the side and exchanged a few words with him before leaving them both.

"You have a good day?" he asked softly and she nodded before walking up to him and hugging him tightly. "What's a matter Felicity?" he whispered into her hair. They walked back to the car and got in but unlike the other drives this one wasn't silent.

"I had another PTSD attack today? As well as the one where you came-which by the way you don't have to do" He nodded and whether it was to either accusation it didn't matter. "I'm sorry" she whispered again.

"What for?"

"For trying to push you away, I was being selfish and doing so hurt you too. I, err, just wanted to say I'll be here if you need me" There was a pushing silence in the air as the apology hung dryly. When they pulled up into their extravagant drive way he got out and pulled her out.

He smoothed his shirt "I will be too, for whatever and whenever you want to talk, I'll be here waiting" Felicity reached over and hugged him again. The wondered "So tell me about Laurel" earning a light groan.

"That's one way to ruin the moment" then he laughed "I'm joking. I'm not sure if we're going out at the moment but we're kind of on and off" He paused and walked them up the stairs "She's nice and everything you could want in a girl, respectful, loyal and beautiful she's just not for me?" Felicity nodded "I'm not loyal to her, or wasn't, I never respected her like she deserved and it's now I realised how badly I treat her. I want to change that though… Help me?" he asked her and she nodded softly.

They both grabbed a drink and an Oreo before walking up to Felicity's room where they sat on the window seat and talked about almost everything until Thea came in. When she did she joined them in Felicity's room talking about her day at school.

Through the days it became routine for Oliver and Felicity to start talking in her room before Thea came in and spoke about her day. They'd put a Disney film on and get out their homework (well, Thea and Felicity did) Oliver just looked confused while he watched Felicity answer her own problems and then help Thea without so much a blink of an eye. Moira, if they hadn't already, would bring three drinks and a plate of cookies up with a time for tea and to make sure they were doing their homework.

Some days Oliver would be out and so Thea and Felicity would talk alone mostly about girly things they can't talk about with Oliver there but it was strange not having him there. As the weeks went by his absence became more common and Felicity would find herself waiting for him to come home at sill o'clock in the morning drunk out of his head more than likely with a girl under his arm. It was hard to not go and help him but she found it much harder to help him if he was blabbering about the other girl and she knew from experience.

It was hard, Oliver having changed so much but when she question Thea about it her answer was simple "That's how he was before you came" and it left her thinking.

Let me know what you think about the previous question! Please tell me what you think and I hope you enjoyed the start of Sara and Felicity's relationship. Personally, I wish there was more Sara and Felicity moments in the show but oh well I'll make up for that in this story! Thanks guys for everything.

Maisi