Thanks for the reviews. I really want this to be more about Brooke. I don't like Lucas but I think she could end up with him.
For the rest of my wonderful senior year I go to school and come home. Same thing everyday. Peyton comes to hang with me a little but mostly I just want to be alone. When we are all together, for probaly the last time, I throw my hat in the air and smile. High school is over. Maybe everything else will change. Doubtfully but I hope. Lucas looks at me. I look at Peyton. Nathan and Haley are in their own world. I look out. My parents didn't show. I didn't expect them to. Actually that's a lie. I really hoped they would. I thought graduation was important but apparantly not to them. When I look out though, I smile. My parents aren't there but Rachel is. She came back. For me? I couldn't help but run off the stage. I duck and dodge through the sea of parents and reach her.
"Hey slut what are you doing here?" I smile hugging her tightly.
"I had to see my best friend graduate," Rachel beams at me, "I couldn't miss it. Especially since we are going to throw a party of the year."
"How's that?" I ask her. I hadn't planned anything.
"I bought a few kegs. They should be dropped off at the house as we speak," Rachel grins, "By the way that picture you sent me is my cell wallpaper. Lucas looks like he lost his puppy. I love it!"
I couldn't help but look up at the stage. Lucas is taking pictures with his mom and strangly Dan too. He tries to smile but I can tell something is really wrong. I can always tell when he's not himself. I look back to Rachel, "Don't be so hard on him."
"Don't tell me you took him back!" Rachel is a bit upset at the idea.
I chuckle, "God no. I'm just saying things aren't always what they seem." I shrug, "So about this party..."
Chase interupts. He pulls me into a hug and whispers, "I don't care who you were. I care who you are." He pulls back and smiles.
"Party. Our place. Tonight." Rachel tells him.
Chase nodds and walks away.
"Why did you do that?" I ask her.
Rachel looks at me, "Uh because you know you want him there. You were like all Jennifer Aniston when you broke up don't let him find an Angelina."
I roll my eyes, "I need to change before everyone gets there. Come on."
We go back to OUR house. I've got just a few weeks left there and it seems like it's coming on way to fast. I know I'll do my thing this summer but after getting accepted at NYU and Berkley it was hard to make a decision.
"People are here!" Rachel yells up, "Not important ones but people!"
I laugh, she'll never change and I am so glad of that. She has been the best thing about my senior year. She's taught me so much. I should tell her about my decision. Maybe she'll come with me. I go downstairs dressed in a strapless black dress and matching heels. My hair is pulled back in a simple sleek pony tail. I look around the livingroom. I don't know how I am looking for but when I lock eyes with him I know.
"Can we talk?" He asks me.
I nod and lead him outside. I don't know what I want to say. I feel things that are still lingering between us but I don't want to be hurt again and I know he doesn't want that either. I sit down in a chair in the corner of the porch.
Lucas leans up against the bright white railing, "I know you hate me and you should. I got one chance to actually have a conversation with you and I blew it. Chase isn't the jerk. It's me. I strung you along then Peyton. I know you two are getting close and I wouldn't ask for anything. I'm leaving for early admission to Berkley tomorrow."
I smile to myself. Of course he'd finally listen to me.
"I just wanted to tell you I love you." Lucas kneels down in front of me, "I made so many mistakes with you. You should never want me again. Like I said, I'm sure I'll be old and gray before you do."
I look at him and feel the tears well up in my eyes, "Goodbye Lucas." I couldn't say anything else. I was so afraid to say anything else.
Lucas gets up, then he leans down and kisses my cheek, "Goodbye Pretty Girl." He smiles and walks down the steps.
I watch him until I can't see him anymore and then I let the tears fall as they may. I love him. I couldn't tell him that. I couldn't tell him anything. I am so confused over how I feel. I won't get hurt again. I just won't. I can't act on my feelings. Peyton would hate me on so many levels. I won't let Lucas come between us once more.
"Brooke?" Peyton walks out of the house. She turns and looks at me. She rushes over and kneels in the same spot Lucas was in moments before. "What happened?"
"Lucas is leaving," I say, "I'm so sorry Peyton. I tried not to feel anything. I really tried. He's going to California and I'm sad. He told me he loved me and I said nothing."
Peyton nods as if she's taking it all in, "He loves you Brooke. He always has. No matter what his mouth said, his heart spoke volumes. Go find him."
I look at her like she's grown a second head. "You can't be serious. You guys just broke up a few weeks ago."
"I fooled myself when we were together. I really thought if I told myself enough that he'd forget how much he loves you. I was wrong." Peyton smiles slightly, "If you don't go after him, I'm not your best friend anymore."
I smile big as possible. I hug her so tightly, "You are the best a person could have. I love you P.Sawyer."
"I love you B.Davis." Peyton hugs be back then stands up, "Now go."
I do as I am told and start walking toward Lucas'. I'm still in heels I might add. It seems like the walk is forever. I walk to his door and swing it open. Nothing. I look around. I notice the empty drawers hanging out. I go into the livingroom. No one is home. I see a pad with something on it. Flight 1324 12:30am. They are on thier way to take him. Now.
I go back to the house and grab my cell and Rachel's keys. I start calling Lucas but nothing. I keep calling as I get to the airport. I go up to the board to look for his flight. Flight 1324 Depart to San Francisco Departed. I felt my heart sank. I turn to walk away looking down at the ground. I feel so defeated. I don't pay attention where I am walking and run right into someone.
"I'm so sorry," I applogize.
"No I think I am," Karyn says looking at me, "You don't look so good."
I shake my head, "I can't belive he's gone."
Karyn pulls me into a hug. I hear someone walk up. I assume it's Dan, "Brooke he's not gone forever."
I pull back and look at Karyn. I've always looked up to her. "I didn't say it. I didn't say it back. What if he doesn't know?"
"He knows," Karyn smiled, "We'll walk you to your car."
