I shouldn't love you but I want to

A/N: Okay here we have the story (well this part) told by Ron. I really love Ron and am now confused on if she will take him or if Draco will prove himself. Now you will find out soon maybe even in this chapter. I just wanted to warn you that the answer may not be now. Oh, and this one has some DH spoilers. Oh and the song is Who Knew by Pink.
You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

"Hermione, are you in here?" I asked walking into the living room and seeing her beautiful face turn to me. A smile spread wide across it. I love her smile I love really everything about her. I mean I even love the bushy hair of hers. I love waking up to her breath on my back and her arm around me. I don't know what I'd do if she ever left me, I don't think that I could live my life with out her. She's my one and only. And I've loved her for so long and now we're finally together and happy.

"Ron, did you want to have to say something to me?" She asked the smile still on her face. I guess I had gone into another land, getting lost in thought about her beauty, which seems to happen a lot. "Ron?" She said again.

"Oh, oh…you got a letter; I think it's from Malfoy." I said handing her the paper that I had put in my pocket. She basically snatched the letter out of my hand. Was she awaiting a letter from him? She sat very still in the chair holding the letter with shaky hands. I watched as her honey eyes followed the sentence. It was silent other then sound of Hermione turning the page around and the sound of her shifting in her seat. Finally I just had to say something the silence was killing me!

"What did he say?" I asked

"Nothing Ron, he said nothing that concerns you!" She said angrily. But she took a deep breath and started over again. "I'm sorry; it was just surprising that's all."

"Can I see it?" I asked holding out my hand already expecting her to hand it to me. But she didn't, she put the paper in her pocket and just shook her head. "I'm sorry Ron, it's my letter please don't ask again. It's for your own good." And that was all she said, she got up and left me standing there clueless. She just walked out the door then and there. I stood there still staring at the chair she had been sitting in. Still standing there in front of the chair after twenty minuets Hermione came back. Her face was a bit red, as if she had been running.

"You're still standing there Ron?" She said walking up behind me. I turned and looked at her still shocked.

"I…ah…where did you go?" I said trying my best not to say anything about the letter. I wanted to read it but I didn't want to get her angry.
"I went out for a walk, Ron I think we need to talk." She said taking my hand and sitting down with me on the couch. I was scared, she was about to say something I didn't want to hear. But maybe that sorrow in her voice wasn't from that maybe it was because of the letter. I really hope that's the reason!

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

I remember when we were supposed to be in our seventh year. We went out to help Harry with his quest. I walked out on you and as soon as I did I regretted it. Why had I done that? The locket, the locket made me angry, made me think things that may have already been in my head but it truly made them seem so true. But when I finally found them again I found that weren't true but I did find that Hermione was very VERY angry at me for leaving them. Harry got over it seeing as I had saved his life. But Hermione it took her a long time to finally forgive me for what I had done. I could understand why and I was truly sorry about it. But I let her do things her way and didn't argue. I thought that better. You took your time and by the end of the year we had kissed in the middle of a battle. That was great!

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew

"Ron, I…I don't really know quite how to start this. I mean I love you very very much Ron but…" Hermione said not once looking up from her folded hands and into my eyes.

"What was the letter about Hermione?" I asked when she hadn't said anything for awhile.

"What? Oh, it was about, Ron I think that you need to know something. Draco and I have been…seeing each other…and the other night…we had a-a fight. Well I wouldn't quite call it that but still. Now he's sent me a letter telling me he's sorry and how much he loves me. And I-I just d-don't k-know what to say." She said starting to cry.

"Hermione don't cry," I said wiping her tears away gently with my with my thumb.

"R-Ron, I-I love you I just want you to know that."—"I know you do."—"But I love Draco too, so m-much sometimes I think it hurts. But Ron I can't keep doing this to y-you, I love you too much. I feel myself dieing inside betraying my best friend a-and my lover. I come home and you're asleep o-on the couch, you waited for me all n-night. And what had I been doing I had been off with s-some g-guy." She stopped and looked at me hoping I would say something more. But I didn't I couldn't believe what she had just told me. "R-Ron please don't b-be mad at m-me! I just…he was so s-sweet. And he had c-changed; I mean he has c-changed. But Ron I love I do. Please believe me about that if you believe nothing else." Once again she stopped but I still couldn't say anything. My heart was pounding, my brain was going a thousand miles an hour, and my stomach was twisting like there was no tomorrow. I couldn't tell if I was angry, disappointed, or happy, I was so confused by this.

"Ron will y-you please say something! I-I can't t-take it!" She said still having the tears falling from her eyes.

"Have you guys…you know?" I asked because that was truly the only thing on my mind. I couldn't stand the thought of the two of them together.

She sighed and I got what her answer was going to be. "Ron do you really want to know?" she asked knowing that I knew what the answer was.

"I guess you're leaving me for him." I said wishing that the answer was no.

"Ron, I love you and you know that I would never want to hurt you but I just want to see what life would be like with Draco if didn't have the feeling of betraying some one following me." She said. I kissed her as softly as I could before saying. "Sorry 'Mione but you just did." And with that I left her there and went and sat outside on the bench. It was cold but I liked it, it helped with my sore and broken heart.

A/N: Okay so tell me what you think about this chapter. And no this is not the last chapter. I feel so so bad for Ron in thsi story.
Lilly