"Son, please. She's not ready for you yet." I turned over onto my stomach and onto Carlisle's lap. I groaned at my achy body; let's just say I didn't get much sleep last night if you know what I mean.
"Who is it, Carlisle?" He glanced over at me with a determined expression clearly etched onto his face. I played with a string on his sweatpants, while resting my head against his stone hard bare chest.
"No, she's not ready. Edward, no." I looked up, my face full of horror. Edward? What was he doing on the phone with Carlisle?
I reached for the phone from Carlisle, but he moved it out of reach. I bit my lip; Carlisle was right about me not being ready for Edward to come back yet. But why would he come back in the first place? He said he didn't want me, and he looked pretty damn sure of it.
"Jasper isn't going to want to see her. It would be best if you two stay where you are." Now I was defiantly curious. Was he talking about Alice? I didn't know whether I wanted to see her or not, but if she came back then maybe Jasper would stop looking at me like I was something to eat. "You need to keep your word son. And I don't want to know what Alice has to say to me," He sighed into the phone, "I'm begging you, Edward. Don't do this to her." He growled at whatever Edward said next, and it made me surprised. Carlisle was never angry; he had the most patience of any vampire I had met. "I see. Well then we'll be seeing you." He hung up the phone and looked at me with pleading eyes.
"Can you forgive me for allowing him to come back?" I looked away from him, out into the dim sunlight. "How could I be mad at you for it?" He chuckled lightly and then looked at me with sad eyes. "He wants to talk to me in person. He's not staying, Bella." I nodded, "Yeah, I guessed he wouldn't." I cuddled up into his arms, taking a deep breath. "Why is Alice coming?"
"That's the reason why Edward is coming to talk to me. She told him something she had a vision of, and he feels like it was important enough to come talk to me about." My mind raced; what could be so important that Edward couldn't talk to Carlisle on the phone about? The Volturi? I shuddered at the thought. Carlisle noticed, and kissed me on the head. "Don't worry, I'm sure it's nothing big," He tried to reassure me, but I knew he was just as worried as I was. "And I'll make him leave as soon as he's done talking to me."
I sighed, and tried to get up and out of bed. "Ow." I rubbed my back tenderly. I hadn't realized just how much it hurt until I tried moving. Carlisle moved his cool hand to my skin, "Did I hurt you last night? I'm sorry, sweetheart, I told you I was going to end up hurting you." I could feel his hand move up my back, and heard him groan when he touched a few places on my spine that hurt. "What have I done to you?" He kissed the bruise softly, trailing down to my thigh. "It's not your fault, Carlisle. I should have noticed and told you something." He looked at me like I was crazy, "Bella, I just understand you sometimes. You wouldn't tell me if I had broken your bones, much less if I was hurting your back." I shrugged, "Rough sex." He laughed, and pulled me up into his arms. "Well, it looks like I'll just have to carry you down the stairs." I pushed him away slightly, even though I knew I wouldn't get very far. "But Jasper will see!"
"Good." He set me back down and handed me my clothes. "So when are they coming? Soon?" I was surprised at the hopefulness in my voice. "Today. Edward was very clear that he wanted to talk as soon as possible." I nodded, and hoped that Carlisle didn't notice my happiness from hearing that Edward would be back soon.
It wasn't my fault; I still loved Edward. There was still that connection that we had, and no matter how much he broke me, I would still love him.
I looked over at Carlisle who was putting on fresh clothes. I loved him, I really did, but I also loved Edward. I was putting Carlisle into a bind, and I couldn't do anything about it. I loved it at his expense.
"Come on," He picked me up one he had finished dressing, "I need to tell Jasper about our guests." Poor Jasper, also having to see the person he loved. And because of me too!
"Carlisle, Bella." Jasper greeted us when we got downstairs. He stalled when he saw me, and smiled darkly. Maybe I didn't really care about him seeing Alice; it might just be his antidote.
"So," Carlisle began, "I trust that you could hear my discussion with Edward from upstairs, am I right?" Jasper turned away from me and nodded. "Then I'll rely on you to keep Bella at ease when he is here."
"Of course, Carlisle. I'll keep Bella safe." There was dark humor in his voice, and it made me uneasy. "I'll make you breakfast, Bella. I need to keep you doing something for the time being." He bustled around the kitchen preparing my favorite-pancakes. Jasper sat next to me discussing what he had seen on the news recently, apparently thinking I cared. Eventually, Carlisle set a steaming plate of his homemade pancakes in front of me and took a seat next to me. I was thankful that when he sat down, Jasper stopped talking about the particularly gruesome killing of a young girl up in Seattle.
When I was done, we sat in the dining room, completely silent. Jasper was stalk still, while Carlisle gave me a back massage to ease the pain from last night. Finally, there was a knock at the door. Jasper got up swiftly to answer the door while I sat in Carlisle's lap preparing for the worst.
And there he was, the most gorgeous thing I had ever seen in the world. My arms felt limp, and I had to suppress myself from my running into his arms. Edward, my heart called to me.
Carlisle squeezed my hand and then moved me out from under him. He walked quickly over to the door where now Alice was also peeking out from. Carlisle outstretched his hand towards Edward, who took it lightly, looking into Carlisle's eyes with his own black ones. Alice was hiding behind Edward, looking like she was scared we were going to jump her. When she noticed Jasper, she gasped and looked away.
It was Carlisle who spoke first. "Edward, Alice, it's nice to see you two back here so soon." Edward looked jeeringly back at him, "I wish I could say the same to you." Carlisle frowned, but motioned him to come inside. Edward came to sit down, looking everywhere but at me. He looked almost thoughtful behind those black eyes, and it made my heart ache. Alice sat next to me, "Alice." I almost cried out. But she shook her head and looked straight at Edward. "So I'm guessing you're wondering why we're here." Edward said darkly. Carlisle only nodded, looking over at Jasper. I felt a calm wave rush over at me, and heard Edward laugh to himself.
"Alice had a vision. One I only too much enjoyed seeing in her head," He growled. "Carlisle, you do realize that when I asked you to take care of her I didn't mean fuck her beyond imagine did you?" Carlisle shifted in his seat looking embarrassed. "Edward, you left. Bella needed someone to protect her-," Edward stood up, going to stand by Edward. He bared his teeth viciously, but Carlisle only looked sad. "And that's how you protect her? It's not only that! You love her, don't you? I leave her with you and you fall in love with her; you're twisted, Carlisle."
"Edward." Alice cautioned from her sear next to me. I sat there quietly, trying to process his words. "That's not the only reason you came here, Edward." My voice crackled from beneath me. Edward looked over at me with vicious eyes, and I backed further into my chair. "Oh, but it is, Bella. How do you think I feel knowing that you want Carlisle to change you? Do you know what Alice saw? She saw your choice; Carlisle straddling you while sucking on your blood. That's exactly what I want to see when I come home." He looked back at Carlisle, this time his voice low and rough, "Don't touch her. Don't even think about touching her." He turned on his heel towards the door, "I don't know what you you're thinking, Bella, but Carlisle changing you is not what you want." I shook my head, "What does it matter to you, Edward? You don't want me anymore! If you were so worried about Carlisle changing me, then maybe you should have done it in the first place!" He looked at me, his smile angry. "You're right. I don't want you anymore," He turned towards Carlisle, "Have fun. I'll defiantly enjoy the thought of my father figure fucking out Bella." He walked out the door, slamming it in the process. "I'm sorry, Carlisle! I didn't know he would... I'm sorry." Alice pleaded with him. She turned away and ran out the door. I could hear Edward's car screech as it turned down the road away from the us.
No one moved in the house. I was on the brink of tears, and ready to pack up my bags and leave. What was I doing in a world full of vampires anyways? I had been foolish thinking that maybe somewhere deep down Edward still cared. He didn't care, and it tore me apart to have to see him disappear again.
"Carlisle." Jasper motioned at him towards me. Carlisle looked over to where I sat, looking like I had just died. "Bella," His arms wrapped around me tightly, and he kissed me on the head a million times. "I shouldn't have let him come, I should have known better."
I grabbed a bunch of his hair and cried into his shoulder. He didn't say anything, just let me sob the night away.
He took me up to his room where he cradled me in his arms. I was a mess, broken to the core. Whatever hope I had left in Edward was gone, and I didn't want anything to do with him now.
Carlisle's cold hands removed my clothes as I finished with my last tears. "Baby, I will always love you." He kissed me on the head and began to get up. I grabbed his arm, "No, don't leave me! Please, Carlisle, please!" I begged for him to stay as I choked on my words. He took off his shirt and let me bury my face deep into his skin. "I will always stay, until you push me away." He breathed deeply into my hair.
We stayed like that for who knows how long, until Carlisle spoke again, "I have to know one thing that now I've been wondering about," He paused to see if I would object, but I just laid there. "Did you really decide that me changing you would be when we had sex?" I blushed into his chest; a warm contradiction to his icy skin. "I didn't really decide it. It was more of a... fantasy." I felt slutty at the thought. It was wrong, but how could I not at least think about it?
He chuckled, the first laugh I had heard in the last few hours. "I wouldn't object, but that would make it very hard to not just kill you right there. I admire you for your creativity though, and I almost wish I could see it." I smiled at him and looked away. He exhaled, "Sorry, I didn't mean to bring him up again." I nodded, still looking away and out the window. It was dark out now, proof at how long I had been crying. He murmured in my ear, causing me to jump. "Would you like me to straddle you and pretend I was going to change you?" I stared wide eyed at him, not really grasping at what he said. Carlisle wasn't usually like that. He was like his son, old fashioned and not at all dirty.
He grinned, almost boyishly and kissed me on the cheek. "So how about it?" I nodded almost too eagerly as he moved his body from right next to me, to right below my belly. He leaned down next to me, and his breath was raspy, "Isabella Swan, I am your worst nightmare." I laughed as he kissed my neck sweetly, never biting hard enough that it would draw blood. He moved back up to my mouth, now panting. "See? The end result would be disastrous. Especially if I did this." He unbuttoned his jeans, throwing them away from the bed and onto the floor. I giggled while he kissed his way back up to my neck. He nibbled at the side and I thrashed out, the place now tingling. "Carlisle!" I laughed into his hair as he playfully teased me with his teeth.
"I can see you guys got right to action." Jasper smirked from the door. Jasper! Again? Carlisle chuckled as I covered up my body from behind him. "So if you would be so kind, Jasper, you'll let us be." Carlisle looked unhappy at the intrusion this time, even though I'm sure Jasper could hear us from downstairs. He confirmed my thoughts, "I just came to ask you to be a little more quiet. It's good we don't have neighbors; they'd hear you two miles away."
Jasper shifted uncomfortably as Carlisle moved back to kiss me on the neck. I moaned, and his eyes lit up with surprise. They were dark again, and it made me uncomfortable. He smiled at me slowly and walked out of the room. I tried to pass it off as nothing, and it wasn't too hard when Carlisle was kissing me the way he was. He was right, sex and blood would defiantly lead to my death.
"Just so you know, there's a space that only you can fill. Just so you know, I loved you then, I guess I always will."
