No, no turning back now
I wanna be pushed aside so let me go
No, no turning back now
Let me take back my life, I'd rather be all alone
Linkin Park - Lying from you
(Sidenote: This chapter is longer than the previous ones! And I apologize if Gon's being a bit OOC, but I couldn't let him go with Kurapika... it would ruin the moment! -Laughs-)
"Where's Killua?"
Leorio, Gon and Kurapika stood in front of their hotel, waiting for their friend. The two elder men looked at Gon, who stared at the ground.
"I don't know."
"What do you mean, 'I don't know'?" Leorio yelled. "He should've been here ten minutes ago!"
"Like you're one to talk," Kurapika said. "Anyway, wasn't he with you, Gon?"
"Something like that…" He sounded very uncomfortable. "But can't we just go inside? Killua's eighteen, I'm sure he'll be fine on his own. He knows where we'll be staying. He'll arrive soon."
Leorio groaned. "Fine with me."
They had finally arrived at their destination. For their new mission they would stay in this town for a few weeks, so they had booked a hotel in advance. But since this would be their last day off they had decided to spend the rest of it as they liked and meet up at the hotel again. Of course Gon and Killua took off together, however… where did he go?
"Gon, did something happen?" Kurapika asked as soon as Leorio went inside.
"Something's terribly wrong with Killua," Gon whispered, more to himself than to his friend. "I don't know what's going on with him..."
Just for a moment a gleam of red was visible, but it was gone before he noticed it. Kurapika grabbed the frightened boy's shoulders. "Gon, please tell me..."
He opened his mouth, closed it, opened it again and finally found some words to speak. Faltering he tried to explain what had happened.
"You see… we were walking down the street when we heard some old woman scream… A few seconds later we walked into a rough looking guy holding a lady's bag. We realized he was a thief and we tried to stop him, but…" He paused for a moment. "Then Killua suddenly… snapped. You know, like with Bodoro in the Exam. He just… he just struck and killed him without even blinking. But it wasn't… it wasn't even necessary to do such thing… He could've just knocked him out."
He blinked a few times. "And then he… then he smirked," he whispered. "Kurapika, you won't believe how scary it was. You know I don't get afraid easily, but… to see your friend turn into a heartless killer and just take someone's live like that… I still can't believe it. I thought he changed..."
No answer.
"Kurapika...?"
"I'll go look for him. You stay with Leorio." He sounded hoarse. Thousands of thoughts went through his mind.
"No, I'm coming with you!"
"You're not. If you interfere… there's a chance you'll get killed."
A tear escaped the boy's eye. "I know that. But… still…"
"I promise I'll bring him back," Kurapika said. He turned around so the boy couldn't see his red eyes, sparkling with resolution, although there was also a hint of fear in them. "Please believe in me."
It was clear he wouldn't tolerate any disobeying. Gon nodded, though it couldn't be seen by the blonde haired boy. He knew he had no choice. Then he went back into the hotel, hearing Kurapika's footsteps disappear. He wished for a safe return… for both of them.
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He found him in the public garden, a few miles away from the hotel. His chain had directed him to a large tree. There, hidden between the green leaves, sat a white haired boy, not aware of the man beneath him, disguised within the shadows.
"Still… what if…" It looked like Killua was lost in his thoughts.
Kurapika didn't get a chance to figure out what he was talking about. Concealing his presence through In he was trying to understand his vague statements, when at once the presence in the tree vanished. He looked up to see nothing but green, then a voice sounded from behind his back. A cold, threatening voice.
"Kurapika."
He turned around, facing the young man in front of him. "Killua..."
"Why'd you come here?" Through his dangerous voice was a slight tone of amusement perceptible.
Kurapika noticed his sharp fingernails, still stained with blood. Killua caught him looking. "Oh, I see. Gon told you about that. Well, let me tell you something now." He tilted his head to the side. "I… must say I enjoyed it."
Kurapika's red eyes widened as the words reached his ears. He knew they were the truth. The way Killua was acting, the way he was looking at him… this was the voice of an assassin, the face of a killer.
Killua grinned. He felt his true nature was about to show and he had to restrain himself. He tried to suppress the malicious feeling that had entered his mind. No, he wouldn't kill Kurapika… yet.
But why couldn't the other side of him just leave him alone?! There was something inside his head trying to get him back to his usual, calm self, that friendship-like feeling he felt when he was with Kurapika… It frustrated him, the cold assassin wasn't supposed to have any bonds, it wasn't possible people could like him. It was all thanks to his soft side, who got himself surrounded by so-called friends… The murderer hidden inside his body grinded his teeth in frustration. He knew he was the true Killua, that he wasn't a normal person. Why wouldn't the other one just listen to him? Why did he keep thinking he could be a regular man, living a common life, together with ordinary comrades? He just didn't get it… he was a murderer, an assassin by birth for god's sake!
"No… I'm not…"
The last time he'd experienced something like this was that one time on the airship. Someone interrupted him when he was dealing with some inner problems, so he killed him.
He didn't realize he was doing the same thing now. Kurapika listened carefully as the boy again muttered a few words, staring at the sky.
"Why… is all this happening to me?"
I can't escape this hell
So many times I've tried
But I'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Three Days Grace - Animal I have become
I know, I know! The 'moment' wasn't what you all expected, right? Just like I told you, I don't like to rush a story, haha. Wow, Killua's kinda schizophrenic... it got to me as I was progressing my Killua AMV.
Alright. What'll happen next chapter? Killua going out of his mind again? Will he end up killing Kurapika, or will other things happen? Things you're all waiting for? I know it and you don't! Behold the mighty power of an author! Mwahaha. Just read to find out!
