note: the last one. the ending ain't pretty!


I wanted to tell you I'd changed
I wanted to tell you that things would be different this time

Time didn't really mean anything to him when he was younger.

The days all blurred together and it was difficult to tell when a new week had begun. Lately, time had started taking on a new meaning.

He was twenty-six and it seemed as if time was against him.

I see you
You see me different

"Sasuke, it's time we went our separate ways."

He stood frozen at the threshold of his, no, their home. He had come home from work to find his girlfriend of nearly nine years standing in front of two big, red suitcases.

"I'm leaving. For good this time."

He watched the woman bend over to pick up her belongings. This wasn't supposed to happen. He had worked long and hard with his therapist in order to stop her from leaving, in order to say those words to her. Those words that she had so desperately wanted to hear. He would finally be able to say them to his beautiful angel.

He blocked her exit as she tried to step past him.

"You can't."

"Sasuke, please don't make this harder on yourself." His wasted angel glared at him. Her eyes were like jade, cold and glassy.

"You can't," he repeated. "Not yet, listen to what I have to say first."

He watched her bite her lip and a bolt of lust travel down his body.

She release a tired sigh. "Why? Why would this time be different than the others?"

"Because it will. I've changed." He searched through his suit's pockets to find that little box he had been saving for the perfect moment.

It was now or never.

"I've changed, Sakura." He pulled out the small velvet box. "I've been seeing a therapist," he saw her eyes widen, "together with Kakashi and Naruto, they've. . . helped me. I've. . . managed to put what happened behind me. Like I've said, I changed and I changed for you." He showed her the small box and what was inside. Her sparkling eyes grew even wider. "I changed because. . . because I love you, Sakura Haruno. I'm in love with you." She dropped her suitcases in utter shock. "God, do I love you so much."

His heart clenched when she began to cry.

He had said it.

Those words that had turned him into a heartless bastard such a long time ago.

Through these nine years, when he had been stuck in his own world where there was no such things as forgiveness or kindness or love, she had stayed with him. There had been a few times when she had threatened to leave him but she never made it passed the front door. She stayed, braving through all those horrible times when he would be cruel towards her, when he would completely ignore her needs, ignore her existence and when his rough and demanding appetite became too painful. He had claimed the woman but made no effort to satisfy her in any way. Still, through all those horrors she stayed with him. Simply because she loved him so much.

And now, now he could finally return those feelings.

"Oh, why, Sasuke! Why!" She covered her face with both hands. "Why did you have to say those words now? Why didn't you say these words years ago?" She finally looked at him. Her face was puffy and red, the tears trailing down her cheeks fell to the floor. "Why couldn't you tell me earlier?"

Dread filled his heart. He felt that she was about to say something that would break him and it scared him. "Sakura-"

"Sasuke, don't." She wiped her eyes. "I love you."

His heart jumped with joy.

"I love you but I can't do this anymore. I can't marry you. I have to end this before it finishes us both." She grabbed her suitcases once again. His heart cracked. "Everything is different now. And we have been through a lot. Like you said, you've changed and I've changed as well."

His heart broke.

"That's why I'm being strong and I'm ending it for the both of us." She brushed past him and right before she left, she whispered, "I'm sorry."

That's when his heart shattered.

And the memories came flooding back.

A six-year-old little boy with black hair and big black eyes watching a crow take his beloved plant away.

The same little boy now an eight-year-old watching his first and last pet dog die at his feet.

The same boy receiving news of his parents death.

That same boy now thirteen years old rushing happily to his older brother's bedside only to find him not breathing and without life.

That same boy now a twenty-six year old man broken, laying on the floor because his first and only love left him after he had said those words.

The words of his therapist drifted into his mind, "Don't be afraid of your feelings Sasuke. It's good to be in love and it's good to say those words to the one you are in love with. You'll feel lighter if you tell her."

It took so long to finally believe in those words. It had taken even longer to find the courage to say those words. And when those words were finally released from his mouth, his bad luck made it's appearance.

I love you.

Yes, Sasuke Uchiha was unlucky in every sense of the word when it came to love.

You tell me that you love me but you never want to see me again
You tell me that you love me but you never want to see me again


that's it
it was so hard making a repentant Sasuke lose like that but that's how it was planned.
Again please forgive any mistakes.
thank you for reading!