Hello sweethearts :) I'm sorry for taking such a long time to update, but I'm sick and never really feel like writing when I'm sick ( I'm sick Alot ) I hope you like the chapter :) I'm sorry it is so short,
but I do always try to make it at least around the 1000 words :) I would've uploaded it yesterday but I showed it to my New Beta GuitarGirlxoxo first, I am her Beta too , Check her stories out , they are freggin' awesome :)
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People thought I was surviving, doing okay but they're wrong , they see the mask put up and nothing more..
Charlie is the only one that thinks I'm going downwards, that I'm becoming more depressed every day, but he shouldn't worry about me, as long as he's here I'll survive.
I should accept it, everybody leaves in the end, well yeah unless you're a .. you know.. ehmm a mythical being .. It's hard for me to say the word, what they were.. or should I say are.
They still are … That'll never change.. I wonder if he found somebody to replace me yet, somebody else to be his 'distraction'
I wonder if he would recognize me .. I changed.. or I am changing .. but not the kind of changing that takes three days..
No, I started wearing make up, better clothes and heels.
Yes, If Alice still cared, she would've been proud of me.
I was starting to accept Jacob leaving, but I'll never forget , you don't forget it when you lose somebody , it stays with you until the end of time. My heart will always be broken , there are only three persons on the world who could break it, and two already did, the v.. vampire , the werewolf and The father.
But I stopped caring about what people thought about me, I started to rebel.. I didn't exactly care about my life anymore.
And then it happened.
It was a Friday night, and I being a bitch, I got into a fight with Charlie and the exact last words I said to him before I ran out of the house were "I hate you. Why don't you just leave me like everybody does ?! You are no father, you never were my father!" and then I ran off, I think I heard him running after me too.. I just didn't care.
Then I got drunk , went home, yes I was driving in a drunk state, and he wasn't there.
But he did leave a note,
" Bells, don't be mad at me.." I hate it when he calls me that.
" I had to go to work, some hikers went missing again,
Don't worry if I'm home late, be safe.
I love you."
Do you want to know what I did to the note ?
I burned it, without hesitating, Just took out a lighter and put it to the paper.
Little did I know that was the last thing I was ever going to hear from Charlie or well , in this case read from Charlie..
The morning after I burned that note I got a phone call..
Just like in the movies they told me they were sorry and that Charlie was missing, apparently he went into the woods with a few others they were supposed to meet at some place at 10pm to see if anybody found something new about the missing hikers.. He never showed up.
The present ( the previous was written in past tense )
"We are sorry for your loss, we are still looking for Charlie there is still a chance he's still alive, we are doing the best we can miss." There I am, standing still with the phone in my hand, not being able to move, Charlie..
He can't be gone..
Maybe he's still alive.. in the woods .. Alone.
At that point I was running downstairs, putting my shoes on, I didn't care what I looked like,
I felt weird, you could even call it powerful, but also murderous, what if somebody hurt Charlie?!
I felt so scared, so agry and lonely and … different as I walked trough the woods, as painful as it is , I still remember the day he told me I shouldn't walk in the woods alone or without him. And as the memory flashed in my mind it felt as if my already broken heat just broke a little more, if that's even possible.
Nobody would be able to repair it, and the little piece of my heart that he left behind, that little piece that belonged to Charlie was my only reason for living these days.
I won't survive if I lost him, I'd die even if I'd have to do it myself I won't care.
But.. what is this weird powerful feeling ?
I can't , this can't be happening.. I can't lose Charlie!
Please.. Oh god why me?
I was full out crying now, I felt so angry, sad, powerful, scared and lost all at the same time .. I felt as if I was going to explode out of my own skin..
What's happening to me?
I don't want something to happen to me now! I got to find Charlie.
He can't leave me not after Jacob and .. Edward !
I was overloaded by memories , the pain in my chest would make Jasper fall to the ground.
I started to tremble, My whole body started to hurt. I was so angry , this can't happen to me now!
It felt as if something cold was fighting against something soo hot in my body , I could barely move anymore I just trembled, I kept trembling, And I trembled more and more, It hurt so much ,t he cold and the heath fighting each other, my muscles hurt as if they were stretching, But I wasn't bitten, and It's not like I have werewolf blood in my system, I am not from La Push or something.. I can't be changing in a mythical creature right?! This can't be happening!? What exactly Is happening?
And just like that, everything changed, the cold and the warm weren't fighting anymore they were embracing each other, my eyesight improved, A LOT.
I heard sounds I shouldn't be able to hear..
And my skin exploded.
Wait.. What?
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What happened? alert the story and see what happend next time I upload! :)
x I hope you all are doing great !
