And here's chapter 4,

I hope it's longer but I don't think it is because I've limited time to be on the computer


Bella POV

For me stood now Alice Cullen and Jasper Hale. I didn't know what to do, or what to say, my feelings were mixed up. I hated them, loved them, I had missed them, but I also wouldn't want to see them again. This was really confusing. I also felt ashamed, because of the dead girl lying in front of me on the ground. I should have known this could happening, Alice would've seen the attack of Victoria and me being a vampire. Yet, I was surprised, they actually searched for me. I wondered why, they left me, they didn't care about me. Why did they come, to torture me more? Just to say hi? Or was it simple for them now to be around me, now I was a vampire too?

Terrified as I was, I ran.

'No Bella, wait!' I heard Alice call, but I ignored her. I ran though the trees, hopefully they wouldn't follow me. They did follow me, so my hope was hopeless. I try to run faster and faster, I needed to get away from them, I made a short turn to the right. And then two arms flung around me and pinned me to the ground.

'you think I wouldn't notice?' Alice said with a victorious smile.

'Leave me alone!' I screamed, and struggle to get out of Alice arms. She set me up, but still didn't let go of me. She almost slipped, but then the arms of Jasper were around me too. I could do what I want, but they didn't let go off me, I hissed frustrated.

'No, we won't' Alice said stern 'you need to calm down, sit and listen.

'I don't want to'

'Then we will force you'

A sudden calmness spred to my body, I gave Jasper a glare and then gave up.

I sighed and flung my arms in the air 'why won't you just leave me alone'

'Because we care about you' Alice said as a matter-of-fact.

I stared at her 'yeah right' and sat down eventually, I knew they wouldn't let me go before I had listened to what they had to tell.

'Bella' Alice said 'You truly believe we left you because we didn't care about you anymore?

'That Edward left you because he didn't love you anymore?'

'I know he did'

'you know nothing, of course we cared, and do still and Edward still loves you, more than you can imagine. We left you because Edward wanted you to be save, he thought he was putting you constantly in danger. He wanted you to have a normal human life, like any girl of your age. It broke him, he sank into a depression and didn't spoke anymore. He doesn't hunt, he doesn't move, nothing. All he can think about is you, Bella, you need to believe that'

I only stared at her, not knowing what to say.

'Bella' Jasper was now talking, 'I'm very sorry for what happened on your birthday, I never can forgive myself. I blamed myself that Edward hurt you, because he now even thought that his family was danger to you. He said that it was going to happen anyway, but I still felt ashamed. For what I had done to him, to you, to the rest of the family'

'But it wasn't your fault' I said confused 'how can you ever think that, your not superhero, everyone makes mistakes, it was still Edward who left me'

'Told you so' Alice murmured.

Alice continued : 'We couldn't even say goodbye to you, we where all broken. We were ashamed and felt like cowards. Rosalie and Emmett eventually moved out, because they couldn't take it anymore. Edward didn't come out of his room, his emotions were so bad that Jasper also was continue depressed. We all didn't know what to do, even Carlisle didn't'

I stared at them 'But why did you go after me, how did you find me?'

'I saw a vision of Victoria attacking you, I couldn't see what happened next and I still don't know why it was. I didn't know what had happened to you, then I saw you running and hunting somewhere in a forest, but I couldn't see where. I took jasper with me to forks, beginning there. We met Jacob, surprised there were werewolves'

They had met Jacob 'How was he?' I whispered.

'Bad, really bad' Jasper answered 'His emotions were really strong about you, was he your friend?'

'Yes' I choked out, he was bad, he was broken, because of me. I didn't know what to say so I looked at Alice encouraging to continue her story.

She looked at me with a torn expressions 'Our leaving didn't do well did it, you just run into the first mythical creatures you can find next, werewolves for crying out loud'

'There was nothing wrong with Jacob!' I shot back, Alice staggered back.

'I don't think-' but Jasper cut her off

'Maybe you should continue the story' he said, while he calmed both of us down.

'Of course,

'Jacob could only tell us that you were gone, but not where you went. Then I saw you by a small town somewhere north and knew where to go. Then your scent hit us, and all we had to do was follow. I'm so sorry Bella, for all what you've had to go through. What where you going to do next?'

'I don't know' I answered 'I guess I could track Victoria down'

'Our family will help, you know that do you?'

'I don't know if I want that' Alice looked if she was about to cry, even if she couldn't.

'I'm sorry Alice, I don't know if I can handle to meet everyone again, you saw how I reacted to you two'

'They miss you, only you can bring Edward back to 'life', You can bring our family together again'

I did want to meet everyone again, but I didn't know what to do, how to act, I just didn't know it anymore. I missed Edward of course, I needed him, even now, when I was strong. I stared into the hopeful eyes of Alice, in the encouraging eyes of Jasper. I had missed them like crazy. Alice clapped her hands and hugged me 'I'm so glad!'

'Hey, I'm not sure yet'

'Yes you are, you miss them and you know it' I hugged her back

'Yeah I know' and for the first time in a long period I could smile again. I looked at Jasper, who was smiling too, he patted my shoulder 'Thank you'.

I ran after Alice and Jasper, I didn't know where they lived now.

'It isn't that beautiful as Forks, but it'll do' Alice was chatting on and on. 'I also researched about myself, with the information you discovered I knew where to search, My name is Mary Alice Brandon, I don't know why my parents placed me in the asylum, they weren't mentioned often. I also had a sister Cynthia'

'I'm sorry'

'For what? It's not like I can remember anything, and I have a good life now' she smiled

We were there now, a lump rising in my throat. 'Wait here' Alice commanded and sprinted in the house, 1 second later she was back with some clothes in her arms 'you really didn't think that I would present to everybody like that, did you?'

I looked down, I had forgotten that my clothes where torn and covered in dirt and blood 'oh of course not'

'you can change there behind the bushes' she pointed at a big bush

I changed quickly and was back within seconds 'ready' I said, Alice took my hand and led me into the house. Carlisle and Esme stood in the hallway, waiting for us, bot with huge smile on their faces, then someone knocked me over. I lied on the floor looking into the sparkling eyes of Emmett, I rolled him off me, with more force then I intended to do 'ouch' he rubbed his arms.

'Sorry' I mouthed, I would have been red if I was human. I looked at Rosalie, she was smiling to, her eyes were kind. I smiled back, they didn't say anything. I wondered why, then Alice called

'Edward, there's someone for you'

I heard footsteps upstairs and a door opening and closing. I hid behind Alice, scared, I wasn't so sure of all this anymore. He walked down the stairs, then midway he stopped 'what' he asked in his perfect velvet voice, there was no emotion in it.

The I showed my face, and stood next to Alice. His mouth dropped open, and his eyes grew wide

'Bella?'


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A/N I know, I know, I stopped suddenly. But there's something wrong with my right wrist, and it need to rest, so that give me only limited time to be on the computer. It's also possible that it can take a little longer to upload again, but I try to be fast as possible.