I now approximately three and a half weeks into my pregnancy and feeling really good considering how fast it's going, of course, I wasn't aware I was pregnant for the first two weeks. Especially given the fact I have to drink animal blood every day for Squirt. The only fly in the ointment is nothing I brought on honeymoon fits me anymore. So I am wearing Edwards shirts and boxers as they are the only thing I can squeeze into, he seems happy with this for some reason, it must be a man thing.

The rest of the family are arriving tonight and then we will be organising Edward and my demise. I phoned Charlie five days ago and it was so hard, I nearly broke down a couple of times but feeling Squirt fluttering around inside of me kept me strong. I can't in all good conscience allow my father to be pulled into this world, it's just too dangerous. If he or my mother knew anything about vampires they could be put to death for the knowledge, that's just too high a price to pay for me to keep them in my life and I'm not that selfish. Being with Edward was my choice, not theirs so they shouldn't have to pay for it.

To say I was a little temperamental is putting it mildly! I seem to fly off the handle at the least little thing. Carlisle is awesome at side stepping my landmines as is Esme, but poor Edward he just can't seem to grasp the 'Always, but always agree with the pregnant woman' unwritten rule. He is wandering about with a kind of shell-shocked look on his face, I can see him going over our last conversation in his mind. He knows what he said was okay and that there should have been no cause for me to take offence, but I'm bloody pregnant and I can't help myself. It was the age-old, are you saying I'm fat comment, he just said:

"When you've slimmed back down love, I'll buy you all the beautiful new clothes you want"

all I heard was: You're fat, I don't like you being so fat, you don't deserve beautiful new clothes, now!

Esme is trying to explain to him what happened and why, he just doesn't get it at all, he's all at sea poor man. Carlisle ever the diplomat, told him "Edward son, pregnant women are like hand grenades with the pin pulled, they can go off at any time. You have to choose your words carefully, and I mean very carefully if you don't want to be caught in the explosion!"

So I spent the next few hours consoling myself by stuffing my face with all the delicious food Esme has been making for me since she arrived. We decided to wait for the others on the beach as it was so beautiful at twilight here, Edward was sitting behind me, as I leant against him, we watched dolphins in the distance leaping out of the water and I was so happy and contented it was all beyond amazing. Out of the blue, Edward said: "Yes, she's very happy!" We all looked at him, each with enquiring looks, "Who are you talking too, Edward?" Esme asked, he looked surprised and then perplexed and then extremely happy and excited.

"The baby, the baby just asked was Bella happy!" he declared and we all gasped, at last, he could hear the baby. I was so full of questions, but he said it was more like a picture he'd seen, not a worded thought yet. He'd met Spatial thinkers before so understood the question without any problem, it was still early days in the baby's development and he and Carlisle were sure worded thoughts would come soon. He spent the rest of the time, describing the view, the sunset everything to the baby and then relaying Squirt's thoughts back to us, I had tears running down my face because I was so happy and Edward then had to explain that I wasn't sad but overjoyed.

When the others finally arrived Emmett just scooped me up gently and said: "How's it going mommy, is my nephew behaving?" "Squirt's being really good and showing daddy just how happy, he or she is in picture form" The girls just squealed happily and Jasper had a silly glazed look on his face as if he was high, I think the baby's emotions are so pure he's almost euphoric, I've never seen him so relaxed and chilled out before. Once everyone put their stuff away, Alice came up to me with a large box, I looked apprehensively at it and she laughed saying not to panic, I would approve.

She was right of course, inside was maternity clothes, ones that fit me perfectly and had adjustable panels for the baby's growth. I was so relieved that I burst into tears and everyone stopped what they were doing, waiting for an outburst. "Thank you, Alice, you have no idea how desperate I was, for real clothes" is all I said smiling and they all heaved a collective sigh, I felt bad for them. Just then I felt a real kick, not just the normal fluttering and it was powerful enough to may me wince in pain.

"Love, are you okay?" Edward was at my side immediately, "Yes, the baby kicked is all, a little hard, but I'm alright" he knelt down and placed his hands on my belly, gently making soothing circles, then he felt the next kick and spoke to the baby "Gently Squirt, if you kick too hard you'll hurt mummy, okay sweetie?" he smiled and laughed, "The baby understands, it showed me two pictures one of the big kick and one of a small one, then repeated the small one. Meaning I hope that's all you'll get Love!"

Everyone was astounded at how advanced the baby was to grasp the situation. Obviously, the vampire side was more dominant, giving the baby the huge brain capacity they all have. Carlisle was explaining all our thoughts and plans to the others, Jasper was very impressed and said so. Edward just pointed to me saying "All Bella's ideas, we didn't do a thing!" "Oh, very strategic of you Bella, could I interest you in a game of chess soon" and they all laughed, I looked around confused.

"No one will play him he always wins, even Edward can't take him" said Rose as she sat beside me, the baby was still moving around so I took her hand and placed it where the movement was, Rose lit up like a Christmas tree, smiling broadly and I had never seen her look so beautiful before, Emmett was just watching us, with a slightly sad look in his eyes, I knew he was thinking how happy she would be if they had a child of their own.

I asked Alice to take some photo's of Edward and me, but not to let the bump show, I wanted my parents to have something to remind them how happy and in love we were, that our last few days were good ones. I hoped that it would make things a little easier to cope with for them. I know that it would not help that much, but maybe a little. So we spent a full day, taking what I hoped would seem like the normal idyllic honeymoon shots.

The day for the accident dawned and Esme wearing a wig to look like me went with Edward, Jasper also in disguise was to be the pilot. They would cause It to look like a fatal bird strike, jump clear and when the chopper went down after exploding, they would swim back unseen. I'm sure the wolves would not believe it was real, but would they hurt Charlie by telling him their secret and therefore ours, I hope not. The Cullens would never be returning to forks once the memorials were over.