Chapter 4
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Today was just one of those days. School had been a drag and with Sectionals being in two days time everyone just seemed...stressed. It didn't make any sense considering Evie always thought Glee club was supposed to be fun. The day had started with her being only half annoyed at Rachel but by supper time she was beyond pissed. Everything she did, her older sister found a snarky remark for. She complained about being tired, Rachel asked how she could possibly be tired when she didn't put any effort into rehearsal. She said she was starving, Rachel rolled her eyes and muttered something about not having lunch because she was trying to perfect her solo. If it wasn't for her stupid probation she would have left the house by now. Found something to do somewhere else because, not to be dramatic or anything, she wanted to kill her sister.
The duo were currently sat on the sofa, watching the TV as their dads cleared up the kitchen after dinner. The scenario seemed much like the one when Evie first came home, no one was talking and no one knew what to say. With a sigh the youngest of the twins turned down the TV, casting her eyes towards her sister, wanting to clear the air before it got any more awkward. "I am trying my best, you know, all this stuff isn't natural to me. And I've not been dancing and that since I was tiny. I'll have it down before the competition." She said with a shrug, forcing her bottom lip between her teeth. "That's your answer for everything." Rachel bit back in a mutter, letting out a sigh as she did causing Evie to sit up a little straighter. She knew the pair had kind of skipped out on the whole feelings conversation about what had been happening over the last couple of years, mainly because she had done everything in her power to steer away from the subject whenever they got close to it. She wasn't a feelings type of person, or a talker. But, clearly there was no way to avoid the conversation now. Get it out the way and then it's done. She told herself, her hands coming up to her face as she tried to figure out what to say. Rachel was right. They both knew that.
"I..." The brunette began, before sighing, turning to face her sister more fully. "I'm not good with feelings or apologises or anything like that. And I can't make the last two years up to you." Evie shrugged. "You've got to trust me though. I've been empty promises for forever, but I do mean it when I say I'm trying." She let out a small laugh, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear. "We're really not the same Rachel, you put one hundred percent into literally everything and I only put in fifty because I don't want to...I don't know. I don't want to get my hopes up. Like, if I try hard for this glee thing and we don't get it it'll just hurt even more or if I make actual friends with people it'll hurt more when they realise I'm not a good person." She was cut off abruptly when Rachel began talking. "Our dads and I talked you into getting close to Shelby and it hurt the most when she left." She said in a small voice, earning a nod from her sister.
Shelby. Now this is where Evie really wanted to leave the room. The woman crushed her. Took away the glimmer of hope that used to be in her eyes just like her sister. "I don't, I don't understand why it hurt so much...you have a family. She shouldn't have mattered." Rachel added warily. Two years ago if this subject were to have been brought up, the younger Berry would have snapped and gone crazy. Throwing things, breaking things, punching walls. But she was trying to change and although the urges were there the brunette squeezed her hands closed in a fist and scrunched up her eyes as tight as possible- allowing herself a moment to calm down before speaking. "I love dad and daddy and you, obviously. But, you know, I was always kinda the odd one out, you all love music and singing and all that cheesy shit and I preferred to kick around a ball or slide tackle people in the mud." She laughed slightly. "I didn't really mind it that much but then we turned twelve and you had this huge crush on a boy in our class, I think his name was James." The brunette chucked, nudging her sister with her foot playfully. "And I kinda realised that I'd never really looked at a guy like that, it was a girl in the class that I had a thing for. Obviously I kinda though I musta been gay and that was cool and shit, chicks are better anyway." She shrugged earning a laugh from Rachel. "But, aside from the talk about periods and safe sex, dad and daddy were out of their element. They didn't know anything about lesbian sex or relationships and they didn't know much about girls or what to say to me. I was kinda lost and then you talked me into getting close to Shelby." Evie sighed, smiling slightly as Rachel placed a hand on her knee. "I opened up to her, I thought I had gotten close to her, and then one day she just turned round and said she wasn't ready to be a mom. So, I got hurt and guarded and pissed off. Started drinking, doing drugs, getting into trouble and now here I am." The petite girl sighed, as the conversation continued and with their feelings out in the open they seemed to be a lot calmer and at least laughing and smiling together, much to their dads relief.
It was about two hours later when they were sitting on Evie's bed, Rachel singing along to the music blasting from her sisters laptop as Evie scrolled through her Twitter feed. "So," Rachel said suddenly, glancing at her twin with a mischievous smile. "You and Santana?" She asked, raising an eyebrow causing the brunette to laugh. "It's just sex, babe." The girl chuckled, kicking her leg with her foot. "So, you don't like her or anything? Because although Santana and I aren't the best of friends, I've always wanted someone to double date with." The diva said excitedly. "I don't date or have feelings, R. Get Finn's bro to double date." She shook her head, scrunching up her nose at the thought of having a partner. She worked best alone. "You suck." Rachel pouted, causing a smirk to take over the other girls face. "I think that's you, I know Finn stays some nights." she waggled her eyebrows playfully earning a slap from a red faced Rachel. "We've not done anything like that, yet." She muttered embarrassed. "No way?!" Evie exclaimed in disbelief. "Leave me alone!" Rachel pouted again, shoving her sister playfully- causing a playful fight to break out between the pair. A calmness in the air which definitely wasn't there this morning.
