The atmosphere was dense, as stares were being exchanged. Eren sat across from his father as his sister was escorted out of the room. Taking in deep breaths, Eren tried to remain calm. Unknowing of the reason his father wanted him to visit, he anticipated a bad outcome. Eren and his father never met eye to eye, and because of that Eren moved out of the house.

It was enough that he obediently went into the family business, but what he had done was unacceptable. Following his father's every actions, the brunette tried his best to remain calm.

"Eren, how are you it's been so long." Grisha asked his son with a straight face allowing silence to surround them once more as he waited for an answer. When he received none, the man shook his head slowly. Getting up and nearing his son forever keeping his poker face, he raised his arm and slapped him across his his hand off after that, he sat down back in his seat once more before speaking.

"How dare you break up with Historia. She was good for your image." Grisha yells at his son, who only looked down to the floor. "You don't know how much this has an impact on the company, more so Historia. What happens if she quits our company."

"W-why should it matter? I only was nice to her because of what I thought she was.T-Then you force your own son into the relationship. What kind of a father are you?" Eren manages to mutter, glaring daggers at his father who seemed unamused by his words.

"How dare you say that to your father. I do what is best for this family."

"No you do what is best for the stupid company!You've never cared for this family ever since mom went to the hospital! YOU HEARTLESS BASTARD!"

"I did what I had to do for this family, and that is it! You're clouded by what use to be rather than what is. Forget your mother and help your father."

"WHY SHOULD I? YOU WEREN'T LOYAL TO HER EITHER! WHY SHOULD I BE LOYAL TO YOU!?" Eren screams out as he flips over a table in hopes to calm himself down. Breathing heavily, Eren waited for his dad's next move but none came.

"You're new girlfriend is my concern by now. What was her name again?"

"Cho Hee, and if you get near her I'll kill you personally!"

"Don't worry, I don't have any interest in her. However, she could make a lot of money for this company if she dates a singer or an actor."

"NO YOU ARE NOT TAKING HER AWAY FROM ME!"

"Why not, you took away all that money away from the company. So why can't I do this? This is all business, it's nothing personal. I'm teaching you how to manage the company Eren."

"By forcing people together, because the public will most likely ship them together."

"Exactly, you're getting the hang of it now."

"I'm still not letting you do it! Remember the public knows I'm engaged!"

"Oh yeah. Well then, that does make it harder."

"You could of course marry her now."

"I-I can't do that!"

"Well then, I'll just have to go with option one. You can go back to Mikasa." Grisha tells his son as he gets up to leave the room, leaving the angry brunette to go on a rampage. Kicking and throwing everything in sight, Eren let his anger show knowing he would regret everything later. Mikasa who managed to find a way into the room, opened the doors observing her brother destroy the room.

"Eren," She called out, "You've done enough, let's go back to school." Seeing as he calmed down at her words, he released the lamp he was about to smash and walked over to Mikasa. The maids already anticipating Eren's out burst rushed past the two masters to start cleaning.

"What did he say this time?" Mikasa inquired with a worried face.

"Everything, I told you that coming here was a bad idea. Why do you think I moved out in the first place? Let's just go to school."

"Okay."


Hours passed by and the three had returned to their home branched off into their different sections. Each one of them prepared for bed in their own individual ways. Armin who was too restless from the move stayed up. Digging for the map of the house Eren had given him, Armin decided he would go to the kitchen and get a drink of milk. Slipping on his slippers and beat up night robe, Armin quietly went to the kitchen. Getting to the kitchen, Armin had to play a bit of find it to find the cup.

After a few minutes of searching he was able to get a small glass cup. After pouring milk into the cup and putting the carton back, the blond walked over to the sliding doors that lead to the backyard. Stepping outside to look at the night sky, Armin smiled as he looked up at the stars. Each on twinkles so brightly no matter how far away they were. As he looked at the moon he could picture his grandfather's smiling face. Looking down at his glass of milk sadly, he remembered he had neglected calling him for a while.

Making a mental note to do so the next day, Armin walked over to chair and continued to star gaze. The breeze was warm as it blew through his blond hair. The sounds of the crickets and other forms of animals outside sang their songs. Starting to hum an old song he use to sing a lot when he was small.

"You can't sleep too huh?" Eren says walking towards Armin and taking a seat near him.

"Well moving to new house is a little unnerving. Also being chased by a lot of people tends to do things to a person."

"Ha, sorry."

"Why are you not sleeping?"

"I've got a lot on my mind."

"Like what?"

"I don't want to talk about it."

"Fine by me, but whenever you need to talk I'm here."

"Thanks that's reassuring," Eren sarcastically remarks, "What was that you were humming?"

"No need to be mean about it. Remember we're suppose to be friends. And I was just humming a song my mom use to sing to me."

"What's it called?"

"Star."

"Will you sing it for me?"

"Why?"

"It's no secret I like your voice, and I've been really tense lately."

"But you won't understand the lyrics."

"Then sing them in English, I just need to hear your voice so I know you're there."

"O-okay t-then...B-but I warned you ahead of time okay. A-and no falling asleep or else I'll never sing for you again!"

"I promise."

Star that shines in the sky
Star that shines far away from me
Seems like you came down to my heart

Armin looked at Eren as he sung making sure the boy was taking attention. Since the song he was singing had a slow beat, Armin had to make sure the lyrics matched to the beat.

Star engraved in my heart

Star that shines in my heart

I think that might be you

Can you hear a quavering voice? Oh star

Can you feel my passionate heart? You're my star.

About to enter the chorus of the song, Armin took not to Eren closing his eyes and swaying along to the beat of the song. The brunette who listened closely, hear every word of the song. Deep inside of him he knew it must have hurt to sing an old song his mother use to sing. But Eren in a way could relate. The lyrics seemed to calm him in a way nothing ever could have, and that he was grateful for.

From a very long time ago

I know that you are the love I've been dreaming of

Let us always be together
Even if time passes
(hope that you) Always shine on the same place
My heart, will only be given to you

Watching as Armin sang, Eren wished he could do something to help Armin in return. It seemed ever since they met it's been nothing of what Armin wanted. Observing the way Armin sang with feeling and soul Eren started to secretly wish he was the reason the blond was singing. Sighing , knowing that was highly impossible to happen, he listened on.

Can you hear a quavering voice? Oh star
Can you feel my passionate heart? you're my star

From a long time ago

I know that you are the love I've been dreaming of
Let us always be together
Even if time passes
(hope that you) Always shine on the same place
My heart, will only be given to you

Looking to his left Eren noticed Mikasa come through the same sliding door to join the two. Smiling as she came, Eren made sure she as quiet so they both could hear the rest of Armin's song.

The star engraved in your heart

The star that shines in your heart, I hope that is me

Forever I will love you

My eyes will only look at you oh

oh will you only look at me too

Let us be each other's star

"You really do have a nice voice Armin." Mikasa compliments.

"M-Mikasa, when did you get there!?" Armin exclaims almost dropping whatever was left of his milk.

"She got here when you were singing." Eren answered.

"You sing with so much feeling. How do you do it?"

"I-I don't know really. I'm always logical so I don't like feelings to be mixed up with things. I-I guess I j-just sing because of nostalgia."

"So when you sing you feel like you're brought back to that time."

" no one had feeling when they sang what's the point in singing in the first place?"

"How come you didn't enroll to Star High at first?"

"One it was too expensive, and two I don't really since much since my parents..."

"I understand."

"Well, it's best if I go to sleep now. I've got a lot to do tomorrow and another person to be." Armin yawns as he stretches.

"Okay, I'm going to stay up a bit more. Oh, and make sure to leave school with Mikasa and me."

"'okay, night you two." He dismisses himself leaving through the sliding door in which he originally entered.

"You like him don't you Eren?" Mikasa

"N-No, of course not. You know I don't believe in love."

"You know he can change all of that?"

"No he can't."

"Eren, what exactly happened at the man house then?"

"Dad slapped me..."

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I am I'm sure to it."

"What else happened."

"He told me that he was going to force Armin into another relationship. He said Cho Hee would be better off with a singer or actor."

"Well you technically are going to be an actor; they already announced it."

"He thinks it's a joke that I want to be an actor. He never listens to what I want."

"Well, maybe you can show him up. What is your first movie called anyways?"

"It's called Attack on Titan, I'm playing the one of the main characters. We still need two more for Armin and Mikasa."

"Hmm, well isn't that a coincidence.? Armin and I have the same names as the characters."

"Yeah so do I,I play Eren Jaeger."

"Well then I guess there is no alternative. I will audition for Mikasa and maybe we can get Armin to play Armin."

"As if he would do that."

"He may not, but if someone asked Cho Hee then maybe she can't deny."

"How do you know."

"Well, no offense he's a bit of a push over. We can use a bribe or peer pressure."

"Yeah you're right."

"When does filming start?"

"After the Winter star camp."

"Well then, we'll have to make sure we get in. And one more thing, and you better remember this! I know how forgetful you can be with these things."

"What?"

"Tomorrow is the 3rd of November, and Armin's birthday. Please say happy birthday to him, and get him a present. It's the least you can do."

"Yeah yeah, I'm starting to get tired let's head to bed."

"Me too, Good Night."

"g'night."


The next morning, Armin couldn't wait until he had free time. It was his birthday and nothing could ruin this day for him. Getting up to the sound of the phone ringing, Armin smiled as he checked the caller ID. Opening his phone and placing the speaker to his ear, Armin smiled listening to his Grandfather's words. Before conversation broke out, his grandfather had sang him Happy Birthday in their native tongue.

Feeling his smile grow wider as he heard the old man sing, Armin dismissed the fact that he might have been late for school. Giving his grandfather a thank you and I miss you, he set his phone on speaker so that he could get minutes Maria and Sina came to his room. Asking one of the women to speak for him as he got his make-up put on he signaled for what she needed to say.

After that was all done, Armin placed his engagement ring on his finger before sending kisses to his Grandfather and hanging up. Skipping down the empty hallways and to the front door, Armin ensured his mood would not falter. As he entered the car, he saw Mikasa who waited with flowers and a present. Feeling himself tear up a bit, Armin gave the taller woman a hug.

"Happy Birthday Armin." She says happily returning the hug she had received from the blond.

"Thank you Mikasa, I-I don't know what to say."

"You don't have to say anything, it's your day. Open your present. I want to see if you like it."

"O-Okay," Armin replied as he started to rip the wrapping paper off of the present to reveal a series of books underneath. "Oh my gosh! It's the first twenty volumes of Kuroshitsuji! H-How did you know?"

"Well, I asked Jean who I heard you were friends with. So I asked what you liked and he told me. I'll get you more as the months go by."

"N-No, y-you don't have to. This is more than enough."

"Armin, you're doing Eren a big favor. So I'll help you with your secret otaku side okay."

"T-thank you Mikasa, this means so much to me. B-by the way where is Eren? I thought he was going to come to school with us?"

"He went early. Dad had to have a little talk with him."

"I hope it's not bad. I mean yesterday was bad enough."

"Me too, I'm never allowed in the room when they talk."

"Well should we get going then?"

"Yes, I'm sure you don't want to be late; even if it is your birthday."


Arriving at school, Armin heard a giant ruckus occurring outside. Too scared to look out the window and see what was going on, he remained his eyes to the ground. Once the car came to a complete halt so did Armin's heart. Closing his eyes and holding his new manga books to his heart, Armin followed Mikasa out of the car surrounded by people.

"생일 축하해! Happy birthday Cho Hee!" The crowd of people yelled to Armin when he was within their sights. Feeling the heat rise to his face, Armin tried to look around for an explanation. When he could find none, Armin looked at Mikasa for help. Getting a head shake from side to side, and a thumb pointing to the front of him, Armin saw the person who had made this happen.

Right in front of him, Jean nervously held flowers and a present bag out to Armin. The tall brunette looked as if he was about to die from embarrassment. Tilting his head to the side, Armin observed as Jean carefully came closer and stopped a foot away from him.

"Happy Birthday Cho Hee. I know you don't have much friends at this school, so I brought a couple of mine I made. I also planned a big day for you. Y-yeah, I mean like, only if you want to. It's my birthday after all, and it's your job to enjoy it. I mean it's your birthday." Jean stutters out handing Armin the gifts.

Smiling and taking the two things within his hands, Armin hugged the nervous brunette. Looking up to him with tear filled eyes, Armin tried his best not to allow his make-up to be ruined.

"You're the bestest friend I've ever had! Thank you Jean! I thought I was going to spend it all alone!"Armin exclaims still hugging the other with all his might.

"Y-yeah f-friend, anyways. I informed your professors at your other school that you had something important to do. Which isn't exactly a lie since you're Cho Hee right now, and it is your birthday," Jean whispers before he continues in a normal toned voice, " After you singing class you have the whole day with me, and a few other people."

"Sounds great, I-I can't wait! Ah, I could kiss you!"

"You can, o-on the cheek though."

Smiling happily Armin complied. Letting go of Jean and placing his gifts down, Armin started to tippy toe to get to Jean's cheek. Jean who had his head turned to the side anxiously waiting for the kiss.

"CHO HEE!" Eren yelled as he ran towards the crowd of people. Turning to look at Armin a little too quickly, Jean's lips met Armin's causing them to pause where they were. Gasp were heard all around them, as Eren picked up his speed. Soon feeling a hang on his shoulder, Jean was thrown to the ground as Armin was brought to face Eren's chest.

"KIRSCHTEIN! WHY DID YOU JUST KISS MY GIRLFRIEND!?"


"Well aren't you going to answer me!?" Eren belts out one more time making sure to keep his grip on Armin so he wouldn't escape.

"C-Calms down Jaeger, it was an accident." Jean replies trying to regain his composure. After all he just kissed the person he's always wanted to kiss for years.

"Like hell it was! You were trying to make the moves on her weren't you?" Eren points releasing Armin in the process.

"Why you jealous you're not the only one that gets to kiss her."

"Yeah but she is my girlfriend."

"In your dreams, she likes me better since I've known her longer."

"So what, I'm the one she's getting married to."

"Oh really, because what I know you haven't made wedding plans. Hell I wouldn't be surprised this was a scheme to fool everyone." Jean says knowing that Eren would most likely not want to continue.

"Hmpf...Whatever, come on Cho Hee let's go! I have a surprise for you." Eren turns and grabs a random girls.

"U-Umm...I-I'm n-not Cho Hee..." She replies bashfully happy that the most popular student at the school has holding her hand.

"Huh?" Eren responds looking at the girl and immediately letting her good a apologizing. "Where is Cho Hee? Did you see where she went?"

"Yeah, s-she went into her music class with a bunch of friends."

"What! No! I have a surprise for her! Thanks anyways." He says as he runs off to find Armin.


"Hey you're Cho Hee right?" A bald headed kid a few inches shorter than Armin asked standing right next to Armin's lone sitting space.

"Y-Yes?" He answered unsure of who the in front of him was,putting his flowers down for a moment to talk to the other.

"I-I wanted to thank you for yesterday. I really appreciate it, I-I am also sorry for thinking you're just a stuck up girl... I really liked your Sailor Moon reference. Oh, my name is Connie by the way."

"W-what?"

"You saved me from this guy."

"Huh?"

"I was being kicked around, and then you quoted sailor moon."

"T-That was you!?"

"Yeah."

"I'm so sorry I didn't remember you!"

"No that's okay, I'm kind of a dork."

"I like dorks."

"W-well, anyways...I got your present since I heard it was your birthday and all...I hope you like it, it's also thank you present." Connie says as he pushes a small box towards Armin. Shocked at the kind gesture, Armin looked at Connie as his face turned shade of pink. Bowing his head in thanks, Armin looked at the box, and began to open it up ever so carefully.

The wrapping paper was decorated with a pink background accented with a bow pattern. Searching for the tape, Armin carefully took his time to ensure that the wrapping paper wouldn't even looked like it was opened in anyway. Once that was done, Armin slid the box out ever so carefully catching it in his other hand.

Lifting up the lid Armin's eyes saw a Sailor Moon crystal star locket. Clasping his hands over his mouth, Armin was speechless. Ever since he was little he had always wanted one, but his parents never had the money to get it. Trying to fight the tears from spilling from his eyes, the blonde lifted the locket from its casing to see it more.

"I-I thought you would like it since, you know Sailor Moon." Connie continued on rubbing his neck not knowing what to do. "I-I mean you need to have a place to put your crystal right?"

"T-thank you so much! You don't know how much this means to me!Thanks a bunch!" Armin shouts hugging Connie in a bit of brotherly way before returning his gaze to the locket.

"Why don't you put it on? Who knows when the next time you'll be needed?"

"Well if I do, you have to say her speech with me."

"No complaints but we have to do the pose too!"

"I wouldn't have it any other way."

Placing the locket on his bow, Armin happily admired it.

"Come on, let's do it on the desk top."

"Okay."

Helping 'Cho Hee' up, Connie lent out a hand steadying him until Armin seemed to get a hand of things. With one more glance at each other, Armin and Connie both took deep breaths knowing it was about to go down.

"I am Sailor Moon champion justice! On behalf of the moon, I shall right wrongs and triumph over evil. And that means you!" They shouted happily in unison, both in sync with each other. Posing with each word they forgot about the world around them and did as they pleased. Snickers heard around every here and there for their so called abnormal behavior.

"You wanna sing the theme with me?"Armin asked, now feeling the rush of any otaku when their favorite anime was mentioned.

"I thought you would never ask!"

And like that the two broke into song,singing as loudly as they could; though Armin sang better. Dancing and singing much to their heart's content, they two were interrupted by loud laughter in the background. They then paused and looked round for the source of the laughter. Scanning the room carefully by closing his eyes, Armin listened to the sound. Within seconds he found it and he found Eren hunching over laughing as loud as he possibly could.

"E-Eren, what are you doing here!?" Armin stuttered getting down from where he was standing and taking a seat with his arms and legs crossed.

"I came to get you, a-and then I see you with the school's anime club president doing that! It's too funny!I never thought you would be an otaku. I just thought you liked to study." Eren replies between giggles.

"S-so what...I have a life other than just studying you know. And Connie happened to give me a present for my birthday unlike some lousy boyfriend!" The blond huffs as he grabs one of his flowers and throws them in Eren's face.

"Aww come on,just come with me and I'll give you your present."

"No keep it."

"Why?"

"I don't want anything from anyone that makes fun of me."

"But I wasn't making fun of you."

"Yes you were."

"Well then let me make it up to you after class."

"No, I have plans with Jean."

"But I'm your boyfriend."

"...Still I've been with him longer than you, so I owe him that."

"You make it sound like you're cheating."

"I would never! Get out!"

"But..."

"I said get out, the teacher is going to come in soon!" Armin yells, and right on cue the teacher walked in clapping his hands causing everyone to run like ants to their seats. Huffing Eren left with his head held low, a fresh bouquet of flowers in his hand that were meant for Armin unseen. Settling into his acting class, Eren held the flowers close looking sadly at them knowing he messed up once more.

It was no mystery that his rude outburst angered the other, so he only blamed himself. Sitting in his seat, he looked up to see Jean with a stupid grin on his face as if he won the lottery.

"Stop making that face." Eren tells Jean who knocking him out of his thoughts.

"Why should I?"

"Because it makes you look stupid."

"Classic."

"Whatever, cancel your plans with Armin. I'm taking him out today."

"No way in hell Jaeger! I got to him first, so I get to take my friend on a date."

"Date! No you don't!"

"Well it's not an official one, but me and a couple of friends I'm sure he'll like are celebrating his birthday."

"Well he doesn't need friends."

"That might be the case for you, but not for Armin." Jean imposed hitting it home for Eren.

"S-so, he still needs to spend time with me."

"No me! You already have him in 'girl form'. So rightfully I should have him in his original form."

"You mean that plain one."

"You mean the best one."

"Well yeah I have to agree with you on that, he is kind c-cute."

"If I didn't know any better, I'd think you have a crush on him."

"N-No I don't he's my friend like you!"

"Sure."

"And what about you do you like him?"

"Yeah."

"So I was right!"

"So what?"

"You're not taking him away from me, you hear me!?"

"I thought you said you didn't like him."

"I-I don't!"

"Whatever, anyways I have to listen to the damn teacher. Not all of us practically own the school."


When class ended the race began. Jean and Eren bolted out the door pushing and shoving each other with all they had. Running through the campus, both hoped they would find Armin before he had left. Countless students in their way only angered the two in their pursuit. With each step as they got closer, their determination only grew.

When Armin was in their site, though exhausted, they willed their muscles to move faster until they were in front of Armin panting.

"W-whoa, what happened to you two?" Armin ask cautiously not sure if he wanted to know they answer to their question or not. Observing the two he estimated that once they were out of class they had ran over to him. However he couldn't fathom a reason to why they didn't just walk. Turning over to Connie who was jogging to catch up with them, the other shrugged and returned their gaze to the other two.

"C-Cho H-Hee, come on! W-we have to...Spend...Birthday...Now." Jean breathlessly said holding out his hand for Armin to take.

"Oh yeah! Can Connie come?"

"S-sure!" Jean gets up with a smile trying to get his breathing back down to his regular back, Armin was about to take Jean's hand but was smacked away by Eren.

"N-No, you're hanging out with me." Eren butted in.

"No I'm not. I'm spending time with Jean. I still haven't forgiven you so I'm not going." With his head held high, Armin grabbed Jean's hand and wrapped his other around Connie's arm. As they walked away, Armin tried to get past the guilt of being so mean towards Eren. But being reminded that it was in fact his birthday, he tried to forget it and continue on with Jean's plans for him. Bringing his hand up to his chest, Armin could feel a familiar pain. Shrugging it off, he decided to think of something else.

"So where exactly are we going?"

"Well first before we get there you have to change," Jean began before whispering into Armin's ear, " But since they think it's Cho Hee's birthday you have to stay this way. Sorry."

"That's okay," Armin said aloud, "Anyways I'm excited about what we're dong. How about you Connie?"

"Eh, I'm just glad I get to spend your birthday with you Sailor Cho Hee."

"Ha ha thanks." Armin replies clinging onto his school bag even more looking casually over his shoulder every now and his grip, he failed to register that he started to enter a car, and drive off to their destination. The pain in his chest still remaining from earlier scared Armin as he remembered long forgotten words. Focusing on thinking away from his pain, Armin pondered on why it was happening right after he dismissed Eren.

"We're here."A soft voice came unheard from Armin who was caught in his thoughts. The voice then repeated itself once more this time gaining the blond's attention. Getting out of the car Armin looked around unsure of what was happening. He was in a park that seemed to be fairly empty.

"W-Where are we? Where's Connie?" Armin ask.

"Well follow me and you'll see." Jean replies with an arm stretched out in the opposite direction. Smiling back, Armin followed Jean further into the park. Little by little Armin came upon a group of people huddled together waiting for him. Slowly they walked, Armin gripping the clothing over his heart nervous to what Jean had planned. When Armin was six feet away, everyone yelled happy birthday.

Clasping his hands over his mouth, Armin felt like he could cry. An intense surge of glee filled him watching everyone offer their gifts to him. So many people who didn't know him, but still were open to the idea of knowing him. It made his chest ache even more to the point he couldn't focus on his emotions past the pain. Running off towards the trees in the park where he couldn't be seen,Armin tried to get away.

His lungs felt as if they were going to burst. Air no longer getting to him, feeling as if he was being continuously Armin dreaded that another breath was taken away from body no longer allowed him to suck in the much needed air he needed to survive. No longer being able to run in fear for his life, Armin leaned against near by tree trying to get his breath back until he found his inhaler. Frantically he searched, opening the bag within his grip throwing everything unneeded to the sides.

Wondering if he would ever find it in time. Hoping and praying he would, Armin dug through his bag pleading in his mind that he would be able to survive this attack. Finally finding and feeling the source of his salvation, Armin tossed the cap off and took in a deep breath allowing the medicine to reach his lungs. He held his breath for a few seconds, and then released then repeated the process one more time as prescribed.

Soon enough he was able to feel his passages open up once more, causing him to sigh in relief. Looking down to the ground, Armin could remember why he didn't have much friends. He could remember it all. But the one thing that he remembered the most was why he told himself never to fall in love.

For as long as Armin could remember, he had an asthma problem ever since he was born. He prayed everyday that he wouldn't die since he had always been very sickly. As the years passed, Armin showed that his only trigger was smoke. So he religiously would carry his inhaler every where he went just in case. After having about three attacks (one resulting in a hospital visit), the blond made sure to try and control his asthma. However since he never had any attacks after the first few times he didn't pay it any mind.

Throughout elementary he had no friends and read to himself, every now and an he entered middle school however things got a bit more serious. During that time he met Jean; Jean made him feel special. Each day he would get up and get ready for school without the fear of loneliness surrounding him anymore. And as each day passed like other kids who forget, Armin stopped bringing his inhaler.

One day while he was happily going to school he noticed that his chest started to feel odd, and his breathing started to become a little off. Ignoring it, he played and talked to Jean enjoying the feeling of being with him. In time Armin figured he had fallen in love with Jean. In fear of rejection he hid his feelings, the pain in his chest grew larger each day. Then out of nowhere, Jean had told Armin that he was moving to America soon.

Feeling the glass pieces that was his world shatter, Armin's eyes grew smaller as the news embedded into his mind. His breathing was starting to become shallow, his air passages closing as if he were breathing through coffee straw.A week before Jean had to leave, Armin stopped attending school. Everyday he received calls from Jean but he never answered those days he was gone, Armin was hospitalized. His condition had gotten so bad, that now they had only realized yet another trigger for Armin's asthma.

Intense emotions.

Yes, that meant Armin had to be very level headed and not lose himself to his emotions. No intense feelings of anger, and worst of all no intense feelings of love. Since Armin so carelessly did not put any effort into his nebulizer, he didn't help himself control his asthma. He simply left it as it was without aggravating it. In that moment, Armin swore off of making friends or falling in love. Sure he tried to remember to take his nebulizer, however with the constant studying and stress he was under he never had the chance.

So after Jean left for America, the blond barred up all his emotions and locked them up. He never wanted to make friends in fear of growing too close and triggering his asthma yet again. He never ventured into the world of love, too scared to have a repeat of the last time. Living in his own dull world, Armin cried knowing he could never live a normal life. Wishing he could, Armin wanted to know what it felt like to really live with strong emotions. And the one most forbidden to him.

So many what ifs would pop up into his mind as he was reminded of his condition. What if I couldn't save myself? What if I die and no one would care? What if I could feel those emotions I've always seen others feel? What if I took better care of myself? What if I could never tame what I have?

With each what if, Armin no longer felt alive. The scythe of death always seemed to be ready to strike to Armin of his breath at any head held low, the blond rubbed his arm remembering what he had done to Jean and them. They must have been worried he thought. But how was he to explain himself for what he had done? He didn't want Jean to know yet, he didn't want anyone to know.

He didn't want anyone to worry.

Carefully getting down on his hands and knees, the singer started to pack up his things making sure everything was returned back to him. As he hear foot steps come closer, Armin hurried his pace and got up adjusting his hair and clothes as he got up.

"Armin are you okay?" Jean approached him slowly.

"I-I'm sorry. I was just so happy, I didn't want anyone to see me cry." Armin replies coming up with yet another lie he had to live by. Just how many would he need to make up to have a normal life?

"Oh, yeah. Well we're all worried. The guest of honor kind of left us without a word. Connie is convinced that you had to make a magical girl transformation. Whatever you did, he really thinks of you as a hero." Jean replied with a chuckle thinking back to Connie's actions.

"Well, I'm okay now. Thanks for hosting this party for me." Armin smiles and tucks his hair behind his ears, hating how it would not settle down as well as his straight hair.

"You're welcome, now come on. We need you or else there is no reason for the party."

"Yeah, Yeah I'm coming." The blond follows once more seeing the group of people enjoying each other's company welcoming Armin with open arms. Smiling back keeping his excitement down to a minimum, Armin grabbed something to drink and mingle with everyone. In time Jean, Armin, and Connie became a trio that would stick closely to each other throughout the day. When the party was starting to become bland, Jean would bring out new anime based party games.

The first was sailor moon frisbee. Closely after sword games where everyone would sword fight. And the best of all of the games was the titan pinata . Each player had one turn to jump on trampoline and 'slice' the titan's head off to get the candy from the inside. Though it was ll childish games, everyone seemed to enjoy themselves. Then when it got darker, they had Studio Ghibli marathon.

Sitting at a private table for two, Armin and Jean watched the movie together. Folding his arms onto the table, and allowing his head to fall the blond watched as the movie passed.

"You know what's funny?" Jean began.

"What?"

"How you're dressed like that. I-It almost makes me feel like I'm on date w-with you. I-I mean if you were a girl."

"Ha ha, sorry Jean but this girl is taken." He raises his left hand up revealing the rock that rested on a golden band around his finger.

"Y-Yeah, but the boy underneath it all isn't."

"You're right, and I'm afraid he'll never be." The blind yawns nuzzling his arms enjoying the warmth of his own body.

"I-I'm not sure about that. I mean I'm gonna date me." Jean nervously mutters out a blush forming as he did so.

"What?" Armin said during another yawn, feeling his eyes drop down more and more. Jean noticing Armin's fatigue rubbed his neck and continued on with his love words.

"I-I, no...What I meant was I date would me. I mean I would date you...I mean if you wanted to try it out." The brunette's eyes trail towards now sleeping Armin who continued to curl his body closer to himself. Rubbing his face, Jean sighed in defeat knowing that he couldn't confess like this. Brushing his hair back with his fingers, he leaned over to poke the sleeping man.

"Dead asleep once your head hits your arms or pillow. Typical." Jean leans back into his seat watching Armin sleep peacefully. Getting up out of his seat, the brunette brought the back of Armin's chair towards him. Squatting down a bit, he wrapped his arm around Armin's shoulders as his other arm wrapped around the blond's his tiny figure into his arms he simply smiled.

"Where are you taking Cho Hee? And why are you looking at her with a stupid face?" Connie skip walks forward pointing to Armin.

"I-I...I'm taking her home now." Jean replies shaking his head.

"Do you even know where she lives?"

"No, but I can check her student ID."

"What they have that on there?"

"Yeah."

"Well it's news to me."

"Anyways, she had a long day. Thanks for being so nice to her. It looks like you were her fist friend she made."

"Hey you're making it sound weird. And it's the least I could do, she saved me from getting my ass beat. I owe her a lot. It was just a bonus she was cool, she even agreed to join the Anime club."

"Well in that case sign me up."

"Why?"

"W-Well, I made this whole party and it's anime themed. So yeah."

"Point taken, it was a sweet ass party."

"Thanks, anyways I should get sleepy head home."

"Be careful Eren doesn't kick your ass."

"Pfft I know, but I can take him any day because the battle we're fighting I'm going to win."

"What battle?"

"Ah, just something;bye."


It didn't take long before Jean was in front of Eren's house. Walking with Armin still in his arms, he kicked the door a few times so that he could enter. Waiting patiently from the other end he heard foot steps which could only be Eren. Bracing himself for Eren's annoying outburst towards him, Jean knew he had the advantage. Shifting his hold on Armin,Jean smirked seeing the door fly open and Eren's eyes looking to what was in the other brunette's hands. For a second there was silence, until Eren tugged on the blond's body so that he could have him. Feeling this, the taller of the two tugged towards him unofficially initiating a tug-o-war.

"Let go of him Jean." Eren growls.

"I will if you stop acting like a rabid dog. I can see why he chose me over you, I am obviously the better choice. After all I will be the one to win his heart." He says with confidence, tugging Armin back towards him holding him higher so he other wouldn't reach.

"Shut up, as if Armin would fall in love with a prick like you."

"And what makes you think that he'll chose you?"

"I-I...I don't like him like that."

"Stop denying it Jaeger, everyone sees how much you like him."

"And if I did say I liked him,then what?"

"Then I would say, let the best man win."

"Great, now that we're done with this stupid hypothetical talk give him back."

"No I'm putting him in his bed."

"No you're not. Plus he sleeps in my room."

"That's a lie, he lives in his own wing; he told me so."

"So, my house. I bet you can't even find the way to it."

"Don't need to, Armin has secret markers around the house telling me where he sleeps. And it looks like it's to the right." Walking past Eren, Jean carefully moved around him and speed walked to his destination. Following behind him Eren came to his side and tripped the taller male. Falling towards the ground, Jean prepared himself for absorbing the impact for Armin. However, once he fell he could fell Armin being taken away into Eren's arms.

Once successfully in them, Eren ran as fast as he could with Armin in his heat of competition rising within him, Jean got up stretching his arms quickly running at Eren. Pumping his arms up and down he caught up repeating the same movements Eren had done earlier. Instead this time adding a punch to the face to make sure Eren stayed down.

"How is he not waking up? He's being tossed around!" Eren exclaims wiping the blood off of his face, and continuing on with their game, resulting in Jean being the one to set him on his bed. Huffing out in frustration, Eren watched as the brunette set Armin gently on his own bed.

Fine, he's in bed now; leave." Eren orders keeping an eye on the other male. Watching as Jean was about to say something, Armin's phone started to ring. Hearing a song in another language, they panicked searching for the phone. Averting their gaze to Armin who was starting to stir out of his sleep, the two stood there silently watching as he blindly searched for his phone.

Bringing a hand up to his mouth, the blond yawned patting his jacket pockets for his phone. Finding it, Armin flipped it open, opening his eyes as he did so.

"Hello," He begins signaling for Eren and Jean to get out, "Uh 할아버지 can you please? Thank you." Covering the speaker on the phone, Armin waved one free hand towards the other two telling them to hurry out. Once the two were gone, just as an extra precaution, Armin spoke in Korean to make sure no one would hear what he would say.

I'm sorry for not contacting you in a while, you know besides talking to you this morning.

That's okay, I bet college must take a lot of concentration.

You won't believe it.

How was your Birthday?

It was great besides a certain rude jerk. Jean was so nice he arranged a party for me;I made a lot of friends.

That's good to hear. I miss you.

I miss you too.

Are you coming for the holidays?

Of course.

That's good to hear. Now, how is your health?

I-I...Grandpa, I had an attack today.

WHAT!? Armin's Grandfather exclaimed, concerned for his only grandson.

I-I was just really happy that he made the party and got an attack. I-I was able to handle it myself though.

Armin you know you can't handle intense feelings! You should have been more careful. Why didn't you ask for help.

I didn't want them to know yet. And how can I when I want to be happy?

I know you want to feel them, but I don't want to see you in pain. I don't want you to die before me.

I won't.

Have you been taking your treatment?

I-I've been busy...

That's not an excuse, you need to control this. Not only that but stay away from your triggers.

But how can I get away from intense emotions? I'm human so I feel them. Grandpa I'm scared. Armin says as his voice cracks as tears start to spill from his eyes.

I know you are, I'm scared too.

No, not just because I can die. It's because I can't live. I can't be extremely happy,scared,angry or anything! I have to watch others experience them and I get jealous. I'm scared that no one will love me.

Oh Armin, I love you.

N-Not just you. I-I want to feel love like in those dramas we watch, but I know I can't. If I do, I'll be on a hospital bed fighting for my life because I never controlled this.

I'm so sorry, I wish I could do something about this. I would give up anything to see you healthy, and so you can live like everyone else.

I-I know, but things are I can't. I want to fall in love, I want it more than anything. Today during the attack I-I remembered what it felt like;I liked it. Even if it was friendly love, I wanted more. I-I-I... Armin failed to complete his sentence gasping for air as his nasal passages started to swell. He then started to cough continuously gasping for air every now and grandfather hearing this on the other end could only hear as his grandson struggled.

Armin breathe! Please calm down, you're triggering yourself again. The old man pleaded knowing that was the best he could do for Armin. Listening to his words, Armin searched for his inhaler, taking in the medicine once more. After a while his symptoms started to die down. Wiping his face of the tears, Armin looked to see his make-up had been ruined by his crying.

Are you alright now? His grandfather inquired.

Y-Yes, I'm sorry.

That's okay, just please control your feelings. I know you want to feel, but you can't feel as much as others. The more you accept this, the longer you will be able to live.

I know...Armin chokes down his sobs, wondering why the heavens had cursed him with such a fate.


Admin: So I won't update here if there are no review or likes after this. I will however update it more often in Archive of Our Own. It's under the same name. It also has to do with the fact, that this story is more popular on there than here.