Ok…….this is a little awkward. I'm sorry. I suck. Yep that's about all I have to say in my defense. I shouldn't be a lawyer huh?
When I got back to the house I was in a daze. As I once heard a sophomore girl at school once describe it as "staring off into space". Well that is exactly what I seemed to be doing. I didn't notice my family's hello's or my mothers concerning questions. When I got to my room and Tanya sitting on the edge of my bed, I didn't even spare her a glance. I just lied on my bed and stared at the ceiling until she stopped her mindless chatter and left.
I had such conflicting emotions swirling within me. I was happy for one, which was odd for me. So I thought about why I was happy. Automatic answer, Bella. Ok now that I solved that mystery now I have to be worried. What did this mean? Could we have a relationship? My obvious answer was no but I still couldn't stop the image of me holding her or maybe even kissing her. The thought of that made me gasp. A human trait that I never quite got rid of. At the moment I was lucky I was the mind-reading one in the family or else Jasper would have my head for thinking these thoughts.
I imagined spending holidays with her, lavishing her with gifts, (was it possible to buy Barns And Noble?) I could hold her books on our way to class. I would stroke her heart-shaped face just because I wanted to with the added bonus of seeing that delicious blush.
But how could I? Not only could I break her just by not watching my actions for a minute but her not to mention my entire family would be at risk if she found out about us. So I couldn't, we couldn't. We would just continue on as friends. My feelings will dissipate over time, I will make her prom queen, win the bet and put that dog in his place then everything will go back to normal. The thought made me frown. I knew why. I wasn't happy. But Bella just being in my life for this short amount of time has brought happiness into my life already.
I got to the parking lot early the next day so I could see Bella. I heard her coming a mile away with that rusty truck. I wonder if a vampire started that expression. She got out of her truck and I was there before she knew it yet she didn't look surprised. Odd.
"Hello Edward." She said without taking her eyes off her ipod.
"How did you know I was here?" I thought I was being quiet.
"Oh Jasper does that all the time, I've gotten used to it. She said with caution. Interesting. Just then she shivered. I reached out to feel her temperature and she was cold. No wonder, she wasn't wearing a jacket.
"Where's your jacket?"
"I left it at home its ok. I'm fine. "She said while rubbing her arms. I knew she was lying because when she looked at me her lips were blue.
"You know what I have an extra one in the car." I left before she could protest. Alice had left it in here yesterday and I knew she wouldn't mind. I was just happy it wasn't Rosalie's otherwise it would be an entirely different story. As Bella and I were talking, more kids had begun to fill the parking lot. My phone started ringing just when I found the jacket. It was Alice. I answered it right when I heard the screeching of the tires across the pavement. I turned around to see Bella frozen in fear. Without thinking I leaped towards her. I was there in 2 seconds flat and her away from the car in 1. I put my hand out to stop it from coming any closer making a huge dent in the side. I looked towards Bella to make sure she was alright and to see how much she had seen.
Her eyes were wide open and staring at my. She looked amazed but no where near shock or frightened as I thought she might be. She had hit her head on the pavement but wasn't bleeding thank god. It was then that I realized the full gravity of the situation. And I was horrified at what I had done.
I heard shouting around me and ambulance sirens in the distance. I backed away from her missing the warmth. "Bella, are you alright?" She merely nodded but winced as she did so. The ambulance and my family had arrived. They were pissed. Well everyone but Alice was. When the police got there I launched into my explanation keeping them all distracted as Alice fixed the hand sized dent in the car. I leaned on the outside of the ambulance to look at Bella as she was being loaded into it. She simply looked annoyed and it was quite funny. But back to business. As soon as the guys turned away to talk with Chief Swan I started.
"Hey Bella I…" but before I could start into my brainwashing she stopped me.
"Don't worry Edward I won't tell." How could a simple sentence leave me so shocked? What? How? Who? Why? What the fuck?!!!
