Hello svu lovers! Here is the next chapter. ABUSE WARNING! Tracy is going to have a flash back.


Lucy popped her neck as Adam's car rolled up in front of Johnathan's house. He turned off the car and the four teens walked up to the house.

"I thought you had a date." Lucy asked lighting a cigarette. Adam didn't allow smoking in the car. There was a good chance of him killing you if you got any ash anywhere in the car.

"Got cancelled." From his tone Lucy could tell he didn't want to talk about it. Once inside the house Tracy and Amanda went off to hang with the cheerleaders and jocks. Lucy and Adam went into the kitchen, where all the drinks were. They dropped off a bottle of cheap vodka. A rule of Johnathan's parties were anybody could come but you had to bring some type of party favor. They grabbed a drink then headed downstairs. This is where all the stoners hung out at. The stink of weed was strong enough to reach the top of the stairs. There was a group sitting in a circle, one of them had turned around. "Hey guys! Ya wanna hit?" Johnathan gave a dopey grin as he held up the bong. Adam sat down next to him while Lucy went to the other side. "You guys came just in time. Just got a new bowl started. Even though Johnathan went to school in New York he lived in Queens. It was a good hour drive to his parties but it was always worth it, more than half the school came to these parties. Adam took the first hit then passed it. For a while that's all anyone did, Puff puff pass. In the background there was a mixture of Atmosphere and the beat of whatever the drunk people were playing.

Lucy stumbled upstairs. Her throat was burning and she couldn't stop coughing. She poured herself some beer and took a drink to calm her throat. Before she knew it the beer was gone. She tried to set it down but missed the ledge. She attempted to catch it get but all it did was dance around her fingers for a moment then dropped on the floor. Lucy couldn't stop the giggles from coming out of her as she slide to the floor.

"Lucy, Lucy Sky? Is that you?" Lucy looked up and saw an older, handsome man looking down on at her.

"Do I know you?" She lifted an eyebrow at him.

"It's me, Mike Smith. I use to go to high school with your dad. How is your dad?" He leaned his hip against the counter and brushed his brown hair back. Lucy had a dopey smile on her face until he brought up her father. It fall off her face almost as fast as if someone had slapped her. She struggled to stand up. Mike leaned down and grabbed her arm to help her. Once she was up she yanked her arm out of his grasp. "Aren't you a little old to be at a high school party?"

He gave a little smirked "Well, when you're the reason half these kids have their drinks you get invited because 'you're a cool guy'." He made quotation marks with fingers, "I just never showed up before."

"Whatever." Lucy said as she left the kitchen and wondered back down to the basement.

"I'll be seeing you around Lucy." Mike called out from behind her with a smirk.

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Adam looked down at his phone.

Sis is gonna txt me wen on her way home & rents finally gone! Come on over babe –S

I'm reaaaallly stoned LOL idk if I can drive – A

Ah :( - S

Plus I drove my friends to this party that is an hour away – A

:( - S

Adam sighed. He left the weed circle to go to the bathroom. He took his hat off and splashed his face trying to get sober up. His hot date had yet to come out of the closet. His parents were hard-core conservatives. Adam ran his fingers through his hair. He was trying not too but he was falling hard for this guy.

"Fuck." His whispered. He brushed his hair back and put on his hat.

Im on my way – A

Yay! :) – S

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"Are you sure you don't want something to drink?" Amanda offered Tracy her red cup. Tracy shook his head.

"Come on, Tracy. Why did you come to a party and not wanna drink?" Sam, one of Amanda's friends, asked.

"I came because she asked me." Tracy said trying not to sound as bored as he was. He was trying to enjoy himself but a party was only so sound for so long when you didn't drink or do drugs.

Sam quirked an eyebrow at him, "Amanda, come with me to the bathroom." She said as she grabbed Amanda's hand leading her away. Once those two were gone all the other cheerleaders and jocks closed in on themselves.

Tracy stretched himself on the couch. He watched everybody stagger around. It was an all too familiar sight for him. The first memories of his mother is either her stumbling around looking for her next high or laying her bed paying for it. That is until she started using him to pay for it.

(Warning)

Tracy wandered out of the kitchen. Away from the shouting and the metallic burn in his nose. Mommy was upset because she didn't have enough money for her medicine and this wasn't one of the men she locked herself in their room with. Tracy sat on the couch and turned on the TV. He wanted to turn it up so he didn't have to hear the shouting but that always got him in trouble. Soon the shouting turned into whispers then stopped. It wasn't long before the man came and joined him.

"Whatcha watchin' little man?" One hand was caressing Tracy's hair and the other was on the back of the couch.

Tracy shrugged his shoulders. "There's no cartoons on." They sat there for a while just watching TV. After a while though the man grabbed his hand. First he just held it but then he put it down his pants. Tracy got didn't want to this, he tried to yank his hand away but the man slapped him across the face.

"Don't fight it!" He whispered harshly, "Don't you want to help your mommy?"

Tracy nodded his head, too scared to cry or fight the man anymore.

At one point Tracy got scared that it was never going to end but then it did. The man got up without a word then gave mommy her medicine in the kitchen. She didn't even glance in his direction before shutting the door to their room. Tracy just sat on the couch for a moment wiping his hand on a cushion, before following her. Once in there he climbed onto her bed jumping over his own makeshift bed on the floor. Then that's when the tears came. Tracy just sat next to his mommy trying to get her to wake up. The longer it took the more he cried and the louder he screamed at her to wake up.

Finally she opened her eyes. "Tracy, baby. I'm so sorry. IT was a onetime thing. Never again." She promised as she tucked him into her side.

A hand touched his shoulder causing Tracy to jump off the couch. When he turned around he saw Lucy take a step back from.

"Whoa. You take something to make ya jump?" she said as she took a drink from her red cup.

"No," He said shaking his head, "Just lost in memories." He sat back down and tried to calm his heartbeat. He couldn't believe he went there tonight. He usually avoided those memories like the plague. Lucy jumped over the back of the couch landing next to him but not touching.

Tracy stared at the floor lost in his head. He couldn't believe he did that. Especially here. Just what he needed, think about his first fucking hand job, in a house full of strangers. So far he isn't going through any of his normal side effects after a flashback.

"Is Adam still downstairs?" He asked.

Lucy shook her head then finished her drink. "I saw him come up here but I haven't found him yet."

Amanda leaned over the couch to drape herself over Tracy, "So this guy just told me that Adam has left the party like an hour ago." Tracy jumped as Amanda touched him but calmed down once he heard her voice.

"Freak show." Lucy muttered.

"Amanda, Tracy, you guys can stay come with me when I leave. I gotta ride." Sam said ignoring Lucy.

"We can't leave Lucy. Adam is gonna be pissed." Tracy said. He knew that would get to Sam. She had a crush on Adam. That's one of the reasons she hated Lucy, she thought those two had a thing going on between them.

Sam chewed on the inside of her lip, "Fine, she can come too." She sat down next to another cheerleader.

The party continued for a couple more hours but soon people started filing out. Either to other parties or to make it on time for their curfews. Tracy was trying his hardest to fight sleep and Amanda. She had a couple of drinks and apparently got horny when drunk. After having to stop her earlier and his flashback Tracy was far from the mood. Lucky her friends kept her occupied for the most part with drinking games and the like. He kept her at bay with a few kisses and promises of action once they were done at the party.

"It's time to go!" Sam practically shouted as she stood up. She was as about as gracefully as a new-born colt. Amanda followed Sam to her ride as Tracy went to go get Lucy. She had wondered off some time ago to go smoke or drink or something. Once he found her she was laying on the stairs just looking up. He kicked her foot to get attention. She looked at him, he nodded his head back indicating it was time to go. She slowly got up and followed him out.

Tracy breathed in the fresh air as he and Lucy walked towards Amanda. She and Sam were standing next to a silver car along with an older gentleman. Out of the corner of his eye he noticed Lucy staggered back.

"You gonna be sick." He turned around and watched her for a moment. She just stood there for a moment before her face turned to stone and walked past him into the car.

Tracy rolled his neck, "What a fucking night."