Brilliant." Both girls sat down on the floor and ate, talking about random topics, until they got to their childhoods. Clary stiffened up when Izzy asked what she was like when she was little. Clary chuckled awkwardly, "Uh, well, I had brownish hair, shoulder length, but it eventually grew into red." Clary fought hard to stop the inevitable flashback, followed by a panic attack that was sure to come her way. But she couldn't.
The memories washed over her; of her captor dyeing her hair because it 'irritated' him, but that was before Jonathan got there. She remembered being thrown into her cell, and having no clue what was happening as blood gushed from her arm; the first beating she got. Ever. A helpless 4 year old. Clary struggled for breath and screamed out, thrashing around in the hopes of escaping her horror visions, but it never worked. She suddenly realised that Jon was hovering right in front of her face, murmuring calming words to her.
"Come on Clare, its ok, nothing will hurt you anymore. Your safe here with us, he's somewhere safe right now. I promise, come on Clare, you'll be fine."
After 10 minutes, Clary finally started to settle down, her breathing becoming normal until it was just a strangled sob every now and then. Her body stilled, and now came the tears, fast and relentless but Clary was determined to recover quickly. Finally she calmed down enough and let Jon go; whenever she reached the crying stage he would hug her, and let her cry it out. Jon smiled at her and helped her stand up, setting her down on the edge of the bed.
"Clare, um, I think Izzy and Jace are still here, I told them to go downstairs and wait. What do you want me to say?"
"Usual." Clary sobbed out.
Jon nodded and walked quietly out the door and down the stairs, standing in the living room where the Lightwoods were seated close together on the couch.
"Hey."
"Ohmygosh, is Clary ok? Im so sorry, I must have said something terrible! I am so sorry, please let me apologise, I cant believe I hurt-"
"Izzy, calm down, it wasn't your fault."
"Yes it was, I was th-"
"Its ok Iz. You may have said something that triggered it, but it wasn't your fault. She's been getting panic attacks since she was little, some kind of illness that she has to take meds for. Nothing serious, it just happens that sometimes she gets panic attacks."
"Im so sorry. What was it that I said?"
"Im not sure, usually questions of her childhood;"when Jace cocked an eyebrow he hastily explained himself,"Im mean, with all the testing and stuff she had to go through."
"Of course." Jace nods.
"Can I see her?" Izzy asks hesitantly.
Jon hesitates a moment before replying,"Of course. She in her room."
Izzy nods gratefully and climbs the stairs, gently pushing the door open to Clary's room.
"Clary, hon, are you ok?"
Clary nodded her head slowly.
"Clary Im so sorry. I swear I didn't know, I am so sorry."
"Iz, trust me its fine. Its not your fault, definitely not so don't blame yourself."
Izzy nodded, "Do you want anything?"
"No Im fine thanks."
Izzy stood awkwardly by the door, "Well I should probably get my brother and head home."
"Iz you can stay for tea if you want, we could chill out and watch a movie and my brother could drop you home later?"
"Yeah, that sounds awesome! What movie?"
Clary sighed, she was definitely more wanting to watch Harry Potter or maybe Doctor Who, but figured Izzy wouldn't want to.
"I don't mind, lets go choose."
The girls ended up watching the Proposal, and were joined by Jace and Jon who came and sat on the opposite couch. Clary went to get popcorn, and when she returned found them all talking, but going silent the minute Clary walked in.
"Whats up guys?"
"Nothing." Jon said immediately, "Just talking to these guys." The other two nodded.
"Right, well I'm going to finish getting the popcorn so…" Clary trailed off and left the room, but was surprised when she found footsteps following her. Jace sat down on one of the stools.
"Clary, I uh. I just wanted to say that I can relate to what you go through, I mean with the panic attacks. I get them, and I get nightmares that make me unable to sleep, so I get what your going through." He said quietly.
Clary looked up. "Thanks, that uh, really helps. I get nightmares too but…I don't really know why Im telling you this, lets just go."
Jace looked ready to say something but Clary slipped out of the room and sat down in her seat on the couch, dispersing the 2 bowls of popcorn she brought in. They sat in silence for the rest of the movie, and Jon offered to drop them off before tea, rushing them out the door just before Jocelyn arrived home. She came in and saw Clary sitting on the couch, sniffling quietly.
"Happened in front of them sweetie?"
Clary nodded, and Jocelyn pulled her in for a hug, brushed Clary's hair away from her face affectionately.
"Its ok hon, everything will be ok."
Clary nodded and went up to her bed, skipping dinner and fell asleep.
Clary woke up to Jon tickling her sides.
"Jon, stop! Wait, wait no please-" Clary broke off gasping for breath and glaring at her brother.
"That wasn't very nice."
"Well you kept kicking me last night after I came in! Payback was necessary."
Clary rolled her eyes, thinking back to last night and waking up screaming in the middle of the night. She didn't often scream when she woke, but because she did it meant she was having a very bad dream. Jon had managed to calm her down enough to fall asleep but the images still haunted her.
"Just go away so I can get dressed idiot."
"I am offended Clare,"
"That's nice."
Jon grinned and waltzed out of her room, leaving Clary to herself. She pulled herself out of bed and had a shower, before returning to her room to change. She decided to wear faded light blue jeans, an oversized black tee shirt and her white converse. She pulled a brush through her hair and threw it up into a high ponytail, and applied some mascara before going down to the kitchen. In the kitchen she found her mum standing by the counter, a coffee cup in her hands.
"Clare, have you thought anymore about what I asked last week?"
Clary scowled, "Mum, I am not talking to any therapist or something about it. No. Way."
"Clare, you should talk to someone, you've hardly said a word about it hon. All we know is who took you and there was a boy named Jonathan. You should talk to someone about it."
"I do. I talk to Jon."
"Okay Clare, better than nothing I guess. Have a good day sweetie."
"Thanks, you too."
Jocelyn gave her a quick hug yelled a goodbye to Jon and rushed out the door. Clary decided on cereal, and poured out a bowl of coco-pops, adding just the right amount of milk and sat down to eat it. When she was about done, Jon came barreling down the stairs.
"Clary, can you get me some toast?"
"And you cant because…?"
"Your on the right side of the bench."
"Lazy ass."
Jon grinned and Clary chucked 2 pieces of toast in the toaster, and returned to eating her cereal.
"So, Jon, going after a girl this year?"
Jon rolled his eyes, "None of your concern squirt."
Clary put her bowl in the sink and reached for the Nutella, grabbing it out of the pantry and also getting a knife. The toast popped and Clary lathered the Nutella on, and took a large bite out of one of the pieces.
"Tax, Jonny boy."
Jon rolled his eyes and snatched his toast back, shoving the half eaten piece in his mouth whole.
"Ready to go Clare?"
"Just a sec." Clary raced upstairs and brushed her teeth, grabbing her school bag on the way and rushed back downstairs where Jon was waiting by the door, keys in hand. Together they got in Jons car and were off to school. At school they parted ways, Jon to the populars and Clary to Simon and Isabelle.
"Hey Si, Iz."
"Hi Clary," Izzy exclaimed pulling Clary into a hug."Im so sorry about last night Clare,I feel terrible."
"Izzy, honestly its fine."
"But I still feel bad."
"Well don't."
"I know! Can I make it up to you by taking you out this weekend?"
"You don't owe me anything, but sure."
"Awesome! We can go clubbing Friday night and then you can stay at mine for a sleepover!"
Clary laughed, "Iz, were you going to invite me anyway?"
"Yeah, I was. Now, you'll have to come over earlier so I can dress you up, and we can bring the boys as well, wow its going to be awesome! Simon, you're coming too"
'Oh, uh, um, yeah ok then."
Isabelle grinned and pulled Clary after her, heading towards english. They arrived and took their seats at the back of the classroom, away from the stares of classmates. Izzy turned to Clary, "oh my gosh thank you so much!"
"Um, what?"
"Last night, when you got popcorn, and Jace followed you, I was left with Jon for like 10 minutes! He is so hot, I mean have you ever looked at him?"
"Izzy, gross, no way. He's my brother. That's just, just," Clary shivered, "No, gross."
"Well that doesn't mean I cant admire him from a distance. I bet you find my brother attractive."
"Your-what? Alec?"
"Nope, Jace."
"Well, sure, I guess he's attractive, but no I don't admire him from a distance."
"I bet you do."
"No, I don't. Besides, aren't you dating Simon?"
"Yes, but its not as though I'm actually going after your brother, I'm just admiring him."
"gross, Izzy can you not?"
"Fine."
The teacher walked in, further stopping their conversation.
"Good morning class, today you're going to be pairing up to do a research paper on one of Shakespeare's plays. I want it by tomorrow, which may require homework."
Everyone collectively groaned.
"Off you go."
Clary and Izzy got to work, each grabbing a laptop and deciding to do 'Romeo and Juliet' because it was 'The most romantic thing ever' according to izzy. Clary just inwardly sighed and agreed, starting to research the play and dialogue and the teacher brought the sheet with the required info around. By the end of the lesson, Izzy and Clary together had completed half of the project.
"Clary do you want to come to my place to work on it tonight?"
"Sure, whatever."
The girls made their way to maths where they sat down beside Simon and Maia, in the second last row. The teacher walked in and gave them an insanely boring lecture about wha they would be doing in class that day and then gave them a crap load of homework. As they went out for recess Clary ranted to them.
"What do they think this is?! That is not fair for them to do that,I mean homeworks only the stuff we didn't finish in class right? I mean that is so not fair, im certainly raging right now."
Izzy laughed, "Does Clary always get this fired up about trivial things?"
"All the time,"
"Yeah, you'll get used to it,"
Maia and Simon said at the same time, causing Clary to glare at them and stalk off to their table outside. The rest of her friends joined her, as well as a muttering Isabelle.
"Must be someone's time of the month."
Clary couldn't help but laugh, which immediately diffused the attention. Across the quad, Clary noticed her brother hanging with Jace and Jordan, with a bunch of cheerleaders grouping around them.
"Iz, your brother and mine are pretty good friends already, even though they've known each other for like a day."
"I know, strange right, Jace doesn't usually open up to anyone. He usually hangs with Alec and selects his slut of the week," Izzy finished darkly.
"Wait, he's a man whore?"
Izzy's jaw clenched. "In a sense. He doesn't force anyone, but ah, I think its his way of coping with things."
"Coping?"
"He had an…interesting past. He likes to forget and those sluts certainly do make him forget. All freaking night long." She growls out.
Clary looked at Izzy sympathetically, "Thin walls?"
"You have no idea."
"Don't worry, once or twice I have uh, heard Jonathan from his room. I was about ready to shoot myself." Both Maia and Simon looked alarmed at that but Clary just glared at them, and they backed down.
"Damn Clare, that really would suck. Thank god that out latest house is nice, and has thick walls."
Simon chose this moment to intervene. "Well. Maybe we should talk about something other than your, uh, brothers sex lives."
It was at that moment though that Jon and Jace walked over.
"Lewis, I always thought you were gay but never did I think you'd turn for me."
"Sorry kid, I don't swing that way."
Both Jon and Jace said, holding completely straight faces. Simon flushed bright red, and started stammering.
"No, Im uh, not gay, assholes. I have a girlfriend."
"Is she just a cover-up?" Jace asked causing both boys to double up laughing.
"Do I look, like a cover-up Jace?" Izzy asked, standing up and glaring at Jace.
"Iz, you're the girlfriend? Jeez, I thought that kid looked familiar. But I do still think you're the cover-up."
Izzy groaned and rolled her eyes, promptly pulling Simon up by his shirt and smashing their lips together. Izzy gripped the back of Simons neck, pulling him closer, until Jace roughly pulled Izzy off.
"Ok Iz, we get it." Jace growled out. "and you, Lewis, treat her well or I swear I will kick your arse."
Simon gulped and nodded, and Clary couldn't help but laugh.
"Jace that's so sweet, if only my brother was that protective." She said with a mock-glare at stammered slightly, "I um, uh."
"Clary you don't know!"
"What?"
Jace looked side to side and leaned down till his breath was fanning across Clary's neck, sending her senses into overdrive.
"If he didn't protect you so much, I highly doubt you'd be as innocent as you are."
Clary's mouth dropped open and she gaped at her brother. "Jon is that-"
"Jeez Jace! Stop flirting with my sister! Come on, we need to go. We'll talk later Clare."
"No, Im going to Izzy's."
"Fine Jace is coming to ours."
Clary watched them go and thought back to the past years. It had seemed as though a lot of Jon's friends had been very friendly towards her at some point, but had eventually all turned away. Was that Jons doing? Clary felt a stab of annoyance go through her, how dare he decide who she could and couldn't date? But all the same, she was slightly flattered at the way he looked out for her. Clary shook herself out of her daze and stood up to go to history, dragging a very pale Simon with her, Izzy following behind with Maia.
A/N THanks so much for all the reviews and fav/follows, it means so much and inspired me to write this long chapter, so I hope you enjoy! And I think that the whole reviews for an update works well, so Im gonna say if I get to 60 reviews, I'll update within 2 days! You guys are honestly amazing and have given me so much support for this story! And also shoutout to
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for guessing part of the origin of my name, yes 'demonpox' is in reference to Will Herondale from the Infernal Devices, can anyone else guess what 'johnnyboy' is in reference to? I will also give at least 1 shoutout every chapter to anyone who makes me smile from a review :) But then again every review makes me smile xx Also to the reveiwer who asked/commented Jace has not remembered Clary yet, just simply called her Clare. Do you want any from Jace/Izzy/Jon POV, like I know its in 3rd person, but like focusing on them? Sorry for the insanely long A/N, you guys are the best!
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