Hello again!

Yes, I decided to write the goodbyes, so there may be 4-5 more chapters, possibly including an epilogue.

First up is Marqy and Leigh, Lexie next possibly with Mark, and then Dee.

Ok here it is guys.


Previously in Probably Wouldn't Be This Way:

I turned to look at everyone, one last time as I knew it was my last, to see everyone but Mark and Lexie and the girls, I knew that I would be going on my way tonight, with Dee, Mark, Lex, Marqy and Leigh all in the room.

Also, hopefully, with Der waiting for me, with his arms wide open, welcoming me home.

Probably Wouldn't Be This Way
Chapter 4

That Night

As soon as we got back from the cemetery, I hadn't been feeling well. I had a really bad headache and a really heavy and tight chest, it was slowly getting harder and harder to breathe.

Around 6 o'clock Mark, Lexie, Marqy and Leigh turned up at our hotel room, for one last goodbye.

Lexie and I had a difficult relationship at first but then became close, I don't think I would've been able to handle a lot if I hadn't had an actually sister to talk to.

We knew, we all knew, that tonight was the night, nothing would be done, I would go in peace, Dee, Mark, Lexie and I had all decided a couple of months ago that I would be DNR, it would be easier that way, instead of dieing in an extreme amount of pain.

We knew I would talk to everybody the way I wanted to, so Marqy and Leigh were first.

"Hey Aunt Mere" Marqelle came up and gave me a hug and a kiss, but Leigh stood back.

"Leigh, I need you to come up to me sweetheart, I need to tell you both something" I told Leigh, I was running out of strength, Leigh stood there and shook her head.

"Leigh, we need to do this for Aunt Mere, you know she won't be here much longer, we need to make the most of this time we have, we need to say goodbye" Marqy was looking at her sister with a stern look, Marqy had been born before Mark and Lexie were married she was 16 and the spitting image of Mark.

Again Leigh stood at the back of the room with tears in her eyes and shaking her head. This was going to be hard for Leigh; she was 6, again the spitting image of Mark except she had Lexie's dark hair.

"It's ok Marqy, she's here, and that's all that matters. I don't know what to do, I've never had to say goodbye from this side before, I've always been in your position, or I just have never had the chance to say goodbye.

I suppose I should start off by saying that I love you both so very much, you're my nieces. You're the nieces I know, you're the nieces that I could give advice to and you NOT take it the wrong way."

By this point all three of us were in tears, but I knew this would be nothing compared to saying goodbye to Dee.

"Marqy, you're 16, and in a couple of years, or now, or whatever, you're going to start partying, and trying stuff. All I can say about that is be wise about it, don't drink a heap so you become immune to it, and don't sleep with inappropriate men, look where it got me!" This time Marqy and I gave off a chuckle.

"You're a smart girl, and will do great things, there is a lot you can accomplish if you try, if you don't, then, you don't, you're in a family that is full of doctors, don't let that influence you, you do what you want, what you dream of, its your life, you live it, then you only ever have yourself to blame, and possibly me for giving you this advice.

Also, being the spitting image of your father, you can probably get anything you've ever wanted from a guy just by giving him the McSteamy look, or in your case the McSteamette look. USE IT to your advantage, but don't use it for something stupid like a drink or whatever else, be smart about, but just letting you know you can also probably get away with anything with that look." By the end of the speech we were both in a fit of giggles.

"I'm gonna miss you so much Aunt Mere, you're the loose, not stuck up aunt that doesn't take everything I say literally, I love you Aunt Mere" and again we were in tears, I knew I had to speak to Leigh, and it was going to be hard.

"Leigh, babe, can you come over here so I can tell you some very important stuff that your parents will never tell you, or would seeming that your father is Mark, but stuff that a aunt should be able to tell you"

Leigh again shook her head.

"Ok, Leigh baby, I'll tell you from over here. You are just like your sister, except younger and have darker hair, and anything that I don't get to tell you, I'm pretty sure that your cousin Dee will ok.

So I'll tell you the basic never wear black under white clothes rule, and also black with brown, but that's just my opinion.

You're only young Leigh so there isn't much else I can say to you, just that you should know that I will and have always loved you, ok?"

Leigh was slowly moving towards the bed I was lying in, with tears in her eyes, she broke out into a jog and jumped up on the bed and cuddled into me crying.

"I love you too Aunt Mere, I'll miss you" with that she sat up kissed me on the check then walked out of the room not looking back.

I heard Marqy say something about getting her parents; I couldn't talk so I just nodded.


A/N:

Sad? Depressing? Not Crying Material?

Tell me! lol.

ok, it might be a while till I get around to the next chapter, but shouldn't be TO long, not making promises though!

Amythest Girl.