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What are words-Chris Medina (It's more of a sweet slow song but it's sad and the first time i heard it i cried, I blame it on sensitivity)
MAGNUS POV
When I took those first steps out of the room, I broke, Alec, he was the miracle of my existence, if I had never met him, I don't know where I would be. Just the thought of him alone somewhere with monsters, who took much pleasure from seeing him in pain, dying perhaps, I couldn't take it; sprinting down the hallway I let the water spill from my catlike eyes, now red and blotchy from fat tears that stretched across my face. I clawed at my cheeks, as I slid down the wall and put my face in my knees, and just thought of the good times, not of how Alec was probably being tortured but psychotic freaks who thought being gay was a sin. But that was nearly impossible when I, the supposed person who was in love with him, just let him enter that god forsaken portal, who was I to even grieve; I should have tried to do something, help him in the least!
I turned over and retched, letting the feel of vomit burn my throat, the pain was bringing me back to reality, keeping me grounded, something I very much needed at the moment, without it, I would be a puddle of nothing.
Nothing but leaves on the wind.
The world sharpened as my vision came into focus, I needed to get there and help them, what if the portal was still open, or let traces of magic, and I could help him, possibly save him. I needed this.
My knees shook as I stood; groping the wall for grip I stepped towards the tragedy that awaited me.
Left. Right. Left. Right. One step after the other. Quickly. Fast. Rushed. Impatient. Frustrated. Ignorant.
I turned the corner to the hallway that lead to his room and stopped, frozen in place, the closer I got the door, the louder the labored breaths and gasps of pain got. Was he still in there?
Just the thought of him dying that way, ripped apart my very soul, I treed closer, and waited at the door, what if he really was dying here? What if he was going to be lost from me and there was nothing I could do about it, I could only stand here and fear for the worst.
NO, I can't do that, he needs me, I burst through the door and raced over to Alec, the portal had closed and everything looked almost ordinary minus the withering beauty, with demon poison slowly torturing my baby, making its way through his veins, killing him. He didn't seem to notice my presents as I fluttered over his flailing body, the floor was soaking itself with Alec's blood, and he was heaving black substance into the carpet with thick tears streaming down his cheeks. I bit my lip till I felt a trail of red fall from my lip at the sight, he had curled in on himself and was rocking and digging his nails into his wrist again, reopening the gashes from before. I couldn't imagine the agony he was going through, I could only stare almost like a blind man, I was seeing it, but not comprehending.
Ignorance is bliss.
Or so the saying goes, thoughts flashed through my mind and useless ideas made their way the front as I searched frantically for some way to save him. A book flashed through my mind, a certain book of white precisely, I snapped my fingers and felt the familiar weight of the book in my hands and flipped page after page for something, anything that could help him. Before I went to work on a spell I needed someone here to help him while I worked.
"ISABELLE LIGHTWOOD! JACE LIGHTWOOD! ALEC'S ROOM. NOW!" I roared at the siblings that were somewhere inside the institute, and almost felt relief when I heard the sound of footsteps racing to his room. Almost.
The blonde was the first to burst through the doorway; he stumbled when he saw what was going on and fell to his knees wide eyes, fear and confusion swimming through golden orbs. "WH-WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED!?" Jace yelled, and crawled over to Alec and gripped his wrists, pinning them away from his wrists. He gazed at me and opened his mouth about to say something but was interrupted by a blood curdling scream; both of our heads whipped over and found Isabelle leaning heavily on the arch of the doorway with liquid spilling from her eyes.
"A-Alec, ALEC!" Isabelle shouted while rushing towards him, she dropped next to him and began drawing iratzes over Alec's body, frantically calling out his name in the process.
Alec's movements were gradually getting more and more sluggish, his erratic breathing now soft gasps every minute or so, he was going, already white skin now pasty from lack of blood and his pupils were a dull navy color.
When he stopped moving completely Jace felt for Alec's pulse and paled when his fingers made contact with the shinning white skin stained red with blood and his eyes looked haunted, "His pulse…Magnus his pulse….I can't feel it..Magnus...MAGNUS!" Jace sputtered. My head snapped away from the book of white and I fell to the floor next to Alec and felt the pressure point on his neck for signs of a heartbeat, seconds passed without even a faint movement and the sting connecting me to reality was dissolving at an exceedingly fast pace. My own fluttering heart stopped and the room was silent, the soft skin of his neck had lost its heat and was cold from blood loss. I hadn't noticed the busy tears that dripped from my dull eyes, my lips quivered as I waited desperately for that pulse; that beat, my hands trembled and I was silent.
"A-Alec…Baby. It-it's me...Ma-Magnus...Alec…Alexander…Alec please…open your eyes, baby please…I-I…I love you..Alec please just open your eyes. Don't do this…I'm sorry, just come back...please" my voice cracked in the end. I gently nudged his shoulders with my hands, shaking him lightly, "Alec…PLEASE!" I let my head drop to his chest, soaking my hair in blood; I rested there for moments, still waiting for that pulse, that small quiver of the heart, but still nothing.
My whole life I had spent running from anything that could possibly take away some of my freedom, anything that could jeopardize the life I had built for myself, but him. Alec had broken down all of my barriers within the first month and had me madly in love by the second, I couldn't just let him die, I couldn't let him leave my life without even a proper goodbye.
He can't just leave things the way they are, he just can't, Alec can't do this, everything is unfinished!
I stood with purpose and swiftly picked up the book of white and read through spell after spell searching for one that would save his life. Through the sift of pages, I tried to block the sounds of Izzy yelling Alec's name and Jace's quiet sobs, with all my power I focused on the book and recited one spell, one little spell that would save his life with enough power, one that a high warlock could easily complete if the stakes were right, one that would bring him back.
The words flew from my native tongue as I repeated lines as directed and spoke loud and powerful, using as much of my magic as was possible, there was only one downfall to this one spell, and it might be the end of everything I've ever had built in New York. I slit my wrist as commanded, and let it spill onto Alec, as I began to feel weaker and weaker, I felt the feel of my power leave me and pour onto him, filling him with magic enough to bring him back.
I had to say a couple more times and my eyes were already drooping and my limbs felt heavy, I needed to at least get through this spell.
"M-Magnus…what are you doing? Magnus what does the spell do?!" I heard Isabelle's hesitant voice get stronger as she jumped up to stop me at some 'attempt' at saving her brother, but before she could get to me I had it finished, the limbs fell from beneath me and I collapsed next to Alec, but before I passed out I looked over at him and cupped his cheek.
"Wake up baby," I smiled widely as I saw his fingers twitch, I had brought him back, and the rest was up to him, if he truly desired to live or if he thought it would be inane to keep a beating heart simply because of his sexual preference. I laid my hand on his soft beating heart and grinned as the world around me was becoming more and more vivid and blurred, I watched with content as black filled my vision and hit the floor, hand still connected to his heart.
Before I completely went I heard a loud groan from behind me and gasps of surprise and my name being called.
Magnus.
Magnus.
Magnus.
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