Just saying, This is gonna be a angsty chapter, cause I feel angry:(


"I only wish you could see this, Finn." I whispered at the stars. Maybe, I'm just crazy, and the real Finn is in heaven where he belongs. The fight inside me is tearing me apart. A house divided can not stand. A great quote by Abraham Lincoln, and it still rings true. Which brings me back to Finn, even though he wasn't completely honest with me about his virginity, I had lied about mine also. And I made out with Puck in a time of confusion and anger. I would never make out with Puck willingly, now. I shuddered at the memory of me fighting with Finn.

Suddenly I felt hands on my waist, and a chin resting on the crown of my head. The familiar feel of me fitting into Finn so perfectly drove me to tears.

"Finn, get the hell off of me and go to heaven where you're supposed to be." I put bluntly.

"Well, excuse me ma'm, I'd like to hold my girlfriend, nay, my fiancee for a little before she sends me to heaven!" He replied curtly. God, why did you make me love this man ? Even though you know that he'd be ripped apart from me.. I wondered if this was my curse to bear with until the day I die. I giggled at the thought of God signing a paper that read, "Rachel Berry will fall in love with a one Finn Hudson, only to have him ripped apart from her, but not completely, so that she suffers. Xoxo, God." I laughed out loud, and Finn asked me what was so funny.

"You are, lovey." I whispered into the night air, hoping God would carry it up to Finn. The real Finn.

"Rach, I love you. I want us to stay like this forever." Finn said softly. I was so happy to fall in love with anyone, much less a man as perfect as Finn.

"Finn, let's make love." I murmered, turning to face him.

Without another word, he pulled me close and kissed me. A touch as simple as a kiss set me of fire from the tips of my hairs to the tips of my toes. I felt the familiar feel of Finn's tongue asking for permission before entering my mouth. I broke the kiss to breathe, and began fumbling with buttons on my shirt and, then he slid his ever so easily over his chest.

"Wait, lets go inside. And upstairs. I dont want Leroy to catch us." I said, my lips swollen with want. We scurried upstairs and resumed undressing each other. Our first time together had been Valentine's Day of last year. It was perfect, he scattered rose petals all over my room and lit candles. It smelled like.. Love.

I smiled at the memory, and kissed his neck as he stumbled, tripping over his pants. We laughed and resumed our kissing. Before I even knew it, I was laying under him, stark naked. I was self conscious, and he knew that, and more importantly, used that to his advantage. He kissed my chest, all the way down to my stomach. Finn's lips left a trail of want down me, and I moaned for him to get on with it.

So he did. Finn rolled on the condom on to his erection, and slid ever so gently inside me. I scratched at his back, which elicted a moan and a "Rach !"

Maybe, I could get used to Finn still being here, with out actually being here.


AN/ Good enough ? I have.. Smuttier themes going in my head, but I dont think I want this to be a very smutty story. I want it all Cloud-Like and FLUFFY3

R&R ? :DD