"I thought you'd be sleeping," Erik said sitting next to his sister and looking at the screen she had open, he was supposed to stay up with her to go through the Gossip Girl posts but he fell off to sleep early. "How far back did you go?"

"I just wanted to see what I missed," Serena mumbled going to the next post. "I started from around the time I left, the posts start fading when they were in college and then just stops at the wedding."

"The posts started fading after Gossip Girl realized she wasn't going to find you," Erik told her, he was surprised to see the site still up when he googled it for fun, he remembered how his sister hated getting texts alerting her to a Gossip Girl post when she was in High School, he still didn't know why someone would target her but then again he didn't think he ever wanted to understand a teenage girls mind. "Well she knew where you were but no-one had any pictures or news, it was like you weren't getting into any trouble anymore and after a while everyone else's lives just got too boring for her."

"How do you know all this?" Serena asked and Erik shrugged.

"I talk to Chuck sometimes," he said like it explained everything.

"Well she documented Chuck, Blair and Nate's life enough for me to have an idea of what's been happening since I've been gone," she says closing the site and putting her laptop away.

"So what did you find out?" Erik asked leaning back on the couch and staring up at the ceiling.

"Most of the posts are about Chuck and Blair, their relationship seemed to shock Gossip Girl as well," Serena said giggling. "They were always on the same wavelength with the scheming and stuff, it's really not that big of a surprise if you think about it."

"I don't remember," Erik said shrugging and Serena nodded. "It was only after high school that I came back here."

"You were in boarding school since you were 8," Serena said almost gasping at the fact that she let that happen, Summer was 12 now and she couldn't imagine sending her away. "You should have stayed with me."

"And Grandma?" Erik asked raising an eyebrow at her. "No thanks, you had a good relationship with her, she just scared me."

"You would have gotten used to her," Serena said laughing as she thought of how her brother and grandmother refused to get along, she was obsessive when it came to cleanliness and proper behaviour and Erik was a little boy who wanted to dig around in the dirt and refused to sit still for any period of time.

"Maybe, but I don't regret going to boarding school," Erik told her. "Besides you had to deal with Summer, I didn't think protecting your little brother was something you should have had to deal with too."

"But I like protecting you," Serena said teasing and Erik laughed and nudged her. "Well at least I see you every weekend now."

"What did you find out about Nate," Erik asked, knowing that was what his sister was looking for.

"Not as much as I hoped for," Serena said sighing. "He kept the lowest profile, there were posts about him and Blair together and then little posts trying to figure out why they broke up, Gossip Girl said he cheated and then him with Chuck and Blair at their wedding in that final post, with another 'Where is she?' heading."

"I haven't seen much of him since I've been here," Erik says. "I know he's Henry's godfather."

"Chuck just said I'll see soon," Serena said sighing. "And mom didn't even speak about him, I don't know how to feel about this lack of information from the one person I actually want to know about."

"S, I know you really want to know about Nate," he says carefully. "Is there a reason why?"

"He's just the only person I don't know about," Serena said standing up. "I'm going to sleep, I'm going to show Summer New York and all our old hang outs tomorrow, you should come."

Serena kisses the top of his head and goes to her room and gets under the covers when she feels her bed dip and someone snuggle up behind her.

"You're supposed to be asleep," she said turning to let Summer rest her head on her shoulder.

"I was waiting for you," the little girl said. "Couldn't sleep alone."

"Scared of the ghosts," Serena asked teasing her and she could feel her girl frown.

"Moooooooom," she whined sleepily. "Who was the lady that asked about my dad?"

"Blair, she was my best friend," Serena said, wishing she hadn't hurt Blair as badly as she knew she had. "We were friends since we were babies."

"She's kinda mean," Summer said shrugging and Serena shook her head and smiled.

"She's just angry that I left without saying goodbye," Serena said rubbing Summers back lightly. "Once she gets over it, you will love her."

"Did you leave because of me?" Summer asked softly and Serena felt her daughter's body tense at the thought of being the reason for her mother uprooting her life.

"No, I made the decision to leave before I knew," Serena said honestly. "When I found out about you it made me sure about my decision."

Summer nodded against Serena and Serena could tell sleep was finally taking over. "Do you know who my dad is?" came the whispered question the little girl never asked before and Serena was naively hoping she never would.

"Yes," Serena said softly, she didn't want to keep this from her daughter any longer, she couldn't, when no response came, Serena looked down to see her fast asleep and she laughed, of course her daughter would ask such an important question and then fall asleep before she heard he answer.

She always maintained that she didn't know who Summers father was but she did, she knew from the moment they told her she was pregnant and she couldn't imagine not going through with that pregnancy. She didn't want anyone to tell him about Summer, she didn't want to risk losing her baby. As the years went by she found it easier to just say that she had no idea and people came up with their own theories, at first they made her angry but most the time they were so far away from the truth that Serena could live with it.


"Mom look," Summer squealed throwing more bread into the water where the ducks were fast approaching her. "There are so many of them."

"Blair's house keeper, Dorota, used to bring us here to feed the ducks when Blair was having a bad day," Serena said smiling as she handed her over excited 12 year old the rest of the bread in her hands. "It became a tradition even after we got old enough to bring ourselves here when she was upset."

"What did you do when you were having a bad day?" Summer asked smiling widely when the ducks started eating what she'd thrown to them. "You said this was Blair's thing, what was your thing?"

"Urm well, another friend of ours, Nate," Serena said smiling automatically when she said his name. "I'd usually call him and we'd go for ice-cream to this shop that was open 24 hours and we used to talk about silly things until I felt better."

"Am I going to meet him?" Summer asked and Serena nodded and looked back out at the water. "I feel like having ice-cream."

"We can take a walk to the shop when we find Uncle Erik," Serena said laughing at her scatter brained girl. "It's close by, I wonder if it's still open."

"Where did you live before you went to LA?" Summer asked curiously and Serena smiled, she was all questions today, every place they went to sparked alot of questions about her childhood and stories that she'd long forgotten. "Howcome I don't know this already?"

"Because it never came up, come on let's start walking, I'll tell Erik to meet us there," Serena said sending a quick message to Erik while Summer said her goodbyes to the ducks. "We can come back later."

"Can we get a duckling?" she asked and Serena shook her head no, there was no way she was getting a duck as a pet. "Please, please, please, please."

"You can't take care of a goldfish, what makes you think you can take care of a duck?" Serena asked throwing her arm around Summer and pulling her close as they walked.

"Goldfish are too needy," Summer said waving them off. "I just need to throw some food in for the ducks and they'll be fine."

"You couldn't do that for the fish," Serena said incredulously and Summer frowned. "You'll be bored with it within a week, no ducks, maybe a dog, I wouldn't mind a dog, I'll take care of it if you forget."

"Grams would scold us if she could hear us talking about taking a dog into her house, although she'd probably scream louder for the duck," Summer said giggling and Serena smiled, her grandmother was not an animal person, too messy and too needy, she always said. "I miss her."

"I know you do baby," Serena said pressing a kiss to the top of her daughters head. "I do too."

"Why are we stopping?" Summer asked clearing her throat when her mother pulled her to a stop.

"My old room used to be right up there," Serena said from the spot where she could clearly see the building where she used to live. "I had an amazing view of the park and if you just turn a little and look right up to the penthouse, that is where Blair used to live, those where the two places I spent most of my time at when I wasn't at school."

"Mom we need to go see your school," Summer exclaimed and Serena laughed and nodded.

"We need to?" Serena asked, and Summer nodded enthusiastically as they continued walking. She wanted to visit the school as well, just to see how much they'd changed over the last decade but she didn't need to.

"Yes, I want to see where you went," Summer said. "Is it like my school?"

"It's a school, they're all pretty similar," Serena said thinking about the school Summer went to. "Except our classes were split, the girls went to Constance Billard and the boys to St. Jude's but we shared the same courtyard and sports grounds."

"Do you think your old teachers will still be there?" Summer asked bouncing as she walked alongside Serena.

"Doubtful," Serena said thinking back to her old high school. "They were all old bats, probably all retired or dead by now."

"Mom," Summer exclaimed giggling. "You aren't allowed to scold me if I ever tease my teachers."

"Probably should have thought about that before I said it," Serena said slapping her forehead dramatically.

"There you guys are," Erik called and both girls spun around to find him coming toward them with three huge pretzels. "Best pretzels in New York, or so the board says."

"Food," Summer said like she hadn't eaten in such a long time and Serena shared a look with Erik before taking her pretzel from her brother.

"What did you feed her?" he asked looking from his niece to his sister.

"Nothing," Serena said and Summer glared at her uncle. "We were actually going to go for ice-cream at that place between our old apartment and the townhouse."

"She doesn't need any more sugar," Erik said throwing his arm around Summers neck and pulling her to him. "She's hyper enough."

"When in New York," Serena said rolling her eyes because as the parent, she was supposed to stop the sugar and Erik was supposed to sneak it to her.

"That's when in Rome S," Erik told her and Serena glared at him, she knew the phrase. "Why are we taking her all the way there?"

"Because that's where mom and her friend, Nate used to go when she was feeling sad," Summer informed him and Erik raised an eyebrow.

"Really?" Erik asked staring at Serena knowingly and she shook her head at him.

"Yep, let's go," Summer said enthusiastically grabbing Erik's hand and leading him in the direction they were going toward before like she knew exactly where she was going.

"Serena?" a confused voice called and Serena whipped her head around quickly, she squinted as the glare of the sun hit her and then gasped because the boy they were just talking about was making his way to them. "I can't believe it's really you."

Summer turned sharply when Serena grabbed her hand and she and Erik frowned at Serena for a moment before looking to where she was looking, some guy was coming toward them, Erik and her mom seemed to know who he was but she was confused.

"Nate," Serena breathed out, a smile gracing her face at seeing him and finally it felt like she was home.


A/N : Yeah I know I know but there's more of Nate in the next chapter hehe I feel like I'm dragging this story a little or trying to anyway, I've added a few filler chapters that makes the story that much longer, if you guys find that too annoying let me know but I'm enjoying focusing on other things before getting to the main point of the story, if that makes any sense at all

The vampire diaries season 6 is coming out tonight and I don't really know how to feel about it, on the one hand I want to see Paul Wesley, on the other most of the last 2 seasons made want to just stop watching

Anyway enough of my ramblings, I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter, please review and let me know what you think

Until Next Time(^^,)