Jude is sitting on his bed he was trying to build up the courage to engage his brother in a conversation. He and Jesus have gotten closer since the incident a couple of weeks earlier. Jesus had shared a secret about his past experiences in confidence. Jude feels privileged to have his brother's trust and would never betray it, not even to Connor. He finds himself talking to Jesus more and asking for advice. Lately Jude finds himself thinking about Connor in a more physical and sexual way. He wouldn't feel comfortable talking to his moms nor his brother Brandon and definitely not his sisters. Since Jesus had some experience with boys he figures he would be best to tell him about the things that boys do together sexually.
"What do you want?" Jesus asked, lifting one side of his Beats headphones so he could hear the response.
"I just want to talk about some stuff" replied Jude.
"Talk about what?" Responded Jesus, looking at him blankly and sounding impatient.
"Just have some questions" Jude said as he sat at the foot of his brother's bed.
"Did I say you could sit?" Jesus fired at him.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry" Jude said softly as he stood up quickly and turned to walk away, head hanging.
"Jude, come back, I'm playing" said his brother with a big smile, signaling him to sit.
"What did you want to talk about?" Jesus queried.
"How did you and Miguel become friends?" asked Jude.
"We met at a picnic for cops and their families. From the moment his dad introduced us, we just clicked. We were inseparable after that. Why do you want to know?" Said and asked Jesus.
"I just wondered how you guys went from friends to... you know" Jude responded.
Well after we met the following weekend I asked moms if I could hang out his house since they didn't live too far away. They were happy I made a new friend especially since he was Latino also. Something about me being in touch with my heritage. His father is Columbian who came here as a kid and his mother is part Mexican, part African American. We would hangout every weekend as possible. I preferred to hang at his house because his mom wasn't as nosey as our moms." Jesus said to Jude.
"Well, you're not gay. Was Miguel?" Asked Jude.
"Miguel gay? No! He had girlfriends and he had been with girls before we met. And there was one girl I was sure of." Replied Jesus
"How could you be sure?" Asked Jude.
"I was there. I was hiding in his closet with the door slightly open so I could see. I saw everything, he even used a condom. It lasted for ten minutes or so then the girl suddenly got up and left." Said Jesus.
"So how did you guys go from that to messing around?" Asked Jude looking puzzled.
"Well, I got really excited and turned on by what I saw and I got a huge boner. I tried to hide it when I came out the closet but I couldn't. Miguel saw it and started laughing. He asked me if I liked what I saw. I told him 'yes'. Then I told him I didn't know he had such a really big one. Then he told me that was why the girl left. She couldn't deal with it. Then he said it looked like I had a big one too. It just wouldn't go down. I told him I was not big as he was. Then he said 'let me see.' I was like, 'no.' And he was like, 'but you saw mine.' I was like, 'so what?' And he said 'that's not fair.' And I was like, 'Ok.' Then I pulled down my sweats and showed him. He was like, 'wow.' And I felt good when he said that. Then he pulled down his shorts and I was dumbstruck. It was even bigger up close. Then he said 'you're still hard and I'm hard. Do you want to do something?' And I asked 'do what?' And he said that we could jerk off together. I just watched him do a girl, I couldn't believe he wanted to do that with me. I said 'Ok.' Then we stood there watching each other beat off. I couldn't help myself I just reached over and touched his. When I realized what I did I pulled my hand back real fast. But Miguel didn't freak out. He just said that he didn't mind if I touched it. Then he reached over and touched mine. Then he came closer to me till his was touching mine. And I held onto to it. I'd never felt anything like that before, it was unbelievable. I don't know what happened, after I held it, I just started shooting all over the place. All over Miguel, all over his hands and his dick. Suddenly he came too and shot a huge load all over me. I was like 'eww.' But it was still like the most exciting thing I'd ever done. After it was over we stood there all messy, both laughing like two idiots." Jesus told his brother.
Jude was entranced, absorbing every word.
"After we cleaned up, we played some games, we had dinner then we played more games till it was time for bed. He had a bunk bed and he let me sleep on top. We were talking quietly because we were supposed to be sleeping and then he asked me if I wanted to come down with him? I was down in no time. We were laying there together and he said he had never done anything like that with anybody else. I told him me neither. Then I asked him why he did it with me? He said that he really liked me. I told him I really liked him too. I did. Then he asked me if I had ever kissed anyone? I said 'not really.' Then he asked me if I wanted to try. I said 'I guess.' Then he kissed me, a real kiss with tongue and everything. I was hooked after that" Jesus said.
"I can't believe I'm telling you this stuff. I've never talked about it." He added.
"You guys didn't think that was... you know, gay?" Asked Jude.
"No. I was still very curious about girls and Miguel had a girlfriend, Ashley. I hated her. She was nice but I hated her. Anyway Miguel told me he liked me better than any girl so I let her live." Jesus replied.
"Maybe you were jealous. Were you guys in love?" Asked Jude.
"No. I was not in love. I don't think he was either. We just had a very intimate connection. Something just for us." Jesus said.
"Jude what are you up to? Why are you asking about this stuff?" Queried Jesus.
"I have my reasons, I'll tell you after" replied Jude.
"Tell me about the blow jobs" Jude said sheepishly.
"Oh really? That didn't happen for a while. Jerking off together had become our thing. We would do it with our free arm around each other, it just felt like we were connected. Then we tried jerking each other off. That was even more fun. Jerking Miguel off was unbelievable. Especially when he laid back, no clothes, legs spread wide and let me at it with both hands. The way his body reacted, the sounds he made. He had this thing with biting his bottom lip. He trusted me. He wasn't afraid of me seeing him like that, wanting to be pleased. He didn't hold anything back. The best part was when I finally made him come. Just the look on his face. I really got off on being able to please him. But sometimes we did nothing but just slept together completely naked under the same cover. His arms around me or my arms around him. That was nice too." Jesus said.
"As for blow jobs, well we tried a few times. Miguel asked me one time when we were fooling around if I ever had a blow job. I told him about what happened with Lester that used to live two houses from us. Basically we were here in this room and talking about all kind of stuff. Then he asked me if I had started growing hair because he had. We were the same age, eleven. I said 'yes a lot.' And he said 'stop lying.' And I said I wasn't. And he said 'show me.' I was eager to show that I wasn't lying. So pulled down my shorts. He was like 'oh my god.' I said 'I told you.' He said 'no not that, that' and he pointed to my dick. Then he said 'it's much bigger than mine.' Then he got closer and touched it. I didn't stop him. I don't know why. Next thing I knew he had it in his mouth. I was scared but it felt kinda good so I let him. I got so hard and before I could tell him to get off, I came in his mouth and all over his face. Then I guess he got embarrassed and just ran out and went home. We avoided each other for a while. When we finally spoke again I promised him I wouldn't tell anybody. His family moved to Arizona because his dad got a job there shortly after. You met him last Thanksgiving. Mr. Wilson's grandson, they came to visit.
"Wait, you mean that tall guy Les?" Asked Jude.
"Yep. If you want I could hook you up. He's gay. He told me when he was visiting." Said Jesus.
"The second was from Miguel. He had gotten a few blow jobs from some of the girls he messed around with. He said he wanted to be the first to give me a proper one. I think that's when I first realized what making your toes curl meant. I tried to return the favor a few times but I don't think I was very good. But he was fine with it. Miguel was fourteen almost fifteen and mature for his age. Everything sexual came to him naturally. He did things to my body that just left me just in a head-spin. The things he could with his tongue. Then he tried to put that thing back there and that was a wrap. After that I started dating girls and realized that it was really about me and Miguel. I wasn't into guys, I was into Miguel. I see guys and I might think they're cool even attractive but I don't want to get with them." Jesus stated.
"What Things did he do with his tongue?" Asked Jude, as he got a flash back of a conversation with Connor. Jude had stuck his tongue in Connor's ear as a prank. It caused Connor to scream like a bitch and label Jude as "Tongue Boy." Then Connor whispered in Jude's ear that he had other places Jude could stick his tongue eventually.
"Sometimes he would just lick me from head to toe, or try to stick it into every crevice and every hole possible, especially back there. Miguel was nasty. And I loved every bit of it. He used to say he couldn't get enough of me. I thought it was the other way around." replied Jesus.
"Did you ever stop liking Miguel?" asked Jude
"No. But I knew we couldn't go on forever" answered Jesus.
"So you think you have enough information to try and drive crybaby wild?" Asked Jesus.
"What do you mean?" Said Jude. Surprised by his brother's question.
"Come on Jude. Don't try to play me. I know you're asking because you're thinking about doing stuff with Connor." Jesus replied.
"He's not a crybaby he was just scared. His dad was real upset when Connor told him he was gay. He was even more upset when he told him that he liked me. His father always tried to keep us apart. That's why he started dating Daria so we could go out in groups without his father getting suspicious. And he could start coming over again. He wouldn't even let me see Connor in the hospital until momma had a talk with him. They are finally in a good place and he just didn't want to give his father any reason not to trust him now that he's ok with us dating." Jude told Jesus.
"I'm sorry, I didn't know that" Said Jesus.
"I wouldn't have told moms anyway, I just wanted to make you guys sweat." Jesus said.
"This is all so scary. And then what you told me about you and Miguel. And you getting hurt. I don't know what to think." Said Jude.
"Don't be scared Jude. Just don't rush into anything, till you are ready and he's ready. Make sure you're prepared. And you guys should talk. Make sure you understand each other and what you both want" Jesus advised.
"I am a little scared. Connor is 's going to happen if and when we try… that?" Said and asked Jude.
"I know" said Jesus.
"What do you mean you know?" Asked Jude, puzzled.
"Jude, I was standing in the doorway for a while. I saw everything. I was shocked, your boyfriend is almost as big as me." Replied Jesus.
"Oh" said Jude. "You were watching? What do you mean almost?"
"Yes I watched you guys for a little and yes I'm bigger" replied Jesus. "Wait, Jude what are you looking at? Asked Jesus suspiciously.
"Nothing" Jude quickly.
"Ok this is getting weird. Maybe you should keep your eyes up here, where my face is." Jesus said.
"Can I see it? Jude blurted out quickly.
"What. No. You little freak. Why?" Jesus said.
"Just curious. You showed it to other people with no problem. Why can't you show me" Jude replied.
"This is weird and you're crazy." Replied Jesus. Throwing a pillow at Jude.
"I know but I still wanna see." Said Jude. "Come on, stop being a prude, that's my job." Said Jude.
"That's funny. I'm being a prude and you're being a weirdo." Jesus replied, then he paused for a moment.
"Ok. Satisfied?" Jesus said.
Jude wasn't able to speak just then. His eyes were opened wide as they could. He rubbed them and looked again to make sure he was seeing right.
"Oh my god" was what he said when he was able.
"Now you sound like crybaby." Jesus muttered.
"Jesus, if Miguel was a lot bigger than that. What the hell were you thinking. You must have had a death wish" Jude said shaking his head.
"Don't remind me" Jesus said. "I gotta go to the bathroom."
"Why? You could do it right here." Jude said.
"Do what? Jesus asked.
"Whatever you're going to use that for" replied Jude referring to the small plastic vial in Jesus's hand.
"I'm down for watching and maybe trying some of whatever that is" said Jude.
"Who the hell are you and what did you do with Jude?" Jesus asked.
"I'm here, I've just been educated that's all. Now set the boundaries. You're not the only one that all this talk has ready go. Let's get this show going." Jude said with a sly smirk.
"Why?" Asked Jesus.
"I think I understand how you felt after you watched Miguel. I think I'm feeling the same way after listening to you" replied Jude.
"I like the way it's gotten between us now" Jude added.
"I do too" replied Jesus.
"I feel like I can come to you and talk about anything" Jude said.
"Connor does make me feel special, and you do too. Not only do I have an awesome boyfriend, I also have an awesome brother." Jude said looking at Jesus with admiration. "Just consider this as something just for us."
Jesus looked at Jude with his head tilted to the side. A small smile curled the corners of his lips. Strangely enough, he understood. Strange way to bond, but it works, he thinks.
"No touching that would be too weird." Jesus started.
"Duh" Jude interjected. "Super weird."
"No sitting on my bed with your bare butt. Aim for the floor. Clean up your own mess." Jesus continued. "Now, hold out you hand and get some of the good stuff" said Jesus.
"The good stuff?" Asked Jude as he stood up and reached out his hand to his brother who squeezed a clear thick gel from the vial into his hand. His sweats were already at his knees. He was obviously excited. But not by Jesus so much, who was a sight to behold standing there facing him, in a tank top with his shorts now down at his ankles. But, by what they were about to do, about to share.
"You'll see" said Jesus.
"Oh. It tingles" said Jude as he smeared the gel on his penis and watched as Jesus did the same.
"It gets better. Keep going" said Jesus.
A/N: Thanks for reading. Please post any reviews/comments, they are appreciated even if you hate it (just say why). Follow the sequel "Just one more time" where the infamous Miguel pays Jesus a visit out of the blue. Also, thank you to the reviewer who suggested upgrading the rating to (M).
