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"You're still seeing him, although he left you alone?"

"What do you want from me? He's my soul mate!" I told him; after he had stepped out of the woods he was really ignorant.

"He couldn't be much of a soul mate if he left you!"

"Stop it, Heath! You're just jealous!"

"So what if I was? Does it change anything you feel about me?" He said calmer, almost silent. He had nothing but trousers on like the other wolves always, but he was like the others, not different in any kind of way. Seth seemed to be a lot more different than the others, just like Jacob, but Heath wasn't different at all. He had the same aura around him than the other wolves.

Dawn, why do you keep hanging out with this guy? He left you for god's sake! Why don't you leave him too?

"I can't believe what you're thinking! You're just awful!" I walked back to the Cullen's house, but Heath held me back at my arm. "Let go of me!"

"No, please, Dawn. Don't run away from me again! I'm sorry for what I said or thought."

I just want her to like me, why is it that difficult? I was just too late.

Yeah, too late like forever. Even if he would have met me before, Seth would have still been my soul mate, no matter what.

"Heath, I do like you, it's just that Seth is my soul mate and you're my friend. I'm afraid you can't ever be more than that to me," that hurt even to say it out loud, but it was necessary. He would have never given up.

Heath stopped to hold me and dropped his arm. His eyes were fighting with tears, but he tried hard not to let me see it.

"Yeah, probably better that way. I'd better get going now," he sniffed silently, but it sounded as if it would echo through the whole forest.

"I'm sure you'll find your soul mate one day!" I called after him as he vanished inside the trees that surrounded us.

I felt bad, really bad. Why did I even say something like that? Was it right? He kept on stalking me although I thought it would end since I came to the Cullen's, but in that matter of fact he hasn't changed.

"Where have you been so long?" Jacob asked me as I silently slurred past him up to Edward's and Bella's room. I had no need to answer that question. Why would he even bother? Besides I wasn't that long gone actually. Was I even sure that I would never feel anything more than as a friend about him?

Jacob caught me on top of the stairs and talked silently to me, although everybody in this house could hear it with no problem.

"Dawn, I know I'm not your sister who you can tell everything that lies on your heart, but still, if you need to talk, I'm there for you," he smiled afterwards and I had to grin too. He always made me feel better, although I better thought not to tell Jacob my inner thoughts, because the other wolves would know them later for sure.

"Thank you," I just said and went on.

Inside the room I closed the door and lay down on the bed. After just a few minutes someone knocked on the door and I called him or her to come in.

"Hey, Dawn," Bella said and closed the door behind her; "Do you want to talk?"

I nodded and Bella sat down on the bed. I sat up straight to talk without problems. My only fear was that I would break out into tears when I would start talking.

"I know you have already too much on your mind, but can I tell you something personal?"

"Sure, always."

The thought appeared to me that Bella's thoughts were the only safe ones in this house. She was the only one whose thoughts nobody could read, what now the perfect option was to tell her everything.

"I know I love Seth and I'm sure and he's my soul mate, but there's this other guy I met when Seth was gone and he made me feel a lot better and now I really don't know what to think. Seth will be my soul mate, forever, but Heath has also something about him, I can't tell what I think he's just like the other wolves. But when I talk to him I feel so much emotion about him. Seth can bring out my deepest emotions for sure, but when I'm around Heath alone I feel a slow hint of such emotions too, of course they can't concur with Seth's feelings, but there is something still."

I nearly started to cry in the middle, but I found myself when I was deep inside my thoughts. I looked now at Bella and waited for her answer.

"Every werewolf is special. All of them are different to another. You know that Seth really is the one you care about most so you already know where your feelings are. It is okay to feel sometimes a hint of something like that, but you already know that Seth is the one for you, so you don't have to worry."

"But I told Heath off and now he's totally cranked and I feel as miserable as him."

"Oh, well, you have to talk to him. To both of them. You have to tell Seth that while he was away you tried hard to live without him and Heath helped you, he will surely understand. And Heath surely will understand and accept your choice when he really cares about you."

"You think so?"

"Definitely."

"Thank you, Bella. I feel way better now."

When it was dark Seth got inside the Cullen's house and sat down next to me on the couch. He laid one arm around me and I laid my head on his shoulder. I felt warm again. You could see that winter was coming, because the trees were nearly naked and on the ground were just leaves.

"Can we talk outside?" I asked him and he nodded.

We stood up again and walked outside on the porch steps.

"What is it?" he smiled so nicely to me.

"I wanted to talk to you about...the time you were gone."

"Are you angry at me? I'm really sorry I left you, but you know it was necessary."

"I know, I'm not angry; I just...tried to clear my head and not to worry about you, but my head didn't want to let you go, until..."

"Yes?" he didn't seem a thing angry or sad or disappointed.

"Well, Heath helped me ease the pain. And I think he now thinks more of me than I do of him."

"What can I say, you know who you love and I hope it is me."

"Of course it's you, but there are feelings for him as well, but feelings I don't quite understand."

He waited long to response, but then he answered me.

"Dawn, I can't help you with your feelings, because they're yours," another pause, "I see that you are confused at the moment and I can understand it totally, because I left you without telling you what to do or to wait for me. It is my entire fault so I will give you time to think about your true feelings."

"But, Seth-."

"I know you need time. Take as much as you need," he kissed my forehead and went inside again.

Didn't he get my point? I loved him for sure more than Heath, but I just wanted to tell him that I had feelings for Heath as well. Maybe Bella wasn't right at all, what if Seth now thought that I loved Heath more than him? And how should I talk to Heath so that he wouldn't think he had a chance with me? Should I even talk to Heath about my feelings for him? Yes, I should at least talk to him about what I said before. But I should wait until tomorrow, maybe he would understand then.

I shivered shortly, because Seth had been my warm source and now I froze a little bit.

Suddenly someone opened the door. I looked behind and saw Edward coming out of the house.

"Hey, Edward," I said and smiled forcing at him.

"Bella talked to me about Seth and Heath," he went down the porch steps and stood himself in front of me. I frowned. I wanted her to hold it for herself, "I know you are going through a personal crisis right now and I cannot (nachvollziehen) it, but you need to know that all of us stand behind you."

"Thank you, Edward, but I know you have more important things to worry about."

"You are a guest and your problems are also our problems. If you need to talk to somebody, we are always there for you," he smiled gently afterwards and I had to smile back. He encouraged me somehow with these words. A wolf approached slowly from the forest and Edward went back inside.

After the wolf had changed Heath came outside the forest a second time this day.

"What does he mean about a personal crisis?"

"Heath, I wanted to talk to you about before."

"No, I have to apologize; I should respect your choice, after all he is your soul-mate," he tried hard that I wouldn't realize his sadness, but I could read his thoughts so he couldn't hide anything from me.

I hope she doesn't get I'm totally depressed because of that; although I should respect her choice. I know that she wants Seth, but I just can't let her be. I love her so much.

"Heath, I'm sorry how I told you before. It was harsh and disrespectful. Can you forgive me for hurting you?"

"Yes."

He smiled really now and hugged me; finally someone who warmed me again.

But she still keeps on hurting me by not choosing me. I can't tell her. She would feel miserable again, but it's not her fault that she wants Seth. It's no one's fault, it's just how it is.

Heath said he had to go back again and I send him back. Why does this never end? Can't Heath find his soul-mate and forget about me? I was just breaking his heart again and again on and on through all day and night.

Please review! Will Heath find his soul-mate and can finally let go of Dawn?