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"What is it?" I demand my brother.

No, don't judge me. Yes, I actually started referring to Sebastian as 'my brother' in my head. I'll never tell him, but somehow way, I do start to see him as family.

"Now, Clarissa, could you please be more specific? What is what, if I may ask?"

"The secret." I spat. "What is it?"

"I'm sorry, dear sis, but I wouldn't know what secret you might be talking about. Could you enlighten me?"

I take a step forward, coming closer to the bastard. "What is the secret of the forest?"

He smirks, takes a few steps forward until we almost stand chest to chest, before he says: "I wouldn't know."

Breathing heavily, I shoot upwards in my bed, taking in my surroundings.

I'm still in my room at the Pandetral. Pandetral is the name I've given this place. It's a mix of Pandemonium and Central. It's the central for demons, and the biggest and worst of them all is in this building: Sebastian.

I have no idea what the time is, but I do know that I won't be able to get to sleep anymore. I let my feet slip away under the blanket and stand up. I dress in the same clothes as yesterday, which are what the head color in Pandetral is. GREY.

Sorry, I just hate that color.

I'm not allowed to leave my room, except for breakfast and lunch. I have to eat dinner in my bedroom.

There's also a small bathroom attached to my room, with a toilet, sink and shower. There even lays a toothbrush and some toothpaste, one towel, that get cleaned once a week, and a few shampoo bottles. Everything is in the same color. I think you can guess which one.

I walk towards the sink to brush my teeth. After I've done that, I try to calm my hair a bit by brushing it with my hands. I think I'm the only woman here, since I've never seen any other female, and when I asked for a hairbrush a few days ago, Sebastian and his demons laughed at me and asked why.

Men just don't understand.

About that, I wonder if Sebastian is really so stupid he thinks that I won't get my period soon. Why can't he just give me the stuff I need? Is it too expensive, or something?

I walk back towards my bed and sit down with my sketchbook. The drawing comes immediately: First there are dots, they form lines, and then eyes. Next is the nose and then the mouth, hair and ears follow, a chin, and then the details and shadows.

Until I stare down at Jace.

He smiles up at me, and for a moment I actually believe that he's laughing at me, like he is asking me out for the evening. That is, until I realize he isn't real, that Jace isn't with me, and that I'm not anywhere near him. A tear rolls down my cheek, and I quickly put the drawing away, hoping not to destroy it. I can now also see our picture form our one year-anniversary.

"I love you, Jace."

"I love you too," A deep, smooth voice behind me says. I spin around, to be greeted with the most beautiful sight I've ever seen.

"Jace." I breathe, and the next moment, I am in his arms.

"Hey." He whispers in my ear. "I missed you."

I smile in his shirt, and inhale deep. He smells good. He smells like Jace.

I love that smell.

He presses his nose into my hair, and inhales deeply as well. One of his arms leaves my waist, and he brings it up to stroke my cheek with it.

I nuzzle my face into his palm, and he brings my chin up, so I can look into his golden eyes. They seem to sparkle, like they always do when he looks at me.

"I love the look." He informs me smirking.

I look at him dumbfounded. "What look?"

"That look as if you are a thousand miles away with your mind. I hope you were thinking about me?" He releases the full power of his eyes on me, and I can barely form an incoherent sentence.

"I'm always thinking about you." The words come out strangled, and I'm surprised he even understands what I'm saying.

Jace leans in close to my ear, and exhales into that sensitive spot next to it, "Good." He quickly plants a kiss there, and then he pulls back before I can react.

I pull of my saddest pout and look at him with my best puppy dog-eyes. Jace raises one eyebrow, as if to ask 'What?', but before he can, I've pulled him down to my level and pressed my lips to his.


I hate dreaming.

There was a time I used to like it. As my childhood, living with only my mother, I used to fantasize a lot. I pictured how our lives would look like if my father was alive. Sometimes I imagined weird battles between the bad, monsters with creepy eyes and teeth, and the good, fairy's and angels. Little did I know back then that those fantasies would become true one day.

Most of the battles and creatures I imagined I all drew. I had a special sketchbook for the fantasy world I used to live in the most. I'd spend while afternoons just drawing them. I loved it. I could create my whole own world and stories there.

Only later I realized that all my dreams were of things I wanted. Things I wanted to have, or wanted to do. All my dreams were of my wishes.

Now, all the dreams I had as a child have come true. I'm part of the good side, the angels, and I fight the bad side, the demons, and I'm a hero. I've met fairy's, vampires, werewolves. Not that I'm too happy with that.

And now that they've all disappeared, new dreams came. Dreams of being with Jace, dreams of being a part of the Lightwood family. You could say that those wishes have come true, but just for a while. I became a part of the Lightwoods, until I got ripped away from them. I am, or have been, together with Jace, until Sebastian made him believe I'm dead.

Now I've started to hate dreams.

They never come true anymore, not for real. I've been separated of Jace for about two weeks now, and I've been having dreams about him more and more frequently.

The past few days, more people have started to leak into my nightly adventures. First Isabelle appeared, later Magnus joined, and I've seen Alec once now as well. When I'm lonely in my room, I daydream about my mother and Luke. Besides wondering how they are handling the situation, I wonder how they'd react if I'd ever see them again and tell them what happened. Would they forgive me? Or hate me for the rest of their days?

I've wondered about it tons of times, and will wonder about it a thousand times more. I know it won't have any effect, but my brains can't seem to listen. Something I also worry often about is if they dream about me. Does Jace miss me? Does he lay on his bed for hours, wondering how I am, just as I do? I'd like to say that I want Jace to be happy and to move on, but I know it's a lie.

Don't get me wrong, I really want Jace to be happy. I'd give almost everything up for him to live a good life. Almost. Because if it would mean he'd be with someone else, I'd be heartbroken.

I wouldn't stop him from being with someone other than me, if it made him happy. But that doesn't mean I'd be okay with it.

I know for a fact that I wouldn't be able to live if I knew Jace didn't love me. Even though I miss him badly now, I can cope with it because I know he cares about me. It is horrible not knowing how he is, but in one way I'm glad.

Now I don't know if he moved on. I won't know if he finds someone else. I won't know if he marries another girl. I won't know if he had a child with another.

I won't know if he starts a family without me.

And I won't be so heartbroken.

Hopefully.

I gasp for breath as a cramp forms in my belly. I gently massage it with my hands until the pain disappears. I regonise that cramp: My period.

Damn Sebastian, I need period stuff! Like, right now!

I walk toward the bathroom and sit down on the closed toilet seat. "I hate you, Jonathan Christopher Morgenstern."

As the pains calm down, I walk back towards my bed, just to spend minutes staring at my pile of books, until one particular one gets my attention. Twilight: Breaking Dawn. The book where Edward and Bella get married and Bella gets-

….Pregnant.

"No." I whisper, shaking my head. "No."

Sebastian says my period won't be there this month. Several months, even, said. There is something that can cause your period to stop for a while: Pregnancy.

Those cramps, are they… Am I carrying a baby?

Was that the secret of the forest?

Am I pregnant?

Oh god, no, no, this is not happening! I'm not pregnant!

How am I going to deal with this? How am I going to raise a child on my own? How am I going to raise a child without Jace?

Jace… He won't know! That is what Sebastian was talking about!

He wants me to raise this baby, and then reveal it to Jace.

Reveal that my death was fake, that I had his child, without Jace knowing.

Would he even tell Jace it wasn't my fault?

So, what did you think? Most of you already guessed, but maybe there are some people who didn't. Now, there are a few things I want to ask you, and let me know your opinions in the reviews, please.

I was thinking about changing the title of this story to 'The secret of the forest'. Do you think that would be a good idea, or should I leave it 'My daughter Jacelyn?'

And, I kind of already know the answer, but do you guys want outtakes in Jace' POV? I've made a poll on my profile, so if you want to, let me know of who you want to know their thoughts during this story, or even multiple characters.