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And the answers:
beany16: No, it's not Karofsky.:)
Assassin8: Well, if you decide to publish it, I'll definitely read it. You'll learn more about Blaine's past soon.
Klaine4eva: Maybe you're right but it would make everything too simple (or more complicated, it depends on Finn's reaction – he could become the good big brother or an even bigger bully). I want Blaine to be the one who realizes that something is wrong with Kurt and tries to help him.
SetoKai: Every ten days or so. I always try to be faster but I have a baby daughter and sometimes I just don't have enough energy to write at the end of the day.
"Kurt! You're late" Rachel said as Kurt stepped into the auditorium. Rachel had asked everybody to meet her there after their last classes to talk about something.
"I know" Kurt sighed and sat down. He had to change clothes because Karofsky thought he didn't get enough slushies during the day and he arrived a few minutes later.
"You can't act like this. This is a team and if you want to be part of it..." Rachel started but Kurt rolled his eyes and cut in.
"I know, Rachel. Can you cut the crap and tell us why we're here?" Kurt asked. He wanted to go home and hide in his room instead of sitting here and talking about his behaviour.
Rachel shook her head disapprovingly.
"You're so rude lately. You really don't deserve..."
"Honey, would you tell us why you asked us to come here?" Finn asked and grabbed Rachel's hand, distracting her.
"Right" Rachel said. "We need a team building night before the compatition. We have to be the bests and we're far from a real team. So I decided to throw a party. You're all invited."
"Rachel Berry's house party? I hope your fathers have enough alcohol in their liquor cabinet" Puck said.
"If they have, we will definitely come" Santana smiled, looking at Brittany. The girl nodded.
"I-I'll take care of it" Rachel said hesitantly.
~ o ~
The music was too loud and Kurt could tell the other glee club members were already drunk as he and Finn arrived. He saw Tina and Mercedes in the corner of the room, laughing, Brittany standing on the washing machine, taking off her clothes as Santana and Artie were watching her with wide smiles, throwing cash towards her, Quinn fighting with Sam over something, and the others sitting on the floor, watching Rachel perform.
Finn went to help Puck with the drinks and Kurt was left alone. He decided to sit down and watch the others. He really wasn't the kind of teenager who tried to become popular by drinking too much. Besides, they needed somebody to remain sober in case something happens.
"Here, Hummel" Puck said and shoved a drink into his hand.
"I'm not drinking" Kurt said and gave Puck the glass of unknown liquid.
"Come on, Hummel, we're here for team building, don't be like that" Puck pushed his drink back into his hand.
"Fine" Kurt sighed and decided to change his drink for something alcohol free later, when Puck isn't around.
"Let's spin the bottle!" Rachel shouted about half an hour later when Finn didn't want to sing more with her.
"Yes!" Kurt heard some of the guys replying and soon everybody else was sitting on the floor, forming a circle.
"Kurt, come here!" Rachel said, reaching out towards him.
Kurt bit his lip and shook his head slowly. He didn't want to join the game.
"I'll just sit here and watch you" he replied and forced out a small smile.
"Come on, don't be like that" Rachel said.
"Sit down, Hummel" Puck said and with the help of Sam – even thought he didn't need it – he forced Kurt to join the circle.
"Better" Rachel nodded.
"I'll go first" Santana volunteered and reached out for the bottle.
They watched it for almost ten seconds and waited for it to stop. Finally, the bottle stopped, pointing on Finn.
"Come here, Finny boy, just like in the good old days" Santana smiled and reached out to grab Finn's neck and pull him closer.
Rachel watched them almost angrily, counting every second. After ten seconds, she grabbed Finn and pulled him back.
"That was enough" she hissed. "Okay, my turn!"
She span the bottle and it landed on Sam.
"Come here" Rachel smiled and climbed over Tina and Mike to kiss Sam. This kiss didn't last so long, Sam pulled back almost immediately as his lips met Rachel's.
"Wish me luck" Mike winked at Tina and grabbed the bottle. It didn't stop for long but then finally it landed on Tina.
"I think you're lucky" Tina said and pressed her lips on Mike's.
The others waited for almost a minute for them to stop, Rachel even told them that it was enough but it didn't seem like they heard the others.
"Okay, let's go on and let the love birds explore each other's mouth" Puck shouted and span the bottle. To Kurt's horror, it landed right on him.
"No way" he said and jumped up.
"Come on, Hummel, don't be a coward" Puck smiled.
Kurt could tell he was planning something as he saw something gleaming in the other boy's eyes and he was sure it was something he wouldn't like.
"No, thank you" he said and took a step back.
"Kiss him! Kiss him!" he heard the others shouting around them.
Kurt still didn't want to kiss Puck. He had never kissed anyone, he didn't want his first one to be a rude football player. But as he was standing there, thinking about what he should do, Puck stepped to him and grabbed his waist.
"Just one kiss" the boy said.
His breath was awful from the alcohol and Kurt almost grimanced. He knew the others were staring at them and they wouldn't let it go. So he closed his eyes and waited for kiss, hoping it will be quick.
He opened his eyes seconds later as nothing happened. Puck was still standing in front of him, smiling evilly.
"You didn't think I would kiss you, right? I don't want to catch gay from you" Puck said and pushed him back to the wall.
Kurt hissed in pain, his back still hurt where it was bruised. But it wasn't what hurt him the most. He looked at his classmates as the laughing around him became louder with every second, desperate to find anybody who didn't enjoy making fun of him. But he wasn't that lucky. They were all happy that Puck humiliated him. He knew deep inside that mostly it was just the effect of the alcohol, but it still hurt.
Kurt shook his head as he felt tears forming in his eyes. He quickly turned around and left the room before the others could see that he was crying.
~ o ~
The town was silent as always, except the house of the Berry family. Blaine knew there was a party, Finn had told him about it. The music was so loud he could hear it from the next street. He came back a few times, he knew very well that teenagers can make crazy things and he wanted to be near if something goes wrong.
It wasn't too late, maybe around 10, when he saw the front door open and Kurt rushing outside. He didn't see much from the boy but it was clear Kurt didn't want to stay longer as he turned right and started running down the street. He decided to follow him. Kurt stopped by the park and disappeared from him for a second but Blaine found him fast. He was sitting on a bench, with his head bowed. Blaine shook his head. Places like this were dangerous, Kurt should have known that.
"You're a perfect target for any criminal, you know?" he asked as he stepped out from behind a tree.
Kurt startled and looked up with wide eyes. Of course he didn't know there was somebody else.
"Leave me alone, Blaine" he sighed.
"Use my superhero name, I'm working" Blaine smiled but it faded away fast as he stepped closer and realised that Kurt was crying. "What's wrong?"
"Everything" Kurt said and wipped his face. "I hate my life."
"Hey, don't say that" Blaine said and sat down beside Kurt. "This years are the best of your life. Just enjoy them!"
Kurt felt more tears running down his face.
"If these are my best years, I don't know how I will survive later" he said.
"You have troubles at school, right?" Blaine asked quietly. He knew there was something more serious than a bad party.
"Nobody understands me" Kurt answered, looking down. "They think I'm weird because I have no power and they... they can't accept me because..."
"Why, Kurt?" Blaine asked gently.
"Because I'm the only gay at my school" Kurt said finally.
"Oh! That's it?" Blaine asked. He came from New York, it wasn't so uncommon there.
"Yeah. It's like a living hell most of the times" Kurt said and stood up.
"Wait!" Blaine jumped up and grabbed his hand. "You can tell me about it if you want."
Kurt stared at him for a long moment but then he shook his head.
"No, thank you. I managed it alone in the past years, I can do it again" he said and turned to leave.
"Then let me walk with you home. You shouldn't be out here alone at this time of the day" Blaine said.
"Blaine, it's Lima. There wasn't a single villain in this town in the past 8 years. I'll be fine" Kurt said and started walking towards the gate.
"I'll follow you, you know" Blaine smiled.
"I hate you, Nightbird" Kurt rolled his eyes. The man almost made him smile and he realised he wasn't crying anymore.
None of them knew that they weren't alone in the park. There was another man, hiding behind bushes and trees, watching them.
~ o ~
Kurt remembered his mother had said once that he had been a happy kid and it had made his mother happy. But his mother was long gone. So was his happiness. Although his talk with Blaine made him feel better temporarily, the hell he was living in knocked on the door the next morning. Finn had a hangover, he was gruff and sluggish, they would have arrived at school late if Kurt hadn't forced him into the car without breakfast. It just made Finn's mood even worse.
The football team, particularly Karofsky, had a good day, though. He slushied Kurt three times that day and when he was out of clothes and had to walk through the corridors in his dirty and wet ones, he made rude comments and was loud enough for everybody to hear them. And then, there was the last break of his day. Kurt went for his books and only opened his locker when he was slammed to the door of his locker. He fell to the ground and lost his grip on his books. He reached out to take them but Karofsky was there, kicking his books away from him, laughing. Kurt jumped up and was ready to insult the boy, but Karofsky pushed him to the locker once again. Kurt hit his back and winced in pain, unable to say anything. When he could breath again, Karofsky was gone.
He sighed and went to collect his books from the ground. He changed them for the ones for his last class and chose a less crowded corridor to avoid the Neanderthals. He walked by the counselor's office, stopped briefly to see the pamphlets in front of her office. He read the titles with a raised eyebrow.
Alzheimers: Pretending to Listen
Radon: The Silent Killer
Is That a Period? Or Have I Been Shot?
I Can't Stop Touching Myself
My Mom's Bipolar and She Won't Stop YELLING
Kurt shook his head. The counselor was definitely crazy. He almost turned away when something caught his attention.
Ending It All: Pros and Cons
He took the pamphlet and opened it quickly. He only read the first few words when the door of the counselor's office opened and he only had time to hide the pamphlet into his bag.
"Hey, uhm... uhm..."
"Kurt" Kurt helped the ginger woman.
"Yes, Kurt. I saw you reading the pamphlets. Can I help you?" Ms Pillsbury asked.
Kurt shook his head and took a few steps back.
"No, thank you. I-I have class, I have to hurry. Bye" Kurt said and left quickly. He decided to read the pamphlet at home, in the safety of his room.
~ o ~
Blaine groaned as he heard the slam of the front door. God, this whole family was so loud. First the boys in the morning, then Burt who couldn't find his suit, Carole who somehow had the great idea to wake him up to have lunch... And now this. He was tired.
Last night was horrible. He walked Kurt home, then said goodbye and hurried back to the Berrys. He had to watch almost a dozen teenagers all night as they tried to get home somehow and how they puked everywhere through the town. Around 4, he found two of them in the park in a very intimate situation and he decided to step in an send them home. He didn't know how the kids managed to go to school in the morning but he heard Kurt and Finn fighting and he knew they were the most sober ones.
He groaned again and got up. He didn't have energy to eat in the morning and he was really hungry. He grabbed his jeans and pulled them up before he left his room. He went down the stairs, through the living room, and he was almost at the door of the kitchen when he almost fell because of something on the ground. He swore quietly and looked down to see what it was. It was something heavy and hard judging from the throbbing pain in his feet.
"For example a bag full of books" he muttered and lifted the object.
He brought it to the couch and dropped it. He could tell it was Kurt's. The boy turned the simple bag with a brooch and a few materials into a really stylish one. Blaine saw such things in the best boutiques of New York. This kid was talented.
The half of the bag's content spilt on the couch as he dropped it and he looked around quickly, hoping nobody saw it. He started pushing the things back into the back before Kurt can notice it, when he found something. It was a pamphlet, maybe from the school, just a short reading.
Suddenly, the door to the basement opened and he jumped away from the bag with the pamphlet in his hand. He just had time to hide it from Kurt as the boy appeared from behind the door.
"What are you doing?" he asked.
"Well... I..." Blaine put the pamphlet into the back pocket of his jeans and made sure to hide it with his T-shirt. "I wanted to go into the kitchen but your bag was in the way. So I brought it here."
Kurt's eyes widened as he saw the content of his bag on the couch. He walked there and quickly put his things away.
"I-I'm sorry. I'll be more careful next time. And thank you" he said quickly and went went back into his room, slamming the door behind him.
Blaine sighed and shook his head slowly. This boy was really weird. He almost turned to go and have some breakfast, uhm, lunch, when he remembered the pamphlet in his pocket. He went back upstairs and closed his door behind him quickly. He pulled it out and saw the title on the first page.
Ending It All: Pros and Cons
Blaine mouth fell open as he went through the other few pages. He knew it was about suicide but it was so hard to believe. But it was true. It was a pamphlet about suicide and Kurt was reading it... Kurt wanted to attemp suicide.
"God..."
Blaine stared at the first few words again as his mind tried to come up with a solution. He had to help Kurt before he it's too late. He just didn't know how.
