Hey readers, thank you for favoring, follow, and all the jazz to this story. There's so many ideas to put into the story but I have a long way to go on how this story will end (not soon but thinking about a sequel to it; maybe it's still in the air.) Any who, this is by far my first favorite fanfic to getting into character in order to understand what they characters are going through, yes I read the series and only putting in their hobbies, food, and the war (if anyone got the hints.) I'm also considering wanting to write more Hunger Games fanfictions because I'm starting to feel confront able and not being afraid anymore when I first wrote All Around Me. Also please read Peeta Saved, Katniss Captured by wolflover43; it's amazing and you'll love it.
Also, if anyone get's confuse. I'm using transparent; going back and forth with the memories.
Here's Chapter for of Lost Love
Peeta's P.O.V.
I haven't slept since I saw Katniss alive in person and had to figure out 'How is she alive?' and 'How is she married to Gale if she was declared 'dead' to me?' something isn't right and going to get the bottom of this. I placed around the living room and waiting for a reply from Haymitch.
"Haymitch, you have to look this up, you have to please I beg of you." I said being depressed with wanting an answer.
"Kid, it's impossible that Katniss is alive and you told me when you came back that she was killed in action. Didn't you have the paper work stating that 'Katniss Everdeen-Mellark was declared as dead with her squad with only two survivors?' I wouldn't be surprise if they didn't look closer on that case and someone had to pay a lot to make sure that she was dead to you. Now, what did you say what her last name she carries now?" My next door neighbor and retired solider asked me.
Haymitch was a commander to Katniss and me when we were first shipped to the Middle East. He trained us and the months that he trained us, I guess you can say that he became like our father figure and showed us on mentally, physical, and weaponry training. He was out in the in the field when he was deported back in two-thousand and four then worked his way up being a commander training new recruits. He was there when we all found out that Squad 451 was attack and I had my emotional breakdown. In a way we both wanted to retired after my wife was killed and moved to New York. You see Haymitch is from Mineral Wells, Texas but decided to move to the east coast for the change in scenery including watching out for me.
"Her last name is Hawthorne, she's married, got married to Gale Hawthorne; the promising soldier to Commander Paylor. She's not Katniss Hawthorne, she's Katniss Mellark." I assured him being serious.
"Okay, calm down. I'll have my buddies to look around including looking on what Gale Hawthorne has been up to for the past two years since coming back with Katniss. Get to work Bread boy, I'll call you when I find out more." My mentor said taking everything in.
"Alright and thank you Haymitch." I said speaking the truth as I pressed END CALL on my Nokia 365 and putting in my jean pocket. I zipped my jacket then grabbing my keys as I started to leave my house with locking the door behind me. I whistled and waved a hand in the air seeing a cab pulling in towards the sidewalk. I quickly ran down the steps going to the sidewalk putting a hand on the car door handle getting in and then closing it behind me.
"Where to sir?" The cab driver asked.
"To forty-six and main please, Connor's Bakery Corner." I answered as the cab drivers question and looked out the window.
'I hope I'll get to see you again Katniss, please.' I silently prayed and leaned into the leather material.
Twenty minutes later…
I felt a halt into the ride and knowing I pulled up to my part-time job. To be honest I don't need the job but gives me something to do, plus, my doctor recommended me to do or else I'll slip through depression again. I opened my eyes and getting my wallet out giving the guy a twenty dollar bill handing it to him than getting out of the cab closing the door behind me.
I put on a somewhat cheerful smile walking inside of Connor's Bakery Corner and seeing the place dying down from mornings opening which is always crazy busy at five in the morning because of people going to work from here or Philadelphia, New Jersey, and Connecticut. I see a few people in line looking at the display case on what kind of sweet treats or bakery goods they would want, I started making my way towards the back to clock-in, going towards my mini locker putting up my belongs.
"Hey Peeta, how are you? Glad that you came in." My co-worker Delly asked me with a warm welcome.
I turn to look at her and gave her a smile back. I took off my jacket and placing it inside my locker.
"I'm doing okay. How are you Delly?" I asked putting on my apron and walking over to a sink in the kitchen to wash my hands.
"Good to hear and I'm doing good. Hey Peeta, I was thinking… do you want to go out for dinner or a drink?" She's been wanting to date me for two years and every time she asked my answer would be.
"Del, I'm not ready yet and you know this." I looked up to her telling her the truth.
"Just this one time and that's it, that's all I'm asking." She pledged her case.
"Cartwright! Leave the boy alone and get to the register to ring up orders with Carla." My bosses voice boomed through the air as he comes walking in. Thank god for Connor and always know when to save me when it comes to being hit on at work. He was in his mid-fifties, blonde hair but a bald spot on the center of his head, a bear belly but a fast walker.
Delly eyes widen nodded her head tying her blonde hair up and walking from the locker area to the front of the shop.
"Thank you Connor." I said being relieved.
"Anytime Mellark, here are things that need to be done and I trust your work." My boss hands me a paper list. "We need four dozen cookies design in any theme you want; flowers, snowman or anything for Christmas holiday, animals, hearts, whatever; your call. Five dozen cheese buns, cookies with chocolate chip, sugar, ginger bread, and M&M's. You have Steven, Stefan, Melissa, and Ellie to help with baking also and don't forget to sample those cheese buns." Connor said as he goes walks towards the front of the bakery.
'At least baking makes me peaceful and I will find a way to get Katniss back from that bastard Gale.' I made a promise in my mind as I walked downstairs where all the baking takes place at.
Katniss's P.O.V.
Flashback
I looked around with my surroundings as we first landed in Chicago, Illinois for training base before we're shipped to Afghanistan. We're in a campus base just a few miles from the big windy city and it was big enough to fit the whole city in. Then my gray eyes spotted someone that was familiar to me and started walking towards that direction.
"Catnip?" I heard my nickname and the only person would call me that is.
"Gale? Where are you?" I yelled running through the crowed and hearing my name being called out again. Then I stopped seeing Gale dropping his bag on the ground as he walks over to me and we both hugged each other.
"Katniss, What are you doing here joining the army?" My best friend asked pulled away from me.
"Peeta and I decided to join the army, it gives us something to do since we don't want to go to college or work at a minim wage job." I told the truth.
"Wait, you're with Peeta? Are you guys still dating or something?" Gale asked folded his arms in front of him.
"We're actually married, we got married right after graduation." I showed him my engagement and wedding band.
"Thanks for the invite Kat." He said being sarcastic.
I rolled my eyes and sighted.
"Well, you never liked him to begin with and shouldn't you be in college with a girlfriend right now?" I asked being sarcastic back.
"And should you do the same thing but should have dated, no married your best friend, which it should have been ME?" He raised his voice towards me.
I folded my arms in front of him.
"If you could have said something a long time ago instead of leading me on then this wouldn't happen, wouldn't it?" I asked him being series.
Flashback Ends
"Katniss, Katniss, are you okay?" A nine year old girl asked me gently shaking my shoulder.
I blinked being lost in a memory that felt so familiar and looking down to see my star student Rue, her brown eyes look at me with concern.
"Yeah, yeah. I'm okay just a memory flash back that's all." I told the truth with a small smile and looking down seeing a bow and arrow set in my hands then looking up at my archery class. I cleared my throat and smiled again. "Sorry about blanking out and let's get back to our lesson, shall we?" I see my students nodding their heads and waiting for my command. I walked over in the middle of the room and kept my eyes focus on my target; the bulls eye. "Raise up your bow in front of you with your left hand and keep your left arm straight, draw back your arrow on the string coming back with right hand, feel your right hand holding onto that arrow at your right eye level. Focus on your target. Aim your arrow at the target and let go." I replied letting the arrow fly through my fingers and turned around seeing half of my students aiming at the targets perfectly and some are slowly getting to it.
"Hey Kat, you got everything here?" Glimmer's voice asked as she walked towards my direction.
I nodded my head and smiled.
"Yeah Glim, everything's fine. I just spaced out for a second and giving our students instructions while demonstrating. Go easy on some of the students that need help and encourage them, don't make them give up and Rue's helping out as an instructor's aide." I confessed to the truth.
Glimmer tilted her head meaning 'speak in private.
"Rue, help out for a couple of minutes please." I instructed Rue knowing she followed my orders.
I walked over to the corner of the room where Glimmer wanted to talk and what she meant by that is something personal.
"Katniss, I heard about what happened a Central Park. Gale told me what happened and said Peeta Mellark has been filling you with lies and-"I decided to cut her off.
"I'm not sure what to believe anymore Glimmer. It took me two years in rehab to walk again and not to mention to accept my burn marks. I had everything going, it was perfect and I felt when he called out my name and claiming I'm his wife; he ruined everything. Now because he's back I'm having flashback memories like if I knew in before or a passed life' it just felt so real and just remembering it gives me a headache." I told my co-work and friend as I started to feel uncomfortable folding my arms in front of my chest.
"You've been having headaches because he showed up? I'm worried about you and you really should consider going to see a doctor. You know everything you tell me, I don't tell him, girl code. Cross my heart. If you need to take a few days off I completely understand." She said being concern than placed a hand on my shoulder.
I shake my head.
"No. I don't need a day off, I'll take a day off if I completely blacked out or in a coma. I just need to do this to get him out of my mind and just focus on now which is teaching archery with you and our students including being Gale's wife." I sighted as I placed my hands through my hair and backed at my side. "I'm going to Connor's Bakery Corner to get something for our students and us also, I'll be back." I turned around going to the office getting my purse from my desk and putting the strap on my shoulders then I make my way towards the door leaving.
"BRING BACK CHOCOLATE CHIP OR SNIKERDOODLE OR BOTH!" I hear Glimmer yelling at me.
I laughed at her comment and making my way to the Bakery and knowing its only two blocks away. I kept my eyes around my surrounds as I cross the street with a crowd of people and decide to have my paced kicked up a small notch to light power walk then turning the street. 'I wonder what happened to my mother and my sister. Why haven't they contact me yet.' I thought to myself wanting to know more and the next thing I knew I looked through the window shop and reading 'Connor's Bakery Conner' all in red and knowing that I reached my destination. I open the door walking inside.
"Hello, welcome to Connor's Bakery Conner. Can I get you something?" I heard a young woman's voice and seeing a raven haired Italian asked me.
"Yeah, let me just look around." I walked over to the display case if I can find those cookies and then smelling cheese in the air and followed the scent to the counter top that's two feet away. I walked up seeing the sign "Cheese Bun samples, take some." I grabbed the tiny plastic cup with a small piece of cheese bun and ate it. It's delicious, melting in my mouth, and the taste of it sends me back like if I had this before.
"Excuse me, Miss?" I asked not knowing her name.
"Yes, ma'am?" She answered my question and walking over to the counter where I was standing in front of the glass.
"Can I have four Cheese buns and a dozen cookies; half chocolate chip and have sinker doodle, please?" I said being polite saying my order.
"Yes ma'am. Not a problem, one of our bakers just got done baking the Cheese Buns and let just go tell the people down stairs to pack them for you. Then I'll get your cookies packed up, they just came out of the oven ten minutes ago. Excuse me for a minute." She said being professional walking towards the back and opening the door to the basement. "HEY, CAN ONE OF YOUR GUYS PACK UP FOUR CHEESE BUNS FOR A COSTUMER AND ABOUT TO RING THEM UP!" "YOU GOT IT CARLA!" "THANK YOU!" Carla yelled giving them a heads up and walking over getting a box open then putting on some gloves going over to the display case getting my order in.
I laughed at this Carla's humor then clearing my throat.
"I didn't mean to yell at them being rude, sometimes they have their thing going on and it's like they're in their own world." She broke the ice.
"No, no. I get it. I use to do the same thing too when I was in army." The word's just felt natural coming out.
"You were in the army? God bless you and thank you for fighting for our country. When did you retire if I can ask that?" Carla asked finishing up packing my dozen and walking over the register.
"To be honest, I can't remember. All I remember was coming back to base with my squad and everything went black. It's a blur to me." I said remembering something important to me as I looked at her.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to bring back anything bad." She ringed up my order.
"It's okay and it comes with a price. I'm Katniss by the way and nice to meet you Carla, heard your name from your co-workers yelling it." I told the truth shaking my head a little and getting out my wallet.
"Again, I'm sorry. Nice to meet you Katniss and your total is…. Sixteen dollars and seventy-five cents. Hold on let me call them again." Carla nodded her head excusing herself and going back room with the door open. "HEY, I'M RINGING UP EVERYTHING GET THOSE BUNS UP HERE BEFORE THIS CUSTOMER LEAVES!" "HOLD ON PRINCESS!" "YEAH, BREAD BOY'S COMING UP NOW!" "THANK YOU FOR THE SECOND TIME." The Italian yelled again to her co-workers coming back to the register. "Again, sorry you had to hear my yelling and how would you paying that with, cash or card?" She asked with a smile.
'Bread boy? That nickname sounds so familiar. Who is it?' As the name ringed a bell to my mind.
"Card. Debit." I pulled out my debit card and handing it over to Carla.
My ears perked up hearing a door open and seeing the one of the bakers coming from downstairs and coming to the register.
"Here's the cheese buns." A voice said placing the packet on the counter and hearing Carla putting them into a plastic bag. "Katniss, you're here?" He asked as his voice sounded like he just breathed for the first time.
Carla gave me back my debit card placing it back into my wallet then to my purse. I signed the receipt and looked up hearing someone calling my name. I looked up to a pair of blue eyes and seeing its Peeta, again.
"Hello sir, I'm just here getting a few things for my class. Thank you Carla for everything have a great day and you too sir." I said grabbing my bag putting it around my wrist and leaving the store.
"KATNISS, KATNISS WAIT!" I hear Peeta yelling through the door and opening it to come after me.
Peeta's P.O.V.
I pulled out the cheese buns from the oven and placing them on the metal table for them to cool off.
"You have a talent Mellark for art, did you paint or draw before?" My co-worker Ellie asked me as she was putting designs on a Christmas cake.
"I did but suddenly lost an interest." I spoke the truth and grabbed a small box. I pulled out a knife placing it underneath the buns and putting them into the box.
I hear the door opening and it's Carla, again.
"HEY, I'M RINGING UP EVERYTHING GET THOSE BUNS UP HERE BEFORE THIS CUSTOMER LEAVES!" She yelled for the second time.
"HOLD ON PRINCESS!" Stefan yelled back at her.
"YEAH, BREAD BOY'S COMING UP NOW!" Melissa yelled rolling her eyes.
"THANK YOU FOR THE SECOND TIME." Steven yelled as he airbrushed his cupcakes.
I started walking up the stairs opening the door and walking towards the register.
"Here's the cheese buns." I said placing the packet on the counter and hearing Carla putting them into a plastic bag. I looked up and seeing my wife, again. "Katniss, you're here?" I asked finally felt relived.
"Hello sir, I'm just here getting a few things for my class. Thank you Carla for everything have a great day and you too sir." She replied being polite putting the bag holder ol her wrist and pretending not knowing who I am. Then she leaves the shop.
"KATNISS, KATNISS WAIT!" I yelled as she left and followed her.
"PEETA, PEETA! GET BACK HERE!" I hear Carla's yelling ordering me to come back but I ignore the yelling and I'll explain to Connor when I get back.
"KATNISS EVERDEEN COME BACK!" I yelled seeing her standing her place and putting a hand on her forehead. I raced over to her with people staring at me. "Mind your business." I rudely told people and placed a hand on her shoulder. "Katniss, are you okay?" I asked being concern about her.
She breathed out and placed her hand back on her purse strap.
"What do you want from me? Ever since you met me seven days ago, I have terrible headaches that makes me have flashbacks including remembering things that never happened to me." Katniss told the truth with small tears in her eyes.
"I just want you to talk to me, that's all. You have short term memory and if anything you see, hear, or taste can trigger a memory you had before. If you're getting terrible headaches then I'm taking you to the hospital." I told the truth and seeing her wiping her tears away. "You ARE my wife sweetheart, Gale is tricking you and the way he's treating you right now isn't right. I would NEVER trick or play with your memories." I said being serious.
"Sweetheart, SWEETHEART! The only person I knew that called me sweetheart was Haymitch. I'm not your sweetheart and I'm NOT your wife. I don't know who you are and yet I have memories of you like I met you in the past or another life. You need to stay away from me, your confuse me, my memory, and Gale would never do that to me. If you don't stay away then Gale will come after you; I mean it." She replied becoming upset and threaten Gale to come after me.
"I'm not afraid of the bastard, let him come after me. I'll take his ass in court for what he's doing to you." I spoke as venom came into my mouth and breathed out calming down for Katniss's sake. "Katniss, I swear on my mother's life, I'm telling the truth to you right now and I would never lie to you. If you really want to know who you are, go to find out from Gale and if he doesn't give you the answers you deserve then come to me. Remember the piece of paper I gave you?" I asked her as she nodded her head. "Come to my house and I'll give you every paper work, yearbook, you name it. I show you everything. I promise." I poured my heart out and prayed that she would come over.
Katniss nodded her head.
"Okay, okay fine. I'll go so that I won't have any night terrors again." She sighted then look down at her cellphone on the time. "Shit, I'm running late. I gotta go!" My wife started to run away from me. "IN TWO DAYS, ELEVEN IN THE MORNING!" She yelled out turning the block.
"ELVEN IT IS!" I yelled out with a smile on my lips.
I felt my phone ringing in my pocket and getting out my phone seeing Haymitch calling. I quickly answered it.
"Haymitch, what did you get on Hawthorne? Tell me everything and don't hold out anything. I'm pissed that Gale's tricking her memory, what else could he have done?" I said being serious and heard him talking. My jaw drops in shock and grabbing my phone a little tighter. "That son of a bitch, that bastard!" I felt anger filling my soul again
Sorry for the wait and hope it was worth it for this chapter. Can anyone picture this being in a lifetime movie or something? Thinking about making it into a fiction. I don't live in New York but can imagine for people who live in NY to work in Philadelphia, New Jersey, and Connecticut. Please review and had to get this story out there even though I should be studying for finals. Couldn't help it. HAHA!
