Yes, I know how mean that was but don't worry! Just read this chapter and put down your weapons... Please? PS guys, JJ isn't in the BAU but she does work with Hotch an d the whole team will be making appearances soon.
Emily's PoV
"Please I just need to talk to her!" My voice broke with desperation as I clung to the icy metal side rail of the hospital bed. I had woken up mere seconds before to the evenly measured beep beep of a heart monitor.
Something was amiss. I couldn't place it but something in the unwelcoming essence of the pressed sheets and spinney metal cots was wrong.
"Honey, you need to calm down. What's your name?" The beeping started to speed up and was now verging on erratic.
The ringing in my ears drowned out the incessant screaming of the monitor when I realized what was wrong.
My quivering fingers ghosted over the rough gauze that blanketed the spot where my right eye had been.
My mouth formed into a horror struck 'O', the right side of my face burned with the intensity of the seventh circle of Hell when my eyes- eye?- widened involuntarily.
Tears burned a path down my left cheek and hung on my jaw, just waiting to fall to the cracked linoleum floor with a splat.
I heard a faint voice somewhere in the depths of my head telling me something about a blonde woman. Did I know her? Who were they talking about? My mind raced around in a maze but I kept on hitting dead ends.
Then I remembered the woman who had plagued my thought not fleeting moments ago. "JJ." My voice sounded disjointed from my body. It sounded cold and uncaring like the room I was in yet the woman I spoke of was anything but uncaring.
The nurses kept on walking around suddenly busy with their tasks like bees in a colony. "Her name is JJ!" I spoke louder now trying to get them to notice the small, scared girl in the corner of their hive.
A doctor came in then. He seemed to hover above the floor as he strode over to my bed with an absolutely murderous look on his face.
"It's your fault." He sneered at me. The way his dark eyes bore into mine made me feel two feet tall. They seemed to peel apart my mind and pillage my soul and reap any light from them like a miner to diamonds.
"I didn't mean to I-"
His large hand came across my throat tightening, digging into my soft flesh and taring into my head.
-CM-
Beep, beep, beep. I forced my eyes open to face-what I expected to be- an evil doctor trying to kill me. I found no such thing.
The heavy cotton blankets were twisted around my throat. A small warm hand wrenched them from there with a delicacy I didn't know one could possess.
The tension seeped out of my body like a sponge releasing water when I saw the angelic form that was Jennifer Jareau.
A white bandage was wrapped around her petite head. It scrunched up her usually perfectly placed hair that was still stained copper. Her leg adorned a bulky white cast that had the finesse of a two year old. She was Jennifer Jareau and she was alive.
I brought my ragged fingers up to my right eye. Thick gauze covered it like snow on a mountain top. The dark smoke wall I had seen during the crash was not that at all. I, quite simply, hadn't been able to see. I whimpered quietly as JJ set her hand on it and my heart raced to my blanket swathed toes.
She voice was like an alluring melody to my ears when she spoke even though it was gravelly and wan. "It's just some glass Emily. Don't worry, the doctors got it out during surgery and the gauze it just there to help it heal. You still have two perfectly functioning eyes."
I swallowed with relief when a whole new kind of guilt hit me. It crashed into my being at one hundred kilometres an hour and I couldn't do a damn thing to stop it.
"I'm sorry." My voice wasn't even a whisper in the wind as JJ got up and moved her lithe form to the counter top by the industrial sink.
I cleared my throat trying to get her attention but I just ended up choking on my smoke blackened saliva. She didn't notice.
The cartoon characters painted on the wall of the pediatrics room I was in seemed to be laughing at my futile attempts to talk to JJ.
She walked back over to my seat with a cup of steaming coffee and some other intriguing object in her hand. "Don't be sorry Emily. None of this is your fault." She had heard my pathetic little voice choking out an apology. But why didn't she see that it was my fault?
She opened her sweaty palm to reveal a small golden heart pendant on a thin chain. "It was my sister's." My swallowed hard and bit her thin pink lip. "You should never be sorry for things you can't control. I learned that a little too late."
My thoughts were churning as I tried to decipher the meaning of her veiled words.
-CM-
The taxi had just dropped us on the side walk in front of JJ's apartment when a thought struck me and not a very nice one. "Why didn't my foster parents come to the hospital to come get me?"
JJ smiled at the confusion in my tone. "As soon as I woke up I sighed the papers. Your my daughter now." She blushed then, a pale pink colour. "If you want to be I mean."
For the first time in eight months I felt joy bubbling up in my chest. My whole body felt lighter and a look of devilish disbelief crossed my bruised face. "I would love that." A hysterical laugh bubbled up in my raw throat and an unprecedented happiness consumed me.
As JJ and a very giddy me trotted over to the old elevator that creaked too much a little voice inside my head spoke up.
Anyone who had ever dared to love me always got burned. So what, I wondered was going to happen to JJ?
Another voice started to talk to me then. One that I thought had been squished when that needle punctured my skin five months ago. That voice wondered why was I always left out when everyone else seemed to have a share, why couldn't I be happy?
What I believed-at the time- to be a correct answer sprung to my mind; there was no reason I couldn't enjoy my life and there was no reason for it to disclude JJ.
Hmmm I'm not sure if I like the ending to that but I've rewritten it four times now and it's staying like that. Keep your eyes peeled for the next chapter and please drop me a review and let me know what you think! -Rose.
