I was standing in the same meadow, the red liquid still running down my arm, dying the snow. I looked up. Everything was blue...though different shades. I looked around. Nobody was with me. There was a stabbing pain in my neck. I touched it. I looked at my hand, more blood. I looked up towards the trees. Edward was coming towards me. I tried to stop the bleeding. He smiled and his teeth were shown. Why won't the bleeding stop?

I opened my eyes screaming. "Bella?" Edward's cold hand was on my back, I flinched away from his touch. Just like before I touched my neck. There was nothing there. I looked at my hands...nothing. "Whats wrong?" I had just dreamed about almost being eaten by my fiancee. "Nothing. Just a bad dream. Did you find anything out?" I asked. He shook his head. "I searched the internet all night. Nothing. By the way your computer is really slow. " I shook his last comment out of my head. Thats not even important right now.

I walked to my computer and randomly turned on music. Lose Yourself by Eminem was the song that came on. I sang with the words and began methodically cleaning. This room is a complete disaster. "You listen to Eminem?" Edward was sitting on bed looking through random books that I had left on my nightstand. Wuthering Heights being one of them. "Yeah." was my intelligant answer. I got sikc of that song real quick and turned it to The Crimson. I knew everyword. Thats probably not good, but while Edward was gone I had alot of free time. If that makes any sense.

Edward remained quiet while I looked through a bunch of cd's throwing them away every three. Edward didn't comment on my music choice and for that I was thankful. I think he could tell that I was deep in thought.

I got through all of my cd's ending up with about five and I stashed them in one of my drawers. "What do you want to do today?" Edward asked me. I think he was just trying to keep from changin the song. " I don't know. I was thinking of going to Seattle to look for that book, but if my mom is telling the truth that book will find us." , "You've thought about this alot haven't you?" I began looking through the clothes on the floor and throwing most of them in the hamper. "Yeah, I guess." I wasn't really coherent enough to go on with the subject.

He let me be for a couple minutes until he started laughing. I turned around annoyed that he was interupting my train of thought with his giggling. Yes Edward was giggling. "What are you laughing about?" he showed me a blue notebook with the words 'My Chemical Romance' scribbled all over it. Thats my...diary.

When I was thirteen I started keeping a diary and I stopped when I moved to Forks, I just didn't have the time to record my life in a notebook. I went to grab it from him but of course he moved it before I could get in inches from it. "So who is Jason?" he asked. Then I stopped. I got angry. Jason and I were never on good terms. How far has he read? "Just give it to me Edward!" I whined. He shook his head and started reading again. "Everyday he did the same thing. It seemed never ending now. A vicious chain of events that never ceased to amaze me. But today was different. When I walked into the school he didn't come up to me. I looked around and saw him talking to Ethan. Great, now he'll know about the-" I took the book from his hands and ripped all of the pages out after that one. He doesn't need to know about that. Not only is it embarassing it is illegal and well I think Edward would kill me.

"Is it that bad?" he asked. "You don't want to know. Actually I bet you do, but I am not telling you reguardless." he frowned and I smiled. "So are you going to stop looking through my stuff now so I can finish this?" he nodded and I resumed.

The next thing I went to clean was my computer desk. Pieces of stray paper lay everywhere. They were all drawn on or ripped. None of them had any useful information on them so I crumpled them into a tiny ball and threw them in the trash.

I turned around from my computer desks and looked at Edward. His eyes were closed and he looked peaceful. He looked like he was...sleeping? "Sweet dreams." I said and he smile. "I'm trying to sleep over here." he said and I instantly apoligized. "Sorry, I'll be quiet now." he chuckled and kept 'sleeping'. I wonder why vampires can't sleep...

The song Fully Alive came on and I turned it up. Edward hadn't moved since my last words and he actually looked like he was sleeping. Though I don't think that anyone could stay that still in sleep. Not even a dead person. I walked to him and inspected him. He wasn't even breathing. "Having fun?" he asked and opened his eyes. "Yes I am...How was your, 'nap'?" , "Wonderful, though I didn't dream, weird right?" he asked. Does he even know what dreaming is? I doubt it. "Yes very strange. We will have to get you to a doctor. " I said and he laughed.

"So are you done cleaning?" I turned to my room and grimaced. There were still piled of clothes everywhere, even thought I thought that I had picked some up, and bowls and cups were scattered everywhere. I am not even going to look under the bed. "No, not even close. So go back to sleep. " I ordered and he laughed and pulled me down on the bed with him. "Not unless you sleep with me." he said and my eyes went wide. "Oh, you know what I'm talking about don't let your mind wander." he said and I smiled. "This room will never get donw unless I do it and that requires me using my arms which is impossible unless you let me go." I said and his face got stern. "but your my prisoner I can't let you go. That defeats the purpose entirely." he stated and kissed me. this kiss was shirt and simple the same as always. Sometimes I wish I could kiss my boyfriend that any other girl could theirs. But then again soon I will be able to. Then he pulled away from me and sighed. "Okay I can let you go now." he said and let go of my arms.

I got up and strecthed. My bones creaked and then I yawned. Okay now to get to this thing I call a room. I quickly picked up every piece of clothing without looking to see if it was clean or dirty and stacked up all of the dished to take downstairs later, thought I doubt that they will get there.

"Okay I'm ready to go places. " he shook his head. "Are you going to be going places in your pajamas?" He asked and I blushed. He was so excpecting that. "Maybe." I said and he smiled. I went to my closet and got out jeans a dark blue hoodie with words on it that were too faded to read. I began to get dressed and then Edward coughed. I turned around and blushed again. "Wouldn't you like me to leave while you get dressed?" he asked. "Edward we are getting married in less then a month and you can't see me get dressed? How is it going to be on our honeymoon then?" I asked and he smiled ."Well I don't want to make you uncomfortable." he explained and I rolled my eyes. "It'f fine." I said and began getting dressed.