Bella's POV
I wake up early, it's hard to break the early morning schedule, and detangle myself from Sam's arms. Yeah not weird at all I think. I'm making breakfast when I see Jake walk up to the door, I open it before he can knock and wake Sam up.
"Why are you here so early?" I ask him as walks in.
"I want to know what last night was about; I know it wasn't Sam touching you. Sam always touches you and it has never bothered you and Leah doesn't lie, ever. So whatever this is it's big. And since you're not telling Sam it's huge. But come on, he's your best friend and you're acting really weird. So just tell me. Oh you like him don't you?" I roll my eyes at him.
"Just because you and Leah didn't know you loved each other when everyone else in the world did doesn't mean I love Sam you idiot. Look, I know you don't like me keeping secrets and Sam doesn't either but this is just better kept to me and Leah." I tell him. I have way too many over-protective men in my life.
"So what's the plan for today?" He asks thankfully changing the subject.
"I thought the plan for the whole week is the beach. Sam took off the whole week and Leah said you both took off a couple of days each right?" He says yep. "And I have to see dad and Alison and Sue and your dad so that's about it." I tell him.
"Let's have a party at my house one night, then we can invite everyone and you can see them all in one night." He suggests and I tell him that sounds awesome! Less personal time, less time to ask annoying questions. Like how is your love life? When are you going to make me grandbabies? When are you going to marry Sam? OK so she's never actually asked but I can see it in her eyes.
The answer would be sucky, probably never unless you count Wendy and not going to happen. I'm sure she would stop asking if I told her I've had sex with Sam's father. And at that thought I burst into tears.
"Damn Bella I get you just dumped this guy but you knew him for a week." Jake looks at me like I'm crazy.
"I could have loved him Jake." It's hard to explain but it's all I have.
"So then why?" He asks confused.
"He wasn't someone I needed to love." He gets annoyed with my vagueness and eats breakfast in silence. Sam wakes up and Jake leaves to go to work.
"So about last night, it wasn't you at all. Leah lies." I tell him.
"Except she doesn't because she sucks at it, I knew she was lying so what's really going on?" He asked and unlike Jake just being annoyed that he doesn't know Sam is actually concerned.
"It was just too much too fast. And well, he's a lot older and I don't think my dad would approve and um…"
"I get it Bella; just know that when you're ready to tell me what happened I'm here. Go get ready, I'll clean up." He kisses me on the forehead and pushes me towards my room.
I change into my swimsuit and put shorts on over it, then pack some towels and sunblock and an extra set of clothes. Then I walk back into the kitchen to pack some lunch and snacks.
Sam gets ready and we go to the beach. I miss the beach even if I am here almost every weekend. The four of us used to spend almost day here, even when the water was too cold we would just hang out on the beach.
Sam and I spend the whole day swimming and lying in the sun, I take a nap curled up next to him and think how much I miss them, miss him, miss home.
"I think I'm going to try to find a job closer to home." I tell him after I fully wake up and he smiles and says he'll let me know if he hears about anything.
And that's pretty much how the week goes, beach all day, movies at night.
Friday night Jake throws my party and my dad and Sue and Alison are all there asking the required embarrassing questions. It's been one week since I found out about Josh and I feel like I might be OK.
Saturday comes and I dread leaving tomorrow. I dread going back to my too small apartment and only having Wendy there. I dread going back to my job and constantly running the kids from activity to activity. But most of all I dread seeing Josh every week at Kyle's karate practice.
I have Jake and Leah half convinced I'm fine, Sam knows I'm not but he doesn't say anything.
Sunday comes and Sam and I spend the morning at the beach then after lunch I head home.
After unpacking and setting up Wendy's things I turn on TV and watch reruns of Criminal Minds while I go over the schedule for the week.
After two Criminal Minds I get freaked out and call Sam. He laughs and threatens to break my TV.
We talk until I'm ready to fall asleep.
I miss home already.
