Swallowing thickly, Inugami nodded his head. "Y…Yeah," he crocked out, watching as Tamazuki sat down on a cot.
Taking in a deep breath, a brief silenced fell upon the room and it made Inugami feel, well, even more nervous about what he was about to be told. Seriously, with how odd Tamazuki's been, it must be something bad…
"I killed you."
Brown eyes widened and Inugami's head had snapped up to meet golden eyes. "Wh— aaha— y-you…you're kidding, right?" He forced a small laugh after, praying that was a joke. Tamazuki wouldn't do that…! He wouldn't! He…He…Would he? He couldn't remember anything prior to the…
"I'm not. I killed you. Along with the other executives. Well, minus Yosuzume…but she isn't important right now. She was a shikigami originally, apparently…"
Inugami hadn't even noticed it, but Tamazuki did— Inugami was shaking lightly, his eyes widened as if he were a deer in the headlights. Tamazuki's face was still at a deadpan, though; like he didn't just state that he killed the man before him and many others.
It was a joke.
It had to be a joke- only Tamazuki would joke like that so freely! Right? …Right? He didn't want to accept the memories that were coming back to him in such a quick state. He shut his eyes and shook his head, whimpering.
No. Not now. Not ever. He didn't want to remember any of that, he didn't want it to be true. But it was. It was all true.
"It…Doesn't matter, I know, but I do regret it. I'm…" sighing a bit, Tamazuki swallowed before uttering, "I'm sorry" then repeated it louder.
"S…Sorry?" Inugami repeated, "sorry? You…You killed me…! A-and…" his voice wavered and cracked, before going silent. Repeating it wouldn't make it not true.
Inugami felt too many emotions right now. Shock, hurt, anger, and…Forgivness. The last one was weird, even for Inugami.
He was angry that after being so loyal to this man, he killed him without even so much of a second thought; he was hurt because of the same reason. Yet, why did he want to forgive him? He shouldn't. He really shouldn't. Though, something inside of him kept telling him, "You said you'd follow him until the end, right? It's not the end. You're with him, aren't you? That's proof of that it isn't the end."
Inugami wanted to bolt, to gather his feelings and stick to one god damned emotion.
He couldn't.
The brown haired youkai tensed a bit more (if even possible), and slowly shut his eyes tightly at the feeling of Tamazuki's hand cupping his cheek, and…His thumb caressing the side of his head. He never even noticed the other had stood up.
Neither said anything.
Was this suppose to be some form of comforting? Inugami really hated how well it was working. Fuck, he really was a dog wasn't he?
"I really am sorry. I…Wasn't quite thinking right throughout the whole ordeal. Afterall, if…I do say so myself, I…" he hesitated briefly before mumbling, "I missed you the most, you know…After all that."
Inugami leaned into Tamazuki's touch without meaning to and took a shaky breath in and opened his eyes slowly, but still didn't look at him. "Is that so?" Inugami asked quietly, listening as Tamazuki hummed in confirmation.
"Yeah. I did."
Fuck it. No matter how much he wanted to be angry with him, he couldn't bring himself to.
Something told him the words Tamazuki spoke were sincere. He'd believe him and…It wasn't the end. He would still continue to follow him, regardless of any other stupid things he might pull in the future.
"Then…I forgive you."
AN:
Whoops. I left this off at a cliffhanger last time and didn't update for...Forever. I'll try to update more frequently now that I'm sort of into NuraMago more.
Urk. Every chapter I look back on with this is so cringy, what the hell—
