Day 4

I went and did it. I left the RUINS for good, to fufill my own destiny.

I felt disgusting leaving Toriel alone, to be honest… She warned me to go back to Home, where we could be happy and live in peace. She told me that every human that fell down here was brutally murdered, that they were slaughtered like chicken by Asgore, the King of all Monsters… I wonder what she'd think if she knew that I killed Asgore in one hit, by my own bloodstained hand...

But I refused to turn back. I followed her persistently. So she turned around and said to me... "Prove to me. Prove to me you are strong enough to survive!"

I knew she would fight me before allowing me to leave, I'd been through it before. It still felt horrible fighting her again, though. I tried talking it out… but I couldn't think of any conversation topics that we were mutually interested in. She wouldn't want to listen anyway; we were furiously battling, and Toriel was ruthlessly harnessing her fire and throwing it in my general direction.

So I spared her, persevering. I definitely refused to fight.

The hellfire blew around me, with the atmosphere tense. I weaved and ran through the fire, amazed at how strong she was. But I was DETERMINED to make it through without causing any bloodshed. Toriel, my very own goatmom, wanted to kill me, didn't she? Most would die to an attack like this one. "Kill her." I thought through the depths of my mind. "She's a threat, you do realise that? It's only self-defence to slash her into pieces. She wants to kill you. So return the favour. ATTACK, Frisk." But I couldn't do it, I couldn't kill a monster. Not after what happened last time. I didn't want to kill anyone if I had to; actually, I didn't want to have to kill anyone full stop.

Toriel told me to fight or run away, clearly frustrated that I was defying what she prepared for. I did neither, choosing to spare her like my life depended on it. She couldn't attack me. The attacks went to my left and right alike. But she couldn't bring herself to kill me, to finish me off. And with my limbs hanging on a thread, with bruises all over my body, with cuts spreading like viruses… I stayed determined.

"I know you want to go home, but please, go upstairs now." she begged me, not wanting to let go. But if I did that, I couldn't redeem myself to the monsters I slaughtered in the last timeline. She told me that she'd take good care of me here, she asked me why I was making this so difficult.

Part of me wondered if I should tell her why I was doing this, why I was fighting to leave the RUINS and move away from the peaceful home I could stay in. But there was no reason to. I could escape, and they'd never need to know, right?

Finally, she gave in to my determination . "No, I understand. You would just be unhappy trapped down here. The RUINS are very small once you get used to them. It wouldn't be right for you to grow up in a place like this. My expectations… My loneliness… My fear… For you, my child, I will put them aside. If you truly wish to leave the RUINS, I will not stop you. However, when you leave… please do not come back. I hope you understand."

I went forward and gave her a hug… Toriel loved me. For the first time in my life, someone actually loved me, a chaotic murderer. And I was leaving her behind, all alone in her lonely house in an abandoned old town… I had to do it, but a hug was the least I can do for her!

So I walked through a long corridor, which featured an empty patch of grass much like the one Flowey featured on near the start, and went through the pillar, heading towards a new world and new adventures in the Underground.

Snowdin Town was my next destination. And with Snowdin, comes Sans the all-powerful, laser-summoning, reset-remembering monster, who happens to be the scariest being I've ever met.

And Papyrus, his brother, who he would die for.

Who he has died for.