Before I had even realized what had happened Edward was already crouching on the floor. His thoughts were angry but not with me, of course he would not blame our collision on me. Well done Edward, you nearly throw her half way across school. I then realized what I had to do. First off I had to snap of this trance I was in I knew Edward did not like it when people stared at his beautiful plus I didn't like looking like one of those girls you so drooling over girls in an obvious way next I had to shield my mind so he didn't know anything. It was quicker than I expected I had to do it but I had to make sure I was doing it right I didn't want him to learn the truth that was not fair he would freak out even move away his family were technically exposed to at least me that's what happened when people started to get theories and suspicions the Cullen's moved away never to be scene again, next say sorry for walking into him and last make sure he couldn't smell me so much, I didn't want to put him in anymore pain then he probably was already in that was last thing I wanted to do. I knew my scent didn't bother him so much but he was still not as skilled as Carlisle and any pain was still unnecessary pain in my eyes.

Edward had always been proud to call Carlisle his father. He had the utmost pride and respect for Carlisle he really envied how he had come over the lust for blood and helped so many people while doing it. Edward didn't want to be a monster and he hated himself because he thought he was one, this made me so sad. Suddenly I was snapped back into the scene I was in.

"I am so sorry" I apologized shyly. I could tell I was blushing, I hoped the blood racing to my cheeks wouldn't make him un-comfortable.

"No, no don't be sorry. It was my fault" He continued before I could say anything. "I should have watched where I was going" He was helping me collect my books. I could hear his thoughts I tried to ignore them though otherwise I couldn't keep up with our conversation.

"I shouldn't have stopped" I smiled weakly. He still had me in a trance no matter how hard I tried to fight it but that's what vampires do mostly unconsciously Edward knew he had an effect on people but not that he… dazzled people let's call it . Edward stood up quickly; I was praying he didn't have enough time to let his manners kick in before I stood up. The last thing I wanted was to make my human touch make him un-comfortable. I was lucky I managed to stand up before he could lend me his hand.

"Sorry again" He said. "See you around" Edward dashed off. As he left I listened to his thoughts. I started to walk to science when he thought something that caught my attention. Well done Edward you new killed the new girl nicely done. I can kind of see the attraction she hold to most of the male humans in this school but she seems very ordinary to me. It didn't upset me that Edward didn't think I was attractive and he thought I was ordinary to be honest I was especially next to the Godlike statue he called his figure but still why did I want so much for him to find me attractive? I pushed this thought out of my head.

I got to science quite late, because of the delay with Edward. I walked in and walked straight to the front of class where Mr…..err… Buckley (I finally remembered it) was standing waiting for everyone to settle down. I didn't notice until after Sir had signed my slip and started scanning the room for a seat that the only chair in class that was free was the seat next to guess who?… Edward. I was secretly delighted but very nervous.

"Bella go sit next to Cullen" Mr. Buckley ordered me loudly. I blushed as everyone turned to face the source of the loud noise. I tripped over my own feet on the way too, Stupid, stupid, stupid I thought to myself.

Poor girl she shouldn't have to sit next to me, it's going to be a long year. No one dares to sit next to the Cullen's I bet she is just as scared as they all are I bet she thinks we are all freaks like the rest of these humans. Let's have a look. He said smugly, it sounded like he already he what he was going to hear, cocky in the tone. Well that's strange… I can't hear anything. Concentrate Edward! He commanded I suddenly remembered I wasn't shielding my thoughts does this mean Edward can't actually read my thoughts after all? I could hear in his thoughts he was a little worried and confused but most of all he was a little frustrated that actually made me smile smugly. I quickly stopped smiling I didn't want people to think I was insane. Not being able to read my mind was really annoying Edward because he could read everyone's thoughts was I the only one, oh well I am sure it's just a glitch and next time I see him he will be able to I tried to convince myself. Edward was focusing too hard concentrating exact place I was walking but he still heard nothing, I was very relieved.

As I went sit down a wave of pain crossed over me. It was Edward's thrist suddenly he had become so thirsty the intensity of the pain I felt nearly made me fall over and I knew for a fact that I did not feel the true pain the person was feeling I felt something muted. I knew this because I had been with my cousin when he had broken his harm and I felt quite a dull pain and I know breaking a bone is way more painful than that but what I felt now was horrible it was a stingy feeling and it hurt a lot. If this is how it felt for me how was Edward feeling?

What is this! Edward shouted in his head in confusion. No one's scent has ever smelt this good to me, that sweet lavender aroma it's smells so delicious. NO! Edward began to fight with himself. Focus! He told himself sternly. I tried to block out his thoughts it was hard but I had managed it before I don't think I could live with that burning pain that I felt for a whole lesson I was only human. The immense pain suddenly left me as I gave Edward some space it was replaced with a light sting that was constant at least it was better than the stabbing pain, I didn't want to spy on him when he was probably thinking some pretty bad stuff I started to feel very guilty I had no idea that I smelt that good to a vampire, or was it just him? Either way I was sorry for his sake. I sat down and took my necessary books out of my bag. Neither of us said anything to each other. I knew Edward was probably dealing with "inner monsters" and as much as I didn't want to think about it probably thinking of ways he could kill me. All I wanted to do was run out of the classroom get away from him not because I was scared for my life but because I was causing him harm. Edward had always been there for me throughout my life and the one time he needed me I couldn't do anything. Actually the most frustrating thing was that I could do something I could run out of the class room and flea but I would have to come back to school. I would have to sit next to Edward again in class so no that was nothing I could do right now.

While all of this had happened I had sat down and got my things out of my bag, as I sat down Edward tilted his body in the direction of the window, guilt washed over me pure guilt. I moved my all of my hair to my left shoulder away from him so he didn't get my scent, it was a small gesture but maybe it would help, how did I know? I didn't want to check his thoughts to find out. Edward suddenly gave me a side glance then looked down at the table again. Had he realized I moved my hair?... Na I told myself he probably thinks I am playing with my hair. He had his hands in tight fists under the table all lessons half way through the lesson I heard a quite snap and realized Edward had broken the table he was in that much pain, I felt terrible about putting him through this pain. What made it worse was that I knew that there was nothing I could do.

The lesson was very boring and neither of us talked. Suddenly the bell rang the noise startled me and I lost my concentration I slipped and I could hear Edward's thoughts. Run!!! I heard Edward think and he was gone. He walk a little to in humanly out of the class room, he must have been in so much pain. All I wanted to do was go up to him and apologize but that was not going to help at all. Suddenly I heard: I don't know if I can control myself. I need to get away far away. Edward. Just. Run!

Was he running from me or the thirst? Would there be anything I could do?

Either way I felt just as guilty.


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