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"A Thousand Pains" will be all written in Edward's POV unless said otherwise…
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Chapter 4: The Singer's Blood
I walked downstairs to meet my siblings to go to school the next morning. I tried to act in better spirits but it took a lot of energy. Jasper was the only one who really knew how hard it was for me to act nonchalant.
"You ready for school, Edward," Alice smiled brightly. It will get better, she thought to me. I, seriously, doubted it but gave her a small smile. I was trying wasn't I?
"We are all riding with you," Emmet hit me on the shoulder. I looked around at my brothers and sisters. They stood around looking innocent except Rosalie—she wore a sarcastic smile on her. They had all decided before I had come down that they would drive with me. I could hear their thoughts about me loving to drive in the forefront of their minds but the real reason would peak out. They did not want me to skip school or worse skip town. They had good reason to worry. I had done it a few centuries ago.
"Let's go." I sighed. We all piled into our car. Alice sat with me in the front while Jasper sat in the back with Rosalie and Emmet in the middle. My car was a ten times more faster than the Volvo I used to own when I had met Bella. A thousand years later, and not much had changed since then. Technology was faster. New ways of doing the same things appeared everyday. Technology had taken a leap but not much… everything was just better and quicker… more impersonal. People still kill, hate, cry, love, and smile. People just do it all faster.
I know that I'm not driving as fast as I usually do but I just didn't want to get there, but I did. All that we don't want usually happens. I parked the car and sat staring at Forks High School.
"Well, I have to get our schedules. I don't really want to wait until you grow some to get out." Rosalie left. Jasper sighed, got out, and followed Rosalie to school. He couldn't take more of my emotional misbalance.
"For Carlisle and Esme's sakes." Alice whispered next to me.
"Or I can just drag you in there," Mr. Muscles-Emmet grinned at me from my rear-view mirror.
I finally conceded by opening my door. Alice and Emmet got out of the car. I slowly followed out. For the first time in many centuries I realized that I was stepping in the one place where my life had changed so long ago. I looked around the place. Alice was right. It hadn't changed a lot since we had all graduated with Bella. The building still looked the same. It was upgraded years ago but the foundation was the same. Forks was such a small town that technology had not completely taken over it like a plague. I liked small towns because they weren't as connected with the technology-world as much as other big cities were. The parking lot was a bit bigger with gates surrounding it. People seemed to be walking fast to get into the building and for the first time I realized that it was sprinkling. I looked up at the dark clouds above.
Suddenly I heard Alice gasp on the other side of the car. I quickly glanced her way and saw what she saw. It was me. I had black eyes and… was attacking someone...!
"Wh--?" I began but never finished. At that very instant, a human passed right in front of me; the wind shifted blowing the human's scent my way. I completely lost it. My vision hazed and all I could see was red. I knew nothing but the thirst. It was blinding. The scent called out to me and nothing else mattered but to drink it. I attacked it. Suddenly, something was in front of me. It was between me and my prey!!
No! My mind screamed. Must drink! Must kill!! I will kill to have it! I tried to shove away the thing that stopped me from what was rightfully my prey!!
I, suddenly, couldn't breathe and vaguely wondered why. But I just kept looking at my prey and the human looked scared. I felt a thrill go through me… yes, my mind laughed, be very scared… I waited for it to run. I wanted it to run. I wanted to hunt it and kill it…
A disturbing noise broke through my haze and I realized that it was my name being called. Without the distraction of the human's scent I could vaguely think better.
"Edward! Please, think of our family! Edward, please!" I looked at the voice saying all of this and remembered her name. Alice.
Carlisle, I thought, the one who gave me a family. Carlisle. I blinked and felt guilt sweep through me as I realized what I had just done. I had been about to kill a human right in front of the school. I glanced down at said human. She seemed to be picking up books that had fallen everywhere. She looked apologetic and a little scared. Her apologetic expression completely threw me off.
"I- I'm sorry. I didn't mean to run into y- you." She stammered out. Why was she apologizing? I was the one who had attacked her! If it hadn't been for Emmet, I would have…
She was looking behind her when you… she wasn't paying attention to where she was going, Alice thought to me. Emmet stopped you before you could do anything else… She fell down when she ran into Emmet's back. She didn't see you, Edward.
I felt off center. She hadn't seen me. This girl hadn't seen me. I wasn't breathing. I couldn't. I knew that it would drive me insane again if I did. Just remembering the smell made hunger pool in my stomach. I had not felt anything close to this since the first time I had smelled Bella. I felt guilt rush through me at her name. I felt like I had just committed the worst crime in the world, as if, I had cheated on her. Why this human girl? Why now?
"Don't worry about it." Alice cheerfully told the girl. I did not stay to hear the rest. I had to leave. Now. I turned around, got in my car, and drove as fast I could, away from the human girl. The one who had made me betray Bella's memory.
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