Hello fellow readers! I'm sorry this is going to be long chapter and it was not updated on the time I wanted it to be. On June 14th, 2018 my great-grandmother passed away at home at the age of 92. A lot of the things are happening so fast for me and I'm struggling to steady myself. So please be patient with me, this has now happened it wasn't a surprise but I wasn't really ready for it. Thank you for your time and your reviews they help me better my writing. Also I'll be editing the story once it is finished, i have someone who is amazing at editing.

Fear makes us feel our humanity - Benjamin Disraeli

Regulus Black age 18, The Cave, Great Britain, 1979

The sounds of water crashing together as Regulus Artcurus Black and his family house elf, Kreacher went farther into the cave. The air was musty and wet also cold even with the heavy robes Regulus was wearing he could feel it. He could feel death behind him. His heart and mind knew what he was about to do he will not see the light of day. This was Regulus last day on this earth. It scared him so mush that his hands were trembling but he had a mission and he was going to see it through. This was the day he would betray Voldemort, Regulus had considered leaving earlier on but nothing drove him to it until now. That man took everything from him, branded him like cattle. His family had forced this upon him made him a slave to a man he did not believe in. Everyone was so blinded by him that they didn't even know Voldemort himself was a half blood. Not only would he free himself today even if it means ending his own life but it also meant that maybe one day with this final act of bravery that had been pushed down for years will help the next generation to fight back and rise above.

Regulus felt a tug on his robe as he stopped at the age of what it seem to be a lake to him. He looked down to see Kreacher pointing to the opposite side of the lake. Regulus turned his head to the other side of the lake and saw a basin that was standing on rocks. He noticed at the bank of the river on the other side there was a boat and it was most likely the only way to get a across. Regulus lift his wand and aimed at the boat. "Accio boat!" The boat came to them as it got closer his heart started to race. There was no turning back Regulus reminded himself as kreacher and him got into the wooden boat. "Locomotor." The boat moved forward as they got closer to the other side Kreacher gasps in horror.

Master Regulus, the water!" Kreacher pointed into the water, Regulus leaned over on the other side to take a look. There were dozen of Inferi at the bottom of the lake, eyes glowing but they themselves were frozen. Regulus straightens himself on the boat trying to calm his nerves reminding himself that this was his choice. He had went to Sirius a day before asking for help but not all that surprised he was turned away. The boat jerked as it hit the other side of the lake causing Regulus body to sway at the sudden movement.

"Is Master Regulus sure he must do this?" Kreacher asked with a quivering in his voice as they got off the boat. Regulus didn't answer him just kept moving forward to the basin. Yes this was the only way now there were no other options left for him. This is what happens when all the other doors have closed and locked themselves and only deaths door remains open. Because death will always keep its door open. Regulus had once thought Sirius would keep his door open but it had closed it self once Sirius had abandon him to their parent for his friends. Regulus was now standing in front of the basin looking down at the liquid that was with in.

It was a potion no doubt and would have to drink it in order to get what was at the bottom. It was an Emerald color so there was no doubt that this was the Drink Of Despair. Taking both hands Regulus griped the side of the jar. Tears started to appear in his eyes not because he was sad or angry it was regret because there was so mush he wanted to do and yet will never get to do. The choices of others had pushed him upon this path that there was no way of getting out of, Regulus knew he should have been stronger maybe this wouldn't have happened to him but he wasn't then but now he was strong enough to do this.

I must-" Regulus started to speak but was cut off by Kreacher, who shook his head in no and his floppy ears move with the movement of his head.

No, no, no, Kreacher will do it for Master Regulus. Kreacher will-"

"No, Kreacher!" Regulus turned with the basin in his hands to look at Kreacher. The little elf's face was crunches up in pain and tears were falling from his eyes, Regulus gave him a watery smile. "I must do this. It has to be me, my old friend. You are most likely the only one who can leave this place safely." When Regulus said this Kreacher was horrified because he knew what his Master was implying. Regulus looked from the basin to Kreacher then back the object in his hand, he kneeled down to the elf's level and put the basin in his view. "Kreacher I need you to force me to drink this even if I say to stop. You mustn't stop, that is an order." Regulus said to the small elf with a stern voice that trembled a bit but held authority.

Kreacher bowed his head at Regulus with tears in his eyes. "If that is what Master wish's then Kreacher will obey."

Regulus smiled sadly at the his old friend as Kreacher too, the basin into his own hands with a small tremble to them. Kreacher looked up at Regulus with a heartbreaking expression in his eyes for knew that his Master was going to go through once he started to drink it. Regulus tensed as the basin came closer to him, he knew what this potion would do to him. As he started drink the potion it started to work its magic on him. All the despair that Regulus held within him self came at him in hallucinations as Kreacher feed the potion to Regulus. His parents abuse, Sirius, the bullying, Voldemort. Regulus begged and pleaded for Kreacher to stop but as Regulus had ordered him, Kreacher did not stop.

"Please no more!" Regulus begged Kreacher as the elf forced the potion down.

"Kreacher promises that this is the last of the potion." Kreacher tried to comfort Regulus as he forced the potion one last time down his masters throat. Once done Regulus was huffing as if he couldn't catch his breath and he was so thirsty, half lidded eyed watched as the house elf took out a locket from the bottom of the basin. Regulus struggles to lift him self up and some miracle head was able to, he dug into to his left pocket and pulled out a different locket. He held it up to the elf.

"Put this locket into the basin." Kreacher did as he was told, Regulus sighed. His throat hurt, he needed water he thought to him self as he watched the elf put the basin back in its original place. Kreacher turned back to his master with the cursed locket in his hand. He knew what he must do now it won't be long until Voldemort finds out. "Kreacher, listen to me closely." Regulus said in a stern voice, it made the elf focus more on to him. "You will tell no one of what took place today not even family. Furthermore destroy that locket I don't care how you do it just that you do it." Regulus watched as Kreacher sobbed in the implication that his master will not be returning. Tears slipped from Regulus eyes, he was going to miss the elf and he decided to end this. "Leave Kreacher and don't come back for me." The elf sobbed and groaned in pain but he nodded and like a blink of an eye Kreacher was gone with the locket. It was quite only the sound of water and Regulus breathing.

Regulus forced his trembling body to stand and make its way to the edge of the water, he knelt down to scup water and bring it to his lips. Regulus felt as if time had stopped as a hand came forth from the water and took hold of him, soon more hands started to drag Regulus into the water. He struggled at first but in his mind he had knew that this would have to happen. Either die by Voldemort or this way, never the less he would die anyway.

He had first struggled with the hands of the Inferi and was able to stay on the surface of the water but that was starting to end, Regulus's heart rate went up as his brain started to recognize his fear of his own death and that he was losing energy. There was no point in calling out for anyone, no one was coming. He took in a breath as Regulus was pulled into the water. As the light from the surface of the water got smaller, he didn't know if it was his childish part of his brain or if it was the potion working. But the image of Sirius appeared before him, Regulus lifted his right hand to reach him but it was fruitless. The more he reached out the farther Sirius got.

Sirius, don't leave me! Regulus wanted to call out funny thing is he could almost here his big brother call out to him.

"Reg!"

Will you mourn me? Regulus reaching hand went limp and everything was slowly fading to black.

"Regulus!"

Am I worthy enough to be your brother again?

"Regulus Black!"

I love you Siri and I'm sorry. Regulus bid the image of Sirius farewell.

"Regulus Artcurus Black!" The voice sound like it was in panic, it got Regulus attention because there were only few times Sirius had very call him by his full name.

"Breath!"

*and so he did.*

Sirius had been talking to Remus about Harry and other things when he had heard the sound of his little brothers screams. First the house felt like it had moved and the sounds of clanking of glass was heard, then fallow by the screaming. Sirius had bolted but the stairs and towards his brothers room. He took out his wand and yelled "Bombarda!" Sirius didn't have time for the door and at the moment he didn't care about the damage. He raced into the bedroom it was dark but not to dark, when Regulus was a child he made Sirius make a glow charm on the ceiling to make it look like stars. He thought it was silly to be afraid of the dark but he did it anyways and he was glad that he did it. Because standing or rather crawling before him was an Inferi, it wasn't crawling it's way towards him but to Regulus. Sirius didn't understand why there was an Inferi until he looked at the opened closet. It wasn't an Inferi but a boggart.

Regulus was backed up to the wall sitting on the floor with his hands clenching his head and scream with wide eyes. Sirius had noticed the cracks that were on the floor that no doubt had been made by uncontrolled magic. Behind Sirius everyone in the house had rushed behind him. He could hear Molly gasp in fright at the sight of the fake Inferi. Sirius rushed to his screaming brother and knelt down to him, he looked him over. Sirius knew that the boggart was changing to his fear if he turned he would have seen Harry laying dead on the floor so he didn't turn to look at it because he knew that Remus would take care of the boggart and he did. Remus got in front of the two brother and the boggart shifted in to the moon, he raised his wand and shouted "Riddikulus!" the boggart turned into a deflated balloon and flew into the closet. Remus casted on last spell a locking spell on the closet "Colloportus" and with that the closet was sealed shut.

Sirius looked on to his screaming brother even though the boggart was put away he still continued as if it was still there. Regulus eyes were wide and glazed over and he was screaming so much that he was almost turning purple to Sirius this meant that Regulus mind was not in the present but in the past. It's was kind of unnerving to Sirius seeing his brother so unaware of the present. He always known Regulus to always be aware of everything around him that what made him very intelligent. Sirius took a hold of his screaming brother hoping to snap him out of whatever what was happening to him but it only made things worse. Regulus started to struggle against him, screaming and clawing at him. Regulus looked him in the eyes while he struggled with Sirius. It was clear to Sirius that he brother wasn't seeing him but the Inferi. Regulus started to thrash his legs in order to move away it was then Sirius called to Arthur to hold Regulus's legs down. Sirius watched as Regulus color darkened. He was breathing right because he was screaming so much.

Sirius started to call out to Regulus as he struggled to keep his hold on him. He soon noticed his brother was starting to sound weak and his struggle was lacking energy. It frightened Sirius because it was a slap in the face, Regulus was unconsciously showing him his last moments. Sirius kept call his name but he didn't respond Sirius started to panic as Regulus breathing was slowing down. "Regulus Artcurus Black! You need to breath!" Sirius shouted at his brother and something must have clicked in Regulus. His body jerked with life in Sirius's arms and inhaled the much needed air.

Regulus greedily breathes in air, his hands gripped on to the arms that hold him. He looked around trying to get a grip on reality, Regulus was alive not dead and there was no Inferi in sight. Regulus's body sagged in relief while not letting go of the grip he had in the arms as he sobbed. One of the arms came around his head and he could feel the thumb of the hand rub his head.

It was Sirius, he was in Sirius's arms it made him cry harder then before. Then another hand, a different hand went to his face. Regulus teary eyes gazed over to the owner of the hand and it was Molly Weasley. The touch was gentle and soothing to him. Regulus tried to speak but only a sob came out.

"Shh, it's over now." Mrs. Weasley assures him while Mr. Weasley let go of his legs. Sirius held his baby brother as so many questions about the Inferi came to him but he couldn't ask Regulus not right now with the state he is in. All he could do was hold his trembling body which was odd because he hadn't done this since they were very little. Sirius could feel Regulus breathing become steady but his body wasn't like it was ready for danger to happen again. Once Regulus stopped sobbing all that was left was sniffles from him.

"I-I-i don't want to be in this room anymore." Regulus said with a wavering crackle in his voice and silent tears dripping. Sirius own voice tightened at the sound of how small his brother sounded, he could say anything there was nothing to say.

Mrs. Weasley gave him a gentle smile. "No worries dear, let's take you some where else." She the gave Sirius a look that he understood that she was talking about his room. Sirius could only nod at her as he still went over things in his mind and was still disturbed at what had happened. Still lost in his thought while he help Regulus up from the floor.

"Maybe we should give you a dreamless sleep potion for now." Mrs. Weasley said to Regulus but he didn't make any notion that he heard her just stared off in space. Regulus eyes went to the floor.

"I'm sorry about the floor." He whispered into the air. Sirius shook his head and told him not to worry about it that it will get fixed. As they made it to the door there was a hesitation in Regulus step. Sirius gave him a questioning look. "I remember now."

"Remember What?" Sirius asked.

"The locket." The sound in Regulus voice reminded Sirius of a small child. "I gave it to Kreacher."

The mention of the elf made Sirius grim with annoyance but he remained calm of course it would be Kreacher. That thing was alway loyal to Regulus. "Why? Why not keep it with you?"

Regulus shook his head in despair. "I needed him to take it and destroy it."

"Why not you?"

Regulus finally looked up at Sirius with his grey eyes and soft said.

"I chose the only option."

"Option?"

"Death."

finally finished with this. Sorry it's so late. Also I just got a kitten named Pippa she likes to walk across my stuff when I'm typing and she accidentally deletes things and I had to retype a few times.