I waited for the pain. For the burn that legend told me would happen but nothing happened I didn't even feel the warmth of the sun. when opened my eyes I saw my hands glittering. What can I not die. I have to be able I won't live by killing. That's all went through my head. " Marissa, please come back . I now your confused but we'll help you. We all went through the same thing, please come up" though it wasn't Jasper or Alice I picked up sp much understanding and care in that mans voice. It was no louder than normal talking and I heard it as if I were in the same room. This scared me so I ran, faster than I thought possible. How did this happen to me, I was a christen, even as I lost my way I always went to church Sunday hangover or not. I prayed every night. Maybe this was some sort f test to make sure I didn't loose faith and didn't go all crazy blood thirsty monster. If so this was some messed up shit. If I need blood to survive and won't kill I human than what can I do? This is bull shit. I could feel the rage rising. This was so not even remotely fair.
"Why me, I didn't do anything." I yelled to the skies " What to you want from me? I can't do this. I can't die, I can't kill. What do you want?" I punch I near by rock and I shattered. Fueling my anger even more.
" So they can't fight us off, they can't out run us, they won't even want to" I yell yanking my hair " Where is there chance, why me?
Then I just scream, destroying anything in site. When my anger subsides I see the damage I did, trees rocks any thing within 50 feet had been shattered killed. I've protest waste of our natural resource and now I've murdered this habited. I that thought I cried. I half excepted to cry blood, but no my sobs where dry. This sent me further over the edge. As I finally start to calm down and take deep breaths, I smell the most delicious thing ever. Without thinking I follow the smell. I finally find the source a mountain lion, stalking a little deer. I felt sorry for the deer, it would be dinner soon. But then I felt the burn and my body took over and I attacked the lion. The poor creature had not chance, I was on it and drank it's blood in seconds. I felt the self hatred rising along with even more anger. Worse than the first. " fuck what wrong with me" I scream " God help me. I accepted you, now please save me, I gave all of my self and all I've got in return from this world is pain and hurt. Never family, never friends, never joy. Just shit. I just want to come home, but instead I cursed to live in hell forever." I never blamed god just the his people. I stared to try sob again but I noticed someone in the meadow. Alice and Jasper both had looks of sorrow and surprise on there faces. I notice 6 others in the clearing. One was so huge he was like a house, next to him a god like blond. On her left was a blond man his eye seemed proud, his arm was around a motherly red head women. The last couple was a brunette women with a bronze had man. All of them were pale with gold eyes full of pity. Except hers held understanding .
" You followed me" I slightly glad to have something to take my anger out " what the hell is wrong with you ? What the hell do you want from me?"
"Marissa calm down and let us…" the blond man began. Big mistake.
" Don't tell me to calm down calm. How the hell do know my name. what the the fuck did you do to me" their eye held fear and shock. I look down and saw why, I was on fire but nothing I touched was. Fear overtook the anger. As it did the fire stopped.
" Everyone leave now, I talk to her" the blond spoke up.
" But Rose you saw what she did" the house seemed protective of her.
" She won't hurt me, will she Alice" how would Alice know.
" She doesn't plain on it but.." Rose didn't let her finish
" See, now go or you won't get any thing for months" she threatened
" but Rose" he whined
" Emmett go''
" I can't do that"
" Edward what was she thinking earlier when she was yelling"
" She hated hurting anything and hated what happened to her it's the same thing they did to you rose and what they tried to do to Bella" Edward put a protective hand around the girl who most of been Bella.
"I thought so" she turned to Emmett " See honey, I'll be find I just need to talk to her."
That seem to convince him, he reliantly left and the rest followed. I was oddly comforted that she was the only one who stayed.
" Marissa, right" she said as she sat in front of me.
" Ya Rose?" I said in a weak voice
" Actually Rosalie, but rose is fine" she smiled.
"So I take it you dad was abusive to" I asked .
"No I was raped by my fiancé and beaten to near death"
"oh that happened to me to but it was arranged by my dad so it wasn't as bad" I admitted " I'd never told any one before"
" Well do you want to tell first or me" she asked .
" I'll go" and I jumped into the story of how my dad started to beat me, after my mom left. He blamed me for not being the perfected daughter. How my dad wanted to get rid of me and tried to force me to marry a man name Andrew Nightly and he couldn't wait for the marriage and took advantage of me. So I ran to my moms. She had been living in L.A and remarried. She was even pregnant I had known where she was all along but was scared to have my dad follow me to her and hurt her. That's what her did she blamed me for loosing the baby. And she had every right to it was my fault. So I ran away I lived own my own. A few years later she found me again I tried to kill me for her baby. But I got away but I couldn't give her away to the police. Then I told her about my abusive boyfriend Tom and about Paul.
She told me about her best friend and her family. How just before her wedding what her fiancé did to her and about how the Cullens found her. Then how she knew she never loved her ex-fiancé when she met and saved Emmett. I never felt so connected to any one or felt that I could be so close to anyone. Then she talked about her family. I learned that the other two in the meadow earlier where Esme and Carlisle, and they were like all of there parents. And they wanted to be mine too. I thought that sound kinda nice. She told me that Jasper cold control emotions although he had difficulty with mine because I was so strong willed. I joked that I was just moody. Alice could she the future and Edward could read minds. Everyone's but Bella's she had a mental shield, that cold cover everyone. She told me everyone's story. Edward and Bella had a daughter that ran off with a werewolf and got married. She looked 19 but was really only 9. She still visited now and then but Edward really hated Jacob and I could understand, I mean she was a baby when he imprinted. That's just creepy. But best of all the we're "veg heads " the only drank animal blood. After talking so more about less important things like music and clothes we went hunting some more. By the time the sin started to set I loved Rose like a sister and the way she talked about everyone I was beginning to love them. Especially her husband Emmett her sound like a lot of fun, but I'm sure she was bias. I already knew the answer when she asked me, " want to go back?"
"Ya let's go home" she beamed when I answered
I hope you liked it, it's over 1,460 words. I'll try and have a new chapter up by Thursday maybe Friday. But the more reviews the more motive I have to write so please review.
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