Title: Such Presumption
Rating: G
Category: Humour/Drama
Summary: Loz dreams about dearest Mummy's return and thinks Kadaj is too crazy to be a good leader. In the near future... Yazoo.
Author's Note: So it's not Yazoo as I promised. Or promised soon. I'm sorry about that, but Yazoo was surprisingly was a bitch to write for. So I decided to write for Loz instead.
Anyway I promised another chapter soon and I didn't deliver. I'm sorry. Firstly, I got lazy and annoyed over the lack of fun when writing for Yazoo. Secondly, for some bizarre reasons my office is a hip place to be if your snake. So much to my horror I discovered a snake slithering around in the office! Obviously such events forced me to abandon both room and story until I felt it was minimally safe to return. I still don't know where the snake is... but since I didn't want to abandon this story I came back to finish it off.
"So what about your Mummy?"
"My Mummy's dead. She died a long time ago."
I hear that all the time. Everyone here wants their Mummy or Daddy. But at least my Mummy will come back to me. I can't help but gloat over these unlucky kids. Mother will come back. The thought of it thrills me. She will come back and everything will be good again. I'm not sure what that means exactly, but Kadaj tells me there will be no more fighting, no more Geostigma and no more stupid humans.
But I don't think humans are all that bad. The kids are lots of fun. Maybe it is the adults? I know the dark-haired woman almost had me beaten! But Kadaj tells me don't be so trusting and stupid- 'We are Cetra, they are human! They destroyed us almost to extinction a long time ago, and now it is time for our revenge and to take back our birthright... the Planet!'
I am told I am the eldest, but even I doubt that. I think Kadaj is, or maybe Yazoo? Yazoo always seems so calm and collected. He always knows what to say to make things better... he's like Mother in that respect. She always knows what to say to make us feel good. Maybe Kadaj is a leader like Mother, Mother told us she lead her people across the cosmos to this Planet a very, very long time ago. But sometimes he seems so confused and angry.
He talks to himself a lot, either awake or asleep. He looks so frightened at times as if he sees something really horrible in front of him. Sometimes it gets so bad, he starts crying. I hate that. He tells me to stop crying, to stop being so stupid and trusting and weak... and yet when he starts crying in his sleep or yelling at some invisible someone... it's okay.
Yazoo told me he's talking to Sephiroth and Mother. Mother. I wonder why talking to Mother upsets him so. Perhaps he hasn't done enough to make her happy, or done it wrong. I really do think Yazoo would make a better leader. He never cries or talks to himself.
But Sephiroth? I am the only one out of my brothers who has never heard Sephiroth's voice. Yazoo said it is swift and cold like a torrent of icy rain on your face. Kadaj wouldn't say anything to me when I asked but just stared at me with a very nasty look on his face. I know I should be thankful by now that I have never heard Sephiroth, but yet I want to know. Maybe Sephiroth is the one that makes Kadaj act all crazy instead?
But Mother is coming! Even that will make Kadaj alright, he might even smile again. A proper smile. Not a smirk or a cold, dead smile. I know it makes me smile when I think about the day when Mother finally comes home. I saw her in my dreams once, saw her really! Not just a hint of her presence or her voice, but truly her. She was beautiful! She had long silvery hair and bright eyes. They were very strange to look at, they sparkled like distant stars but yet she could see me perfectly and she called me to her.
I don't remember anything beyond that but I can see her now, and I try to make that memory stronger each day. Oneday I know I'll no longer be living in a beautiful memory, but I will see her face with my own eyes instead.
