If I Let You Go

day after day
time pass away
and I just can't get you off my mind
nobody knows
I hide it inside
I keep on searching but i can't find

the courage to show
to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
and once again I'm thinkin' about
takin' the easy way out

but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go

night after night
I hear myself say
why can't this feeling just fade away
there's no one like you
you speak to my heart
it's such a shame
we're worlds apart

I'm to too shy to ask
I'm to too proud to lose
but sooner or later I've gotta choose
and once again
I'm thinkin' about
taking the easy way out

but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go

if I let you go, oh baby

oooh

once again I'm thinkin' about
takin' the easy way out

but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me (close to me)
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go

but if I let you go
I will never know
(oh baby)

will I ever see
you smiling back at me

oh yeah
How will I know
(how will i know)
if I let you go

Jacob POV

I felt myself flush with embarrassment. Its not every day you admit to imprinting on your worst enemy. As I sit there wringing my hands the others mutter amongst themselves. Finally Emmett clears his throat.

"So what are you doing here? Ya gonna tell us? It's not everyday you come across your worst enemy interrupting your 'routine'" God that vampire is far from being a prude.

"Well if you give me your word not to tell the pack then I will." I reluctantly compromised. All of them nodded their heads.

"I imprinted on Edward. I couldn't help it, I had to come." Checking my watch I saw that he had only a few minutes left to wait out until the pain was gone. Not answering any of their questions I rose from my seat. Stretching my arms I followed Emmett's instructions and easily found Edwards bedroom.

Not bothering to knock I push open the door to where Edward is laid out on the bed. For the first time I get a glance around his room, instantly seeing that he loves music. I think 'loves' is a bit of an understatement as a full wall is dedicated to CD's and a state of the art CD player.

Glancing back to the pitiful figure on the bed my heart twists as I watch his face scrunch up as another wave of pain comes. Jealously consumes me as I think about the reason for him needing a bed after all vampires don't sleep. There's only one; Bella. Was it just for her to sleep on? Or did they do 'the deed'?

Sitting down gently on the bed as not to jostle it I look at the vampire. His breathing seems more ragged than before, if he was a human he would be hyperventilating at this point. Putting my hand in the middle of his chest I try to ease his breathing. Try to even them. Try to make him get deeper breaths. Not working, instead they sped up if that was possible as well as grew more shallow.

Snatching my hand away I watched as they slowed down to what they were before. Checking my watch I saw that he only had ten seconds left. In these ten seconds his breathing hitched once again while he unleashed his loudest most heart wrenching scream he had done since been bitten. The silence after was deafening.

Ever so slowly I leant over and un tied each of the straps. Instantly the vampire was up, growling at me from the opposite corner of the room. His posture screamed that he was ready to attack at any second. Icy fingers worked their way down my spine while the hairs on that back of my neck stood up. Why was I scared of him?

"Why are you here?" he spat from between clenched teeth. His sweet scent didn't hurt my nose any more but instead smelt like my favourite ice cream; Vanilla. A sharp growl sounded from the corner.

"Where's Bella?" oh god how do I tell him she's dead? I mulled over this as my mind went over the possible ways she could have died. Did they even find her body? His eyes at that point held only grief while I came to realisation of my mistake. Bum hole! Edwards the mind reader, oh god how could I have forgot. He swallowed loudly, controlled his facial expression and turned to me with steely eyes.

"Again why are you here?" I began to sing the alphabet while pondering over what to do. Do I tell him? Do I take the easy route and just not tell him? I guess now is as good a time as any. Taking a deep breath I decide to tell him now.

"I imprinted on you." For a second his growls stop from shock before starting again. Slowly he advanced in a predatory crouch. As sinister as it looked it turned me on, he looked cute when he was angry. What the hell Jacob? I know you imprinted on him but since when has he looked cute to you? Especially when he wants to rip your head off?

"You can't do, my soul mate's Bella." Hasn't he accepted that she's dead? But he was right. How does he know of imprinting? Hmm, he probably learnt it from books.

"She wasn't, I am." How soppy do I sound? Now he knows will he want to attack me? Confusion is clear on his face so I simple down my feeling for him. I think I would be like that after just going to hell and back as well as someone saying they imprinted on you.

"I love you." God I sound like a simpleton. His eye brows knit together as he thinks over my words.

"Well you can't love me that much otherwise you wouldn't have fed me whatever it was." He murmured softly.

"I did it to save you; it's what Bella would have wanted." Here I go again, hiding behind the 'it's what Bella would have wanted' excuse. To be honest I think she would have killed me for imprinting on her boyfriend as he lay dying if she was alive.

A cold steely voice interrupted my musings; "If you love then you'll go." Of course my wolf obeyed what my imprint said even though it was howling in pain. Killing me would have been better, bitch slapping would have been better than this, hell anything was better.

Not wanting the others to see my failure I opened his window (without a backward glance) jumped down onto the soft lawn. Phasing I decided I didn't care if the pack knew. I found it strange how none of them was phased as normally Sam has at least one wolf running perimeter checks. Not that I'm bothered.

Stupid leech! How could I have been so stupid as to think he would accept this? No, that bloodsucker is far too high and mighty to even be friends with me. He had to do it the worst possible way too, He couldn't have just told me to leave, no, he had to use my imprint against me.

Some how in my anger I found I could easily insult him.

If you love then you'll go, if you love then you'll go, if you love then you'll go the thought spun around my head so many times. If he thought I was giving up that easy then he had another thing coming. If I let him go then I would never witness the things that could happen. Never know what it would feel like. Yes, Edward Cullen would be mine even if it took eternity to do so, I would eventually win him over.

Taking my anger out on the trees I barrelled towards them, smashing them down with swift flick of my paw or kicking them with a hefty kick from my hind quarters. Surveying my damage I looked around and saw destruction but also a blur of white at one end.

"You know Esme's not going to be happy for destroying her trees." Alice called from where she was stood. Growling at her to stay away but it was no good. One thing I learnt from hunting vampires. You can't force them into anything.

"Don't worry he'll come round eventually." Ha eventually! How longs that away? Stomping over to the bushes I phased so I would be able to talk to her. Pulling my kaki shorts on I ran back over to her. Alice stayed in the shadows even though I knew they couldn't burn in the sun.

I should have known that they were more comfortable in the shadows.

"It'll take a miracle for him to accept it." I whisper back knowing full well she can here me. Sitting down next to Alice I dig my right foot into the grass as a way to let out frustration.

"You've got 85% chance of him accepting it so look on the bright side of life!" What happens with the other 15%? Answer that pixie! I know she could see the future but not shifters so how could she know about the imprinting?

"How do you know about my imprint?"

"That's easy, as you know I can't see you guys so when Edwards future became fuzzy it meant two things. One; he got involved with the wolves in some way, most likely through imprint or two; he died" my heart clenched at the second. Even though he denied it I still wanted to protect him. Alice didn't notice this if she did she didn't acknowledge it "after you explained what you did I knew it had to be the first option."

"Looks like you were right." I sigh wondering what we could have had if he accepted.

"Yep I always am, look have faith in me wolfie! How would you feel if you woke up disorientated, found out the love of your life was dead and that your enemy admitted to loving you? I know I'd say the first things that come to my mind!" She didn't get it!

"Bella wasn't the love of his life, even though she's dead he would already have found his soul mate. I wouldn't have been able to imprint on him if that was the case." A small popping sound came from her mouth as she began to understood. I could see myself really liking Alice. She didn't but in or anything, just let you get things off your chest.

"I have one question for you that Carlisle was going to ask before you went upstairs. Why was Edward sweating I mean vampires don't sweat!" she laughed as with all vampires it sounded like bells.

"How else would he have gotten Victoria's venom out of his system? You couldn't have sucked it out cause then it would be in you system. Don't worry he'll be back to normal now." I quietly growl as I think of what Victoria did to him, what's worse is she's still out there some where. Still killing others.

"Come on you can sleep at our place tonight if you want. If you do what you thinking you will get him."

Yeah I'll fight for him, till my heart stops beating.