Seras sat in her apartment alone, Bee had left for the night. Which led her to looking at pictures of her and her parents just then a picture of her, Walter and Alucard fell out onto her lap. It was one of Seras holding onto Alucard's arm smiling for the picture. Walter was smiling to waving at the camera. Alucard just had a blank expression on his face.

She missed her Master so much and it had been just three days ago but she had been avoiding work at the bar in fear that he would show up again and drag her back to Hellsing. She wasn't ready to go back. Bee had explained to Mist that Seras had drunk some bad blood and need to recover.

She was still confused why he had even bothered finding her, she was sure that he would have been thankful to have her out of his life, after all she was not a full vampire and she could never make him proud. Seras was a disgrace to the ancient vampire blood line. Sighing she put the picture away as Seras heard a small quiet knock on her door. Getting up she went over to answer it.

"Who is it?" Seras asked before opening up. Always cautious of who might be on the other side.

"Miss Victoria, its Sir Integra and Walter."
Fuck. Seras thought. How did they manage to get her address?. Unlocking the door she welcomed them in.

"Lets skip pleasantries so tell me Sir Integra why are you here.?" Seras sat on her chair watching Integra and Walter sit in front of her. She was expecting Alucard to appear in her room, but after a few seconds she knew that wasn't going to happen. She was somewhat relieved.

"Its nice to hear that you are starting to act like a true vampire and I see that you have changed your appearance as well, my girl you have been busy. But as usual this is a business talk so I'm here mostly because of Alucard."

"Well what about him?" Seras grew angry at the mention of him. Had he been so much of a coward to send his human Master to her. "Would you like some tea?" She offered to them both, she didn't want to be near them as they spoke of Alucard. This was the woman after all that her Master lusted over in front of her.

"No thank you Miss Victoria" Walter said before Integra started to speak.

"He has changed since seeing you. He seems to be sulking."

Seras laughed at what she was saying. "Alucard ? Sulking? Never in my life did I ever think I would those two words in the same sentence. I thought by now he would have had the pleasure of your company that he wouldn't need to sulk. I have no idea why he would be acting like a child with a booboo, unless you have rejected him." She said boldly to Integra.

"What are you talking about Seras?" Sir Integra glared at the young vampire. Quite surprised at what she had just heard.

Walter coughed "I think Miss Victoria means to say that she thought by now that you and Alucard would have share a bed. To be blunt Ma'am" Walter explained carefully. Watching his boss carefully as she took in what he just said.

Sir Integra's mouth fell open slightly. "What gave you that idea Seras.? I don't have nor ever want that kind of relationship with Alucard " Then it hit her. " Is that the reason you left Hellsing. You thought that we were going to be together. Seras do you have feelings for Alucard.? "

Now it was time for her mouth to open in shock. She didn't want the attention on her. Right now she wish the floor would open up and swallow her.

"Why would that matter to you?." Seras whispered. "I saw the way you look at each other. With such compassion. Must be nice to have such a person look upon you with kindness. I couldn't handle it so I left. I couldn't stand to pretend not to have feelings if you guys were going to be happy. I mean that would bloody suck. But he can never know of my feelings towards him. I don't want to burden him with human emotions."

"Why Miss Victoria.?" Walter asked as he walked over to her he placed a hand on her shoulder.

"Because I'm a weak, useless fledgling. He will never see me fit to be a No life Queen. He has told me more then once. Can't take much more of his insults and such. " Seras eyes began to water at the many memories of Alucard and how he had pushed and pushed her. Calling her names. Telling her that she was useless. Being a down right prick to her.

"Well I don't think your weak. He did mention you threw him through a wall and that you transformed into your demon dog. You have gotten more powerful my dear. It was only a matter of time. I mean after all you do have his blood running through your veins." Integra said smiling.

"You don't get it. Its never going to be enough for him to be pleased with me." Seras said defeated. " I can try for all eternity and it will never be enough."

"Come back to Hellsing Seras Victoria and well see if we can work this out. You might be surprised." Sir Integra said as she lifted Seras's chin up to her. " You never know until we try everything to get you what you desire."

"Can I think about it Sir?" She needed time to think. Leaving out of the blue again wasn't an option this time. She had friends that would worry about her.

"Of course. Ill give you twenty four hours and if you do come back head straight to my office, even if Alucard senses you and tries to see you. You must come to me first. Understood.?"

"Yes sir. Quite understood."

Walter and Integra left Seras alone. She only had twenty four hours to figure out what she wanted to do.

She watched them enter a vehicle and drive away.

At Hellsing.

"Walter what do you think she will do?" Sir Integra asked as she puffed on her cigar.

"I trust her to make the right decision and to come back here. It was after all her home for a long time. Only time with tell Sir."

Sir Integra sighed. "Well I better go and get the scent off of me before Alucard smells it, wouldn't want him thinking anything. Walter, can you run my bath for me."

"Of course Sir Integra." She watched him leave and turned and looked out her window.

"Yes only time with tell. Lets pray she does come back." She spoke to the emptiness of the room.