Morning. So as I know it'll be difficult for me to post this later today, here is the next chapter. Longest one so far as well... so enjoy.
It Shouldn't Be Easy.
Chapter 4.
Lee knew what he wanted but had no idea if Kara wanted the same thing. And he was worried that one wrong move would lead to something happening which could affect their friendship more than he was willing to risk. Having said that he could've already gone too far in order for them to go back to their previous relationship if that was what Kara wanted but Lee wasn't sure he wanted them to.
He pulled away from her and sat up on the bed beside her. He stared down at her and she stared back at him; her eyes wide and a small smile on her face. His hand moved to her top and he slowly lowered the zip on her hooded top; maintaining eye contact with her and going slow enough that she could stop him if she didn't want him to do this. She didn't move at all and Lee took that as a good sign. When the zip was undone his eyes lowered and grazed over her body. She was wearing a sports bra under the top and his eyes briefly focused on each peak beneath the black material.
Kara watched him looking at her body; she couldn't breathe now even if she'd wanted to. This was really happening and she was still trying to catch up with the rapid shift in their relationship; changing from friendship to something more? She wasn't sure she was going to be able; or even knew how to handle this quick change and she was fairly sure that at some stage Lee would freak out about it as well. For the time being though she was just going to go with the flow and see what happened because it was only now she realized this was what she'd wanted all along.
Lee stopped moving as he stared at her body. It was a surprise to him; normally she was usually dressed in her uniform which were hardly flattering to the female form and looking at what he'd now uncovered showed him what he'd been missing all these weeks. Putting it simply she was beautiful. Realistically it shouldn't have been that much of a shock to him as he'd always thought she was but to see it laid before him now just re-established the fact for him. It also confirmed to him that he'd made the right decision by taking this step with her. Not that he only wanted to do this because of how she looked; there was so much more to this than that; but it was hardly a downside to have her looking the way she did. He looked up at her face and saw her still staring at him; studying his reaction to her. He smiled at her and she mirrored his expression. He licked his lips; trying to draw the strength to ask what he needed to know so badly. "Is this okay?" he whispered to her. She nodded slowly and he could see she was as stunned by this turn of events as he was; this wasn't what he'd had in mind when he made the decision to come here. "Is this what you want?" he asked. Another nod. "I need to hear you say it, Kara." He said; unable to look at her face now.
"This is what I want, Lee. I didn't realize it until now but it is." She said softly.
He took her hand in his; squeezing it gently and pulled on her arm so she sat up; putting her much closer to him again and pulled on her arm so she sat up. Her face was inches from his and he couldn't resist leaning forward and kissing her gently. As his mouth met hers his other hand moved to her shoulder and gently eased her top from her body; her hands assisting by pulling themselves from the sleeves as he did so. As soon as she was free she moved to his jacket and worked it from his body. He smiled against her mouth at her eagerness; they seemed to finally be on the same page. Soon his top half was completely naked as she removed his T-shirt from him as well. Their kiss broke so he could finish removing his top and they were now staring at each other; desire clear on both their faces. Kara launched herself at him; kissing him passionately as she pushed him to lie back on the mattress. His hands brushed down her back as they kissed before settling at her waist. As their kiss deepened he pulled her so she was straddling his body. She groaned softly into his mouth as his hands drifted lower and pulled her ass against him; hard.
Kara could feel his length beneath her; could feel it hardening as they kissed each other more. This was unbelievable; she was so shocked this was happening. She was resting on her arms as they lay by his head and her fingers ran through his hair; smiling slightly as she messed it from its usual precise style. Her mouth moved from his and she stared down at him; breathing deeply to replace the much needed oxygen she was still lacking.
"I'm so glad I came to see you." He whispered.
"I am too." She whispered back. "Are you sure this is what you want, Lee?"
"It's the only thing I'm sure of."
He sounded so sure; like he really believed what he'd said. Kara couldn't understand why she found it so difficult to accept what he was saying? "I just don't want us to do something that will ruin the friendship we've got." Suddenly she wasn't sure they were doing the right thing. She wasn't sure she wanted to risk losing his friendship because it meant so much to her.
"I promise you Kara, nothing will change."
"I hope you're right."
"I usually am." He smirked at her and then craned his neck up and kissed her again; his hand brushing her hair away from her face and behind her ear. "Are we going to do this?" he whispered against her mouth.
"Do you really want to?"
"Gods, yes."
Kara could hear the need in the tone and knew it matched that which she was finding so difficult to voice. "So do I."
He kissed her again; his mouth opening and his tongue sweeping into her mouth. She closed her eyes as she felt and then tasted him in her mouth. His kisses were intense; were sensual and more than anything they were hot. His kisses reminded her of him; everything he did, he did with the same intensity and everything naturally had the same innate sensuality. And of course he was hot; he didn't have to try with that at all. She tried to remember a time when someone had kissed her the way Lee was now. She couldn't think of a time which kind of left her feeling empty until she remembered Lee was doing so now. All thoughts fled her head as his hand crept down her back; moving from her hair, his fingers tracing the curve of her spine; sending tingles through her body. She shivered above him as his hand tickled her softly. Their kiss deepened and both hinted to the other what they were feeling as their tongues swept around their mouths and brushed against each other.
This wasn't the first time she'd done this with a guy; far from it but somehow this felt like a completely new experience. She couldn't remember anything other than the way Lee was making her feel. She pulled her mouth from his as both hands climbed her body again and brushed the sides of her breasts; the material of her bra was the only thing hampering him from really touching her. Each of his hands moved to cup her breasts and she smiled down at him as she saw his eyes close briefly when he first touched her. She wished he'd already removed her bra because she longed for him to touch each peak with those wonderful hands; the hands that had apparently mastered the controls of a Viper so well. She only hoped they were as adept in their current mission.
Even as she thought it his hands shifted their focus and moved to the material of her bra. His fingers worked beneath the material and he began the slow process of moving the tight top off her body. She started to move so she could assist him but his eyes met hers quickly and he shook his head very slightly. She stilled and watched his face as he glanced down to focus once more on his task. She could feel the cool air of the room softly attacking her body as he worked the material up her body and as she lifted her arms so he could pull it from her body his fingers tickled the skin as it brushed by. Her top half was now as naked as his was. He licked his lips as he finally saw her breasts; free from the material and Kara saw the emotion on his face as he stared at her body. She should be feeling embarrassed; she had whenever she'd done this before; that initial moment of exposure always making her feel a moment of weakness. Now though as she saw the desire on his face she felt a power she'd never experienced before.
She was torn as to what she wanted him to do next. The options open to them were vast and she had no idea where she wanted him to start. She leaned down slightly and her lips brushed against his again; careful to ensure her body didn't touch his. Not yet anyway. The kiss was passionate and she could almost taste the desire as Lee kissed her deeply.
When the need for air got too much Kara pulled away from him; moving further away as he tried to reignite the kiss. Using her arms she pushed herself up so she sat straddling his groin. His arousal had increased since he'd removed her top and she could feel him hardening further beneath her as she sat on top of him. She stared down at him; initially his eyes were on her face and she smiled at him tenderly. Gradually his eyes moved downwards; moving down to her chest and settling on what she'd revealed to him. His hands had been resting on the mattress since she'd sat up but now moved to her knees and then up her body. She sighed as his fingers brushed the sides of her breasts again; this time no material hampering him from touching her. She leant forward slightly; trying to encourage him to touch her more. Her eyes shut as his thumbs grazed the underside of each peak and she shifted on top of him; feeling his length pressing against her intimately.
His hands faltered slightly as she pressed down on him. He was breathing shallowly as he focused once more on touching her chest. He seemed to know what she wanted and he smiled as he heard her groan softly in frustration as he determinedly ignored the peak of each breast. She shivered against him; sighing his name when his fingertips moved closer to the nipples. Her eyes opened and he looked into the hazel she revealed; he could see she was intoxicated by what he was doing and there was a slightly unfocused look to her face that told him how much he was affecting her.
He gave in to what she wanted and his thumbs swept over the nipple of each peak. She inhaled as he touched her. "Can I kiss you?" he asked softly.
"Of course you can." She was surprised he'd asked as it wasn't something that was new to them. She saw him smile at her and she tried not to show her disappointment as he moved his hands from her chest so he could push himself to a sitting position.
"Close your eyes," he whispered. She did as he asked; wondering just what he was up to but trusting him completely. She almost blacked out as she felt his lips circle one of her nipples. That was not what she'd been expecting him to do but gods did it feel amazing. A hand moved to her neglected breast and this time she moaned softly as his fingers pulled gently on its pert peak. His tongue brushed over its partner and Kara swore she could see stars. He sucked on her breast and she could almost feel the thread of desire connecting her nipple and groin. She writhed on him and smiled slightly as she heard him groan. His mouth moved to her other breast and repeated his actions with as much eagerness. His teeth grazed the skin of her breast and Kara bit her lip as the blood seemed to rush to her groin in a flood of desire.
"Lee…" she sighed softly; her use of his name begging him to continue; to move what they were doing further forward. Her hand was resting at the nape of his neck and her fingers were brushing the hair at his neckline. His hair had grown over the term and was long enough now for her to weave her fingers through. His mouth was moving up her chest now and was just about to reach her neck; almost at the spot where he'd first kissed her not so long ago. His lips paused there for some time; his hands had moved around to her body and were splayed across her back; pulling her against him and managing to almost sear her skin like she'd imagined them doing earlier.
Lee was almost at the point of desperation now; he wanted this to move much faster than it was but at the same time he knew this was special. They would never have a first time together again and he wanted to savor every second of it. His mouth began to climb her neck again and soon he was at her ear; he pulled the lobe into his mouth and nipped at it gently with his teeth. He could hear her breathing deeply; each exhale brushing past his cheek and ear. "Are you sure you want to do this, Kara? We can stop now if you've changed your mind."
"I want to do this, Lee." She wriggled on his lap slightly and he shut his eyes as his cock was trapped between their bodies. She also seriously doubted either of them would be able to stop now; the desire they were both feeling pushing them on.
"Stand up, Kara." he said softly.
Her head pulled away from his and she looked into his eyes. She must've been satisfied with what she saw because she rose to her knees and then stepped down onto the floor. He shifted forward to the edge of the bed and then stood and walked the two steps towards her. She was looking at his face after she'd got up but as he stood he saw her eyes drift down his body. He tried to ignore his embarrassment at her seeing him like this; now wasn't the time to think about that. What they were about to do reduced the need to feel any shame. He watched her face as she stared at his arousal pushing against his pants. It had been a long time since he'd been this aroused; this was definitely the first time since he'd started at the Academy he'd even considered doing this with anyone. He'd had offers; some of the cadets had been virtually throwing themselves at him – and not all of them female much to Lee's embarrassment – but none of them had interested him. At the time he'd tried to convince himself he was focusing on his studies and didn't have time for a relationship but really the only girl that held his attention was the girl standing in front of him now. Kara hadn't shown any inclination to be anything more than his friend and Lee still wasn't sure what it was that had pushed him to take that leap of faith and kiss her. He could honestly now say he was glad he had.
He took a couple more steps towards her and her head rose so she looked into his eyes. He was slightly taller than her; just a couple of inches but as he moved nearer to her she had to look up at him. Her hand moved to hold his and she gripped it as she watched him. "I don't know what you want me to do, Lee."
"You don't need to do anything, Kara. Let me do everything." She stilled and looked at him. "Can you do that?" he whispered. He knew he was asking a lot. It was unlike a pilot to relinquish complete control to anyone so he knew just what he was asking her to do. Time seemed to freeze as he waited for her to respond. Finally she nodded slightly at him and Lee was surprised by the relief that wound through him. He leant forward and kissed her tenderly; her mouth opening to welcome his tongue.
His free hand wound round her back; lowering slightly so he cupped her ass and then pulled her towards him. His cock felt heavy as it pressed against her hip and he longed to be able to free himself from his confines and take her; show her how much he wanted this; how much he needed her. His concern he was pushing her to do something she didn't want to do vanished as she pressed herself against him; her hand reached up for the back of his neck again; holding his head in place.
Lee released his hold on her hand and moved it to her waist; his fingers quickly pushing beneath the elastic waistband of her sweatpants. Her mouth moved against his harder as she felt his hands exploring new territory. It didn't take long for them to fall down her legs and she stepped out of them. She was now only wearing her panties and her desire was increasing as time passed.
They were no longer kissing and Kara stared at him; biting her lip as the tension built within her. "This feels strange." She whispered.
Lee froze at her words and looked at her with concern. "Strange in a bad way?" he whispered.
She shook her head and smiled at him slightly. "I don't think so; I guess it feels like we shouldn't be doing this; that someone's going to walk in here and put us on report."
"We don't have to do this, Kara. If you've changed your mind, it's okay."
"I haven't changed my mind. I'm just trying to get my head around it all."
"Are you sure?" He suddenly wasn't as sure she was as into this as he needed her to be.
One of her hands reached for his face and cupped his cheek. He stared into her eyes; trying to read just what she was thinking. His eyes widened as he was suddenly aware her other hand was cupping him through his pants. Kara decided enough was enough; knowing she needed to tell him exactly what she wanted. No wasn't the time to hold back. "I know this is what I want, Lee." Her mouth met his in the briefest of kisses. "I want you to make me fly; I want you filling me; buried deep within me." She was staring into his eyes and he could feel her lips brushing against his as she spoke.
He believed her. She knew what she wanted and it made his head spin slightly that she wanted him. Her words were having an effect on him and he knew she'd be able to feel his cock swelling even more in her hand in reaction to what she'd said. He needed to take the next step with her so he pulled her against him again; trapping her hand between their bodies; her fingers still circled him through the material. Slowly he stepped forward; gently pushing her back until she was standing against the wall beside the doorway to her room. Another kiss was shared; instigated by Lee before he pulled away from her and took two steps back. He could feel her staring at him as he pushed his pants down his body and kicked them across the floor. His cock ached for freedom but he refused to do that just yet knowing that once he did, what they were doing would leap to the final act and despite everything Lee wanted to take his time.
"Close your eyes…" he murmured. Kara hesitated for a second before remembering what happened the last time he'd told her to do that. She tried to control her breathing as the desire in her body fought for escape. She wanted him to start worshipping her; longed for the moment he first pushed into her. Her senses were going into overload and reached another crescendo as she felt his mouth kiss her through her panties.
He'd knelt on the ground before her once she closed her eyes and shuffled forward; staring at the apex of her legs. He could see she was turned on as the moisture that had formed in her underwear indicated her desire. His mouth pressed against her; kissing her softly. He felt her legs shake slightly and heard her breath falter. He smiled against her and his hands moved to her waist; gripping the skin just above the waistband of her underwear. His mouth climbed upwards and finally kissed her naval; his tongue dipping into the well. She gasped his name and the sound makes his cock harden even further; surprising him immensely. Ever so slowly his fingers nudged beneath her panties and he pulled them down her legs. His mouth followed their descent and in no time he was sucking on her clit; enticing the small nub to a peak. He longed to hear her cry out his name as she came but at the same time wanted to be buried in her the first time she did. It was a quandary he didn't know the answer to. "Lee… stop." His heart stopped when she spoke and he stilled for several seconds.
TBC
A/N: I know... an even worse cliff hanger than yesterday... sorry. Still only a few hours to wait. Please review... they keep me going... and I respond to every (signed) one - good or bad. I'm interested to hear what you think.
