" Well you see," Cara says nervously. " Tris…."
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Chapter 3
Tobias POV
"What about Tris?" I spat at Cara, bitterness clouding my voice.
Cara was frozen for a few seconds before nervously shifting from foot to foot. It was almost like I could see her mind trying to find an alternate solution that involved not telling me the truth.
"Well," I prod " What about Tris". I try to sound gentler, but I can still hear some bitterness in my voice.
"Caleb was talking about Tris's birthday," Cara starts. "Which is exactly two months away from yours."
"So her birthday is on 6/4, because mine is one 4/4, right?"
"Yes. Caleb was expressing a complaint about Christina's plan. Her plan was a bit brash, and she planned to complete her plan on Tris's birthday. And that got Caleb upset because he thought she was being inconsiderate. But, we all agreed that you may not know Tris's birthday, so it might be okay. Caleb was still upset and I agreed that Christina was still acting to quickly and-"
I interrupted Cara's ranting. "Christina's plan about what? And what does it have to do with me?"
"That's enough, Cara" a voice says from behind me. I didn't jump in surprise as Cara did. We Dauntless were trained to be strong. I have move on from that in some aspects, but it is still part of me now. My days in Dauntless held some of my best memories. I was away from my father, I got stronger, and I met Tris. I barely registered the fact that Christina had come up behind me.
"If you want Four, I can tell you now" Christina said, staring into my eyes.
"Sure, if matters that much to you," I say, distracted by thoughts. I did find that my friends called me Four. All my fans called me Four as well because of my history in Dauntless. Someone seldom called me Tobias. I only gave Tris the right to do that. I hoped at this very moment, that Christina would leave. I was not in the mood for another lecture.
"I'll go," Cara says walking towards the door. "I have to meet Caleb at my apartment. Oh, and Four, I'll call the others tomorrow. We'll record the song then. See you, then."
"So," Christina starts. "I've been thinking about this for a long time. I know Tris was a good person. I mean, she was my best friend and all. I do miss Tris, and I know that you did as well Four. I mean, you probably still do."
"What's that suppose to mean?", I say, my eyes narrowed at Christina. I was angry at her for bringing this subject up again. I've talked about it with her before, but I was ready to stop talking to people about Tris's death. Except for Zeke. He would always understand, since he love Uriah. But Christina never loved someone long enough to learn how to cope with loss. A couple of weeks isn't a long time.
"What it means is that you should move on. There are lots of fans that admire you, and would love to be your girlfriend. You should find someone else. Get over Tris already. She is never going to come back. Stop grieving over her and move on. I already moved on from her death, and Will's death. You should move on now. You can find any girl to love. You can choose Cara, some random girl, or me. Just consider it. It would be for the best."
After hearing Christina's statement I nearly exploded. " HIS IS WHAT YOU WASTE MY TIME ON!" I yell at her. " N THE FACT THAT I NEED ANOTHER GIRLFRIEND!" I see the hurt look on Christina's face, and I take a deep breath. " It just not what I want right now. Honestly Christina I'm fine being single. I knew and loved Tris longer than you loved and knew Tris. We shared so many good memories. All of them better than the memories you had with Will. We did more than you guys did, and our love was stronger. " I turn to leave. "Oh, one more thing," I add as I step outside. " Don't give me relationship suggestions if you're not dating anybody right now." I walk out the door before breaking out into run, thinking about how inconsiderate Christina was being.
Tris POV
I was watching Tobias talking to Christina this morning. I left after Tobias walked out of the room. The fact that Christina looked a bit hurt, shrugged, and left made me a bit sad. I thought she was my friend. I never thought that she would try to hit on Tobias when I was gone. She was so inconsiderate some times. She had never loved someone as much as I have loved Tobias, an as much as Tobias loved me. We had developed a bond that would be hard to break. Death was the only thing that could break our love, and it did.
I walk down over to the chasm. I relived the time Tobias and I had spent there together. The time that he pronounced his love for me. All the small things that we did together lead up to this moment. I never thought that I could get a man as tough as Tobias to even look at me, but I was wrong.
I spent some time replaying memories. Then, I made one final resolve. I made an decision that would be best for me and the ones I loved. It might affect Christina and all of Tobias's fans, but it helped everyone else. I love Tobias, and he still loves me. Death can't break our bond, and I won't allow it to. I'll find a way to stay down no Earth as long as I want without getting caught so I can be with Tobias. And then, I will talk to him.
Two months have passed down on Earth. I've tried to keep a low profile so nobody would recognize me. I had a plan in mind to succeed.
I was about to work on step one. I was making my way down to Earth for my birthday. My second free day on Earth was already taken. This time, I would stay onto Earth for two days. I told my family that I would be doing some traveling once I came back from Earth. Step one was getting down to Earth normally. Step two was finding Tobias. Step three was finding a safe place to stay for the night. Step four was sneaking in normally the next day, as if I hadn't stayed down on Earth for an extra day.
As I prepared to depart, I was stopped by Will.
"Tris," he said. " I know you are about to leave, but I want to tell you that Christina didn't mean what she said. I saw you watching her talk to Four. I was watching her too. I also saw your deep love for each other. Christina would never understand that. I didn't understand it until I saw you and Four. I almost felt bad. Christina was so mean. She seemed to have stopped caring bout either of us. I felt hurt by her statement, and guessed that you probably did too."
I took a few seconds to take all of that in. "Thanks Will. I really appreciate you standing up for Christina, but what she does is no longer up to you. I do see your point. I felt hurt by her words as well. I was upset that she decided to hurt Tobias that way. You and I will always be friends. Christina words will never change that."
I hug Will before I leave. This distraction has already set me off my pace. I walk up to the man who stands by the stairs, and walk next to someone. That way, I won't be seen. I gracefully float down to Earth. I haven't seen Tobias in person since his ironic birth date of April 4th. I walk down the once familiar streets of Chicago. I stop as I see Tobias on the street. He's walking with Zeke. I walk besides them, but nobody notices me. They are having a light conversation about their newest song, which Tobias wrote about me. They both walk into Tobias's apartment. Now I know something more than a light chat is about to happen.
"Dude," Zeke begins. "I know you don't like being around Caleb because he reminds you of Tris. But today is her birthday, and I know you are both grieving, even if you don't want to show it." For the first time today, I could see the grief in Tobias's eyes. " You're the only one here who knew Tris as well as Caleb did. You could both benefit by talking about it. You know we don't help as you band members. Christina recently proved that she doesn't help. She was being a bit rude to you, instead of helpful. Think about it man. Well, I have to meet Shauna now. She'll get angry at me. I don't want her to be angry at me. It's not good." Zeke exited the room leaving Tobias alone.
I studied Tobias's face up close. He looked a bit sad, but he appeared very reserved. He looked like he didn't know what to do. For the first time, I felt like he needed my comfort and support.
I decided that I would say something to Tobias. I go closer to him, and whisper in his ear. " It'll be fine in the end, Tobias. You can keep on loving and doing whatever you want. It's your life, not Zeke's of Christina's. All the choices you make come down to you."
Tobias looks around the room, his eyes wide. He looks a bit scared, but his eyes look amazed. He looks like he wants to hear my voice one more time. He wants to. Then, he just shakes his head. "Shake it off," he tells himself. "Stop hearing things. Tris isn't coming back."
"Oh Tobias," I whisper to him softly. "Don't pretend that your simply hearing my voice. You're hearing it because I am speaking to you. And I will see you again soon. Tomorrow, in fact, at this same hour. If you choose to stay and wait is up to you, but I've never been wrong. I might've lied, but I will be here tomorrow. See you then." With that, I floated out of the room. Tobias still wore a puzzled and slightly terrified face, but he seemed awed. He seemed content after hearing my voice. I was certain that he would wait for me there tomorrow, even though he thought he was hearing things. Tobias will want to see if it's actually me.
I walked out of his house and began hunting for a place to stay. I settled on Tobias's apartment. That way I wouldn't get caught by anyone searching, and I could meet him tomorrow. I didn't want to break his heart. I love him too much to do that to him. I find a way to Tobias's couch once he falls asleep. I settle there, and think about what tomorrow will be like. I shouldn't reveal everything, but I should say something of importance. On those thoughts, I fall asleep.
Tobias POV
The day before, I heard Tris talking to me. Or at least is sounded like Tris. Nobody else was around, and I was bit disturbed by it. I still think that somebody may be trying to mess with me. The advice was good, and it reminded me of something Tris would say. I decided to call Cara and make our recording later so I could see what was going to happen. As much as I hate to admit it, I still hope Tris will come back. I want to hear her one more time, and to hear her voice yesterday was nice. So, I sit and wait in my room for Tris come. She said she'd be there by three thirty, and it was already two.
Tris POV
I waited around Tobias's room as he wasted time this morning. I felt a twinge of guilt for not going back to heaven, but it would be worth it. I would reveal everything to Tobias, and love would go strong again.
I decided to go outside to catch some fresh air before our talk. I left at two thirty, so I had roughly a half hour before meeting Tobias. I saw spirits left and right. As I headed toward Tobias's apartment, I crashed into another spirit.
"Watch it" said a familiar cruel voice.
"Sorry, I need to go see someone," I say apologetically.
"Are you off to see that murderer Four? He's more trouble than he's worth. No different for you, I suppose as you stabbed me."
"Eric?!" I say surprised. "You look different… and you seem nicer."
"Well, if I'm mean I lose my privileges. I've got thousands of mean comments running through my head, but I'm here to wreck someone's day. Well, I come to Tobias next time."
Eric pushes me down and walks…no, floats away. I float to Tobias room and glance at the clock. It read 3:30 pm. WHAT?! I couldn't have talked to Eric for that long. I don't like him at all. I slowly turn and see Tobias over on his desk. He has some papers on his desk. I glance over to see that they are new song lyrics about the pain I just caused him. I floated out of the room, and ran to Heaven. "Oh, Tobias," I whisper as I make it back to my house. "When will I ever stop hurting you?"
Tobias POV
I waited for Tris for thirty minutes, and she didn't come. I knew that this was either somebody's idea of a sick joke, or I was just hearing things. Even though I didn't hear Tris again today, I still had hope that she might come another day. Even though this was fake, I can't help but hope to actually see Tris again. Other than that small sliver of hope, I in a rotten mood. Tris still really affected me. Joke or not, hearing that voice was really realistic. It really sounded like Tris. Unless somebody recorded her voice, it was her. Nobody can do such an accurate imitation.
I spent my day writing more song lyrics. I didn't publish all the songs I wrote, so I had a folder full of songs. I either rejected the songs, or they were too embarrassing to publish. Some of the songs were very personal. They explored memories with Tris, my deep sadness, and I wish had happened.
As I began to write I heard my mom begin to yell "Tobias, what are you doing? Are you writing another song? Your band overworks you too much."
"Mom," I replied calmly. "I'm in my room writing another song. It's a put you emotions down on paper to let them out type of song. It's not for my band."
I heard her grumbling, and continued to work.
After a few hours of writing, I finished the song. I rescheduled the recording for the other song, saying I wasn't feeling well, so I could finish this one.
I had a lot of love in my life
I had a lot of love in the dark
But some new love just won't kick start
Me and my broken heart
I want to see my girlfriend tonight
Hold me so I'm not falling apart
She died a while ago but she still controls
Me and my broken heart
Yeah...
Shot gun, aimed at our hearts, you got one
Tear me apart and then some
Yet we call this love
Though you are dead and I am alive
I still love you with all my heart
How do we call this love
It seems like I've been losing control
When you tell me I'm not alone
When I say
I had a lot of love in my life
I had a lot of love in the dark
But some new love just won't kick start
Me and my broken heart
I want to see my girlfriend tonight
Hold me so I'm not falling apart
She died a while ago but she still controls
Me and my broken heart
Maybe some part of you just hates me
Your voice plays games with me
Yet I still love you
One time tell me to meet you tonight
To make it easy, you lie
And say it's all for love
It seems like I've been losing control
When you tell me I'm not alone
When I say
I had a lot of love in my life
I had a lot of love in the dark
But some new love just won't kick start
Me and my broken heart
I want to see my girlfriend tonight
Hold me so I'm not falling apart
She died a while ago but she still controls
Me and my broken heart
Whoa oh, whoa oh
Me and my broken heart
Whoa oh, whoa oh
Me and my broken
Yeah, yeah, yeah
(Me and my broken)
Yeah, yeah, yeah
How do we call this?
It's just me
It's just me
It's just me
Me and my broken heart
I had a lot of love in my life
I had a lot of love in the dark
But some new love just won't kick start
Me and my broken heart
I want to see my girlfriend tonight
Hold me so I'm not falling apart
She died a while ago but she still controls
Me and my broken heart
As I read my lyrics, I realized they were golden. Tears clouded my eyes as I practiced it. Whoever played that trick on me was going to pay. I promise them a life of misery… as soon as I recover from my sadness.
The song is based on"Me and My Broken Heart" by Rixton. Please leave reviews! Good or bad, anything is appreciated. Please answer my poll. The winning category will get a fanfic written about it! I'll wrap up the results by Chapter 5 or 6... I'll see. Thanks to all those who reviewed! I've had a song in every chapter...more than expected:)
~Dauntless Pokemon Ride
