Disclaimer: I do Not own the lyrics to "When You're Gone" and as usual I do not own anyone in the story.

Chapter 4

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart,
I'm missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok

Jo stared out the window as Dean drove towards Bobby's place all she could think about was the last look on her Mother's face before the building exploded. Tears quickly came to eyes she tried to not let anyone see them, but knew Dean saw. Dean took his hand off the wheel and held it out to Jo as she looked up and gave him a brave smile as she took it.

"I now know how you feel Dean and Sam I just never imagined the pain would hurt so bad" Jo replied softly.

"To be truthful Jo the pain will never go away, but Ellen loved you and she did what she thought was best" Dean replied.

"Still it hurts like hell we did not always agree on what I should do with my life but I just never imagined" Jo could not say anything more her heart was really hurting now.

The tears would not go away either and Jo was never the girl who cried a lot. Believe it or not Jo was a very strong lady and Dean finally saw it.

Before anyone realizes it they are now at Bobby's place and he was waiting outside to greet them all and yes Sam called Bobby to fill him in about Ellen and Jo.

"Come here sweetheart" Bobby replied.

Jo ran into Bobby's arms as he held her tight, tears were shed on both sides, and soon Bobby was embracing Dean and Sam and even Castiel also.

"You guys go inside I just want a little time to think but I won't be long" Jo said softly.

The guys nodded, everyone but Dean went inside. He saw his precious Jo crying softly, so he did what he thought was best. He went up to her and embraced her and they just held on to each other for a few minutes until Dean spoke up.

"I feel so guilty Jo, I feel I am the cause of Ellen's death" sobbed Dean.

Dean rarely ever got emotional in front of anyone, Sam and possibly Bobby were the only ones to ever see this side of him, and he felt ashamed right now breaking down in front of Jo.

"No Dean you have no reason to be guilty" replied Jo.

"Yes I do Jo if you would not have come back to save me from those hellhounds you would not have gotten hurt and then Ellen would not have had to make that painful decision" yelled Dean.

Dean took a few steps back he held way too much inside of him for way too long, Jo reached out to embrace him but he pulled away as he looked at her.

"Not only am I responsible for Ellen's death, but I am also responsible for my Father's death also, Jo aren't you worried I may end up getting you killed"sobbed Dean.

"Dean, stop please" replied Jo.

" Honey you are not responsible for my Mom's or your Dad's deaths, they chose the path they wamted for us" Jo replied.

Jo cupped Dean's face in her hands as she leaned into him and kissed him ever so softly.

"Even though my Mom did scare you, she loved you and Sam very much and the reason I came back for you was I would have given up my life for yours in a heartbeat that is how much I care for you and that was my decision not yours so stop feeling guilty please" Jo replied softly.

"Then you shouldn't feel guilty also Jo, you are contradicting yourself, Ellen loved you so much she would have done anything for you and this was what she had to do to keep you safe Jo" Dean whispered.

"Well how about we make a deal, I will try to not feel guilty if you make me a promise you will try to do the same" said Jo.

"You have got yourself a deal Jo but it is okay to hurt and cry "whispered Dean. "And you know I do have pretty strong shoulders to cry on if need be " Dean softly said.

That last comment made Jo smile.

"You are amazing you know that my Mom use to tell me when John would come by he would brag about his sons he said Dean and Sam were the best sons he could ever have and you know what your father was right you guys are the best "Jo replied softly.

"How about we go in and just sit down and relax and talk with the guys" replied Dean.

"Sounds good to me, maybe we can share memories of Ash and Mom" Jo said softly.

Dean just smiles as he puts his arms around Jo as they walk into Bobby's house, little did they know secrets were about to come out that would change most of them forever.