Things did change but not a lot, she still worked and I was home with Takahashi getting beaten. But we did spend some time together, like going shopping and going to the movies. That still didn't fill that empty space that was left when my Dad left us. I remember it well, I was 9 years old but the fights were going on longer than that.
I used to stay up in my room with the door creaked open and listened to them yell for hours. Sometimes about their marriage, about money, and about me.
I never told Mom that I saw a women in our house with Dad. He told me not to tell her, or we wouldn't be a family anymore.
I didn't really understand what he meant but I kept my mouth shut. One day my Mom came home from work and heard the phone. I was listening upstairs like I always did, the phone stopped ringing and it went to voice mail. It was the same women that was in the house with Dad. My Mom was furious about the message that she threw the phone against the wall.
I knew then that this wasn't going to turn out right. Dad came home that night really late. Around 11:00p.m. and thought that my Mom was asleep but she was in the kitchen waiting for him to come home. I heard them yelling about the voicemail and then their conversation went to the electric bill Dad still hadn't paid. Then about how it would affect me if they got a divorce. So, they did and I was left in middle. They didn't ask how I would feel about this, just assumed that I would understand.
During that time I would always say I want to go live with Dad, but my Mom said that he would never be home because he'd too busy sleeping with other women than taking care of a child. My Dad said if I stayed with my Mom I would end up like her. A nosy, good-for-nothing, lair and that I would be alone for the rest of my life.
I really wasn't taking sides with either of them, I'd just listened and then I would walk away. I would usually remind them that they should stay together by putting up pictures of them together laughing, and kissing. They would just tear them down and say, "You know why we can't be together." Or, "Why are you doing this, Kouyou?" I was trying to make a point but, I guess they really didn't love each other. After the divorce was settled, Dad moved out right away. I only get to see him on holidays, Mom still doesn't like me seeing him.
I want my Dad back, I still haven't told him about the things Takahashi is doing to me. I think Dad would kill him if I did, and I don't want my Dad going to jail; then I'll never see him. Mom told me that if things aren't going okay with Takahashi then I should tell her. Where will get me? Beaten or raped to death. I'm sick today so I won't be going to school, and my Mom has to work today so I'll be home alone. Takahashi found a job, and will hopefully stay there until my Mom comes home.
I don't know why I'm afraid to tell my Mom that Takahashi is abusive, maybe because he might hurt my Mom. He never threatened to do something like that but he just might. I'm really bored looking at the rain pounding down on my window hopefully the power won't go out. I sit and try to think about what I'm going to do today, the headache I have is killing me and my throat wasn't any better. My phone started to ring, making me jump. I look over at it and the caller I.D. say it's Aoi calling me. I grab the phone and answer it.
"Hello."
"Hey, why aren't you at school?"
"I'm sick." I said coughing and trying to hold back my vomit.
"Ugh, you sound awful. Do you want me to come over after school?"
I wanted to say yes but I didn't know when Takahashi would be home.
"No, I'll be fine thanks."
"Okay, well I got to go and you need to rest so I'll call you later."
"Okay, bye." I hung up the phone and laid back down exhausted from just talking. I closed my eyes and tried to fall asleep but it was harder than I thought. I got up and went to the bathroom, I looked at myself in the mirror. I'm ugly, hideous I don't even know why I exist. I should just go under my bed and die. The phone rang making me jump, and my heart to start pounding. I walk out of the bathroom and pick up the phone.
"Hello?"
"Hey, Kouyou I'm coming home soon." It was Takahashi he was coming home.
I waited in my room with the door locked and tried to think of something. I couldn't call the police, Takahashi would just lie to them like he always did and then come after me. I heard the door open and I literally peed on myself. As I sat there soaked in my own urine, scared out of my mind waited for him to come and get me.
I closed my eyes and trembled as I heard the foot steps getting closer. The knock at my door made me open my eyes.
"Kouyou, why the hell is your door locked?"
I couldn't let him I just sat there staring at the door. I heard him messing with the lock and finally unlocking it; he opened the door with a smile on his face. I crawled to the corner of my bed. "Please, Takahashi no more please," I begged with tears coming down my face.
"No, I don't want this. I promise I be a better child."
"I don't care about that, I just care about you and your sweet little ass."
He grabbed both of my les and pulled me over to him, I screamed louder than I ever had in my whole life. I kicked numerous times but I was sick and weak; my kicks were nothing to him. He quickly pulled my off but I grabbed a book lying on the table next to my bed and hit him with it. I had enough time to pull my pants up and run.
I ran down the hallway toward the kitchen and grabbed the phone but; he grabbed me and took the phone out of my hands. He carried me back to my room and laid me down on the bed. I was exhausted, I didn't even know where I was for a second. I could feel a tug at my pants and he yanked them off. I tried to regain thought of where I was, and what was happening.
I suddenly felt a wet, cold substance being poured on my lower half. He was pouring a half empty bottle of beer on me,
"Please Don't-." He started to stroke my penis, he was laughing at the fact that I was crying.
"I going to enjoy this." He picked me up and turned me around so I was lying on my stomach, he got on top of me and started to whisper in my ear.
"I want to fuck your ass Kouyou."
"No, please don't." He covered my mouth and positioned himself at my entrance. I screamed but my screams were muffled. He slammed right into me hard, and with each thrust, a gasp came out of mouth. More tears flowed, and I was in utter pain. He quickened his pace and began whispering hurtful things to me.
"You're such a slut, I hope you rot." I could barley hear him over my screams.
Time passed by which felt like hours I was shaking, wet, and cold. I was still crying after Takahashi released in me, I wanted to die. He told me not to come out of my room until my Mother came home. I heard the door open and prayed that it was her. I heard her voice calling Takahashi and him telling her that I was on punishment for something I didn't do.
My door opened, the man that did this to me threw some clothes at me.
"Get washed up, you make me sick." He slammed the door, I got up and went to the bathroom to take a shower. I sat under the shower until the hot was all gone, at least I was safe under here.
~~~Next Weekend~~~
I get to see my Dad today, I hope he'll be happy to see me. I'm thinking about telling my Dad about Takahashi, I still don't know. I'm leaving and staying with him for the whole weekend, so I'll be getting a break. I had everything packed and ready to go. I was sitting outside with my Mom and Takahashi, my Dad was coming to pick me up.
I watched a black Camaro, I knew it was my Dad. The car stopped in front us, and Dad's new wife waved at us. My Dad got remarried, and had two daughters; my stepsisters.
They both got out of the car,
"Hi, Kouyou. Are you ready to go?" I nodded and got up but my Mom grabbed my arm.
"Now Kouyou, you need to behave while your gone okay."
"Okay, I will." I looked at Takahashi, which sent chills throughout my body. I got in my Dad's car, kept my mouth shut throughout the whole ride to his place.
When we arrived I had to call my Mom right away so she can know that I'm okay. Their house was really big, and I was always jealous when I came over. My stepsisters never bothered me, really. They were always making comments on how I looked like a girl, though. I thought that was annoying but what can you do.
You really can't kill a 5 and a 7 year old, I think I have problems for even thinking like that. I have my own room in this house too and my Dad is always trying to get me to stay here with him. I just can't leave my Mom alone, with Takahashi. I put my things down in my room and sat on the bed, I started to cry. I heard my step dad walk by,
"Hey' Kouyou what's wrong."
"Dad, can I stay with you for a little while."
"Sure, you can stay as long as you like; but why? Is there something going on at your Mom's?"
I nodded, I was ready to tell him.
"You know Takahashi, Mom's new husband?" He nodded, "well, he hits me all teh time and I can't say anything thing to Mom because he said that he would kill me if I did."
"Wha-What? Are you serious, he's hitting you." I nodded and showed him some of my bruises. "Hell no, that piece of crap if going to get it for real." "Dad, please don't do anything that might hurt Mom." "Hurt her, it seems that your the only who has been getting affected by this. Has he done anything else?" Tears began to form in my eyes,
"Kouyou, if he's done something else you have to tell me."
"He-he um, touches me sometimes."
"He touches you, and does he go any farther?"
"Y-yes, he raped me when I was turned 13, and has kept doing ever since." My Dad shook his head and stood up, I knew he was about to do something. He has temper that gets set off anytime something happens to me, and this is huge.
"Dad, I'm sorry."
"No, no no you don't have to be sorry about anything, it took you a hell of alot of courage to tell me this."
"You believe me?"
"Of course, why wouldn't I?"
"As many times as I've tried to tell the police this story, your the only Cop who's believed me."
