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Chapter 4
Kaien shook his head as he stared at his captain coolly. He was not expecting this and wasn't prepared for it. He hadn't expected to be approached by that man.
"Why Rukia?" Kaien's voice shook just slightly as he watched his captain stand from behind his desk. He coughed lightly then continued to speak to Kaien in a hushed voice so Rukia wouldn't be able to hear them if she was still on the deck.
"She is the one who ki-" Ukitake's voice shut off abruptly when he saw the look on Kaien's face. It was a murderous look daring Ukitake to finish that sentence.
"She didn't kill her. Miyako was dead long before her body died. Rukia….She didn't kill her." Kaien's eyes shown with a rage that took his captain by surprise, and he thought he knew Kaien.
"Well what ever the details he is demanding that he see you two." Ukitake was just as pleased as Kaien by that man's request but he had no right to with information from him no matter how much he knew it would hurt. Even after what had happened between Kaien and Miyako he was still in love with her.
"Well he's gonna have to settle for me." Kaine moved across the room slamming down into his chair. Ukitake frowned at his lieutenant. Kaien started to shuffle through papers and look at them. He was trying to keep busy when there was nothing for him to do. Ukitake had made sure there would be nothing when he returned.
"But Rukia should be the one to decied if she can go or not." Ukitake started but Kaien closed his eyes, his jaw tight a sign to be taken seriously.
"She doesn't need to get involve with things she doesn't even know anything about." Kaien growled trying to resist the urge to shout. Rukia wasn't ready, he knew it.
"You mean," Ukitake breathed in surprised, "You never told her?" Kaien's lips quirked.
"She wasn't ready."
Rukia sat alone under the shade by the pond. Her mind swam with her memories of this spot. She'd sat here on many occasions with Kaien and this spot, she ran her hand over the grass, this was the spot he had said the words that had made feel so safe. He said he would always be there for her, and she could always come to him with any problem she had. A sad smile slipped across her face as she remembered. She'd sat here with Miyako too. She had been a good friend, a mother, or big sister figure to her. Miyako helped her adjust to the soul reaper life and that of her new family. It was a difficult road and will be more so now. Still, the smile remained as she thought of the happy days she'd spent here.
"There's my old Rukia." Rukia's smile fell away startled by the voice. Kaien sat down besides her just like old times. He turned his dark eyes on her a half grin placed at his lips. But this was different. Rukia could barely stand to look at Kaien knowing that she had killed his wife. She knew how much he had loved Miyako she had been jealous on more then one occasion but she'd always respect her.
"How ya feeling?" She looked at the pond in front of them. Unable to see his face she took the pond in as comfort trying to hold back her sadness and guilt.
"That bad huh?" He sighed scratching the back of his neck. Silence over took them for a time as they both were deep in thought.
(A/n: Kaien's thoughts like this, Rukia's thoughts like this :D)
Its not the same when she's so sad, I wish I could make her smile again.
Why is he sitting here with me? How can he even stand to look at me, I murdered his beloved wife, I don't deserve to live.
Damn, what am I going to do? I can't tell her anything when she's like this, It will just have to wait till later. But I wish there was something I could do to make it easier for her.
I'm sorry Kaien, I want to say it but I can't open my mouth without crying. I don't want to cry anymore. I'm so weak I don't deserve to sit here with him when Miyako's dead.
Don't worry Rukia, I promise things will get better I just have to take care of a few things. I wont let anything hurt you again. Now why can't I just say that out loud?
Even now I want him to speak to me like old times, I want his comfort but I don't deserve it.
"Rukia I have to take care of a few things. I'll be gone for a day or so." Rukia's violet eyes lifted from the pond staring straight ahead in sadness. Don't go, She wanted to say but she had no right to hold him here. But still her heart ached greatly as it imagined the sleepless nights, the deafening sound of rain in her dreams. Her heart ached knowing Kaien would be gone.
"Will you be alright?" He put his hand on her shoulder making her look back at him. Her eyes were filled with such pain and misery. No, no I wont be alright Don't go!
"I will be fine, Sir." He flinched involuntary at her submissive tone. He withdrew his hand and stood. Rukia closed her eyes keeping face passive and calm.
"Try to cheer up Rukia. Everything will be alright." He whispered to her before walking away. Her hands clutched at her kimono as she listened to him go.
"D-don't go Kaien." She whispered helplessly as all was quiet around her once more.
Kaien stood out by the tree line a good distance from anyone that would bother him. He folded his strong arms across his chest and sighed. When was he gonna show up? He didn't want to be gone longer then was necessary. Kaien heard the leaves rustle just as a soft cooling breeze moved across him.
"Lieutenant." Kaien turned around as the tall man stepped out from the trees. His face was pale eyes red and sleepless. He had short brown hair with bangs that fell around his face. His dark blue eyes made him strikingly handsome, Kaien understood why Miyako chose him.
"About time." Kaien said trying to sound causally. The pain this man must be feeling Kaien thought frowning inside.
"Where is she?" The man demanded staring at Kaien his eyes filled with hatred.
"Where is the one that murdered my Miyako!" He shouted at Kaien.
"Calm down Kyo (orignall I know sorry couldn't think of a name!). I didn't want Rukia involved in this. What ever you need to ask, say it to me." Kyo's face drew back in rage but was overcome with grief.
"You must really care about her, to keep her out of this. Does she even know what Miyako and you were planning?" Kaien's lips tightened and he sighed.
"Everyone's been asking me that lately, and no she doesn't know." Kyo gave a half grin and shook his head.
"I miss her smile." Kyo said softly looking up at Kaien.
"I loved Miyako so much." Kaien smiled and nodded.
"I know I loved her too."
A/N: Hehe probably a bad ending to the chapter but I had to stop or else it would have been a really really long chapter lol Thanks for Reading and please Review
