A/N: Hey guys, back for another with Double Life! This story is actually really special, it was a gift from one of my readers and her sister, Tinkerticklez (Written by) and Dolphingirls (sent by) so guys hope you enjoy it as much as I did they've given me permission to post this so... Here we go! On with the twinning!

Hideki sighed as thunder boomed outside. The fourteen year old hadn't hated storms in a long time.

But when he had Tadashi had been there. Tadashi had protected him. Tadashi had comforted him.

Tadashi...

It was amazing how much pain seven letters could cause. Tadashi's funeral had been earlier that day, and the last of the people at the reception had left only an hour ago.

Both Hiro and Hideki had gone to bed immediately, hoping to escape the immense pain they both felt.

Hideki wasn't sure how it was going for Hiro but it certainly wasn't working out for him.

Thunder crashed again, louder this time. The noise reminded the teen of his last moments with his big brother. Just before he died saving him.

"Maybe if I had been faster. Maybe if I had been stronger." Hideki mumbled to nothing in particular.

"Maybe he would still be here…"

He knew it wasn't his fault, it was Callaghan's. But even so, he couldn't stop his mind from reviewing those awful moments over and over again, trying to find the place where he could have done something differently.

Something that might have saved his brother's life.

Hideki slid out of bed and crept quietly to what was now just Hiro's bedroom. He slowly opened door and crept inside.

Hideki couldn't honestly say why he was there. Maybe it was because he needed to see Tadashi's empty bed to remind himself that his brother was gone.

Or maybe it was because he wanted to feel his brothers presence through his things. It was most likely a mixture of both.

Hideki quietly shuffled around Tadashi's portion of the room and observed his things. He paused spotting his own San Fransokyo Ninjas wristband on the desk. It matched the hat his brother had never really taken off.

He picked up the wristband wondering how it had ended up on Tadashi's desk. It had been very important to Hideki and he sighed remembering when he had gotten it almost six years ago.

[Flashback]

"Ugh, why am I so broke!"

Hideki watched Tadashi frantically searching through his things for money.

It was a late Saturday morning and Aunt Cass had taken Hiro to an all day robotics workshop, leaving Tadashi and Hideki home alone.

Tadashi had promised Hideki they would play something but had ended up raiding his room for loose cash after receiving a phone call.

Supposedly, one of Tadashi's friends had managed to find a twisted, weird way to buy sold out tickets for the San Fransokyo Ninjas game the next day.

They were Tadashi's favorite Baseball team, and he had been dying to go to a game for years now.

Every time the team played in the area there was something in Tadashi's way; homework, Aunt Cass having a tough day in the shop, the twins being sick, and so on.

But this time the only thing in his was money.

His friend had to stop by to collect the money for the tickets immediately and would be there any moment.

Unfortunately, Tadashi had just spent the majority of the money he had saved up on some expensive hydro-motors he and Hiro and wanted to try out. To make matters worse, Aunt Cass had left literally ten minutes before Tadashi received the call, and she had forgotten her phone.

Therefore, begging her to lend him cash wasn't an option.

Tadashi picked up his backpack and dumped its components on the floor, hoping to find something there.

Unfortunately he found nothing.

"I have five dollars you can borrow."

Hideki offered quietly but Tadashi just sighed and reached forward to ruffle his little brothers hair.

"I really appreciate the offer Oututo but I need something more like fifty dollars before I even get close."

Tadashi moved to his desk drawers,

dumping them out on the floor and searching through the piles.

"Why do tickets have to be so expensive anyway?"

"You're making a big mess" Hideki pointed out. And Tadashi paused, running his fingers through his hair as he looked at the mess he had made.

"Yeah... Your right buddy. I'd better clean this up before Aunt Cass gets back and-"

"You'll never get a chance to play with me!" Hideki wailed interrupting his big brother mid sentence.

Tadashi frowned at his brothers outburst. "I play with you all the time knucklehead"

Hideki shook his head sadly "but Hiro's always here... You never play with just me!" Hideki exaggerated the "just me" part by pointing towards himself with both arms in an almost desperate manner.

Everyone who knew Hideki knew that he loved and admired Hiro out of the galaxy and back. But this had nothing to do with that. It was simply Hideki wanting time alone with his big brother.

After all, Hiro shared a room and a hobby with Tadashi. He had him for most of the day and all night. But Hideki had to struggle to find the little times in between.

Tadashi sighed looking around the room one more time before reaching into the pile of mess and picking up the San Fransokyo Ninjas hat and wristband he wore all of the time.

He put the hat on his head and then, to the younger brother's surprise, he pressed the wristband on Hideki's wrist.

"You know what? forget it! I'll watch the game on T.V. tomorrow, and you can watch it with me." Tadashi said hugging his little brother.

Hideki gasped, shaking his head "but you've been trying to get tickets to the game for years. You can't not go because of me!"

Tadashi smiled "oh yes I can! You know why? Because you're waaaay more important to me." He said as he tickled the younger boy who was still trapped in his arms from the hug.

"There'll be other games, but right now I made a promise to you so I'm going to keep it."

Tadashi released Hideki, who bit his lip for a moment, taking in what His brother had just said.

Seconds later Tadashi felt his brother's small arms wrap around him. "Thank you Dashi!" He said with a huge smile.

Tadashi picked the younger boy up grinning.

"Anytime bonehead. Now come on, let's go play."

[Present]

Hideki wiped away the tears that were freely falling down his cheeks as he put the wristband back where it had been on his dead big brother's desk.

Tadashi had never taken the wristband back, and whenever Hideki had gone somewhere with his brother, so did the wristband.

The piece of plastic provided Hideki with a memory the teen cherished with all of his heart.

Tadashi had been the best older brother ever and Hideki wondered if he would... If he could ever truly heal from his big brother's death.

"Deki?"

Hideki whirled around to see Hiro sitting up in his bed looking at him.

"Oh, Hiro. I didn't mean to wake you! I'm sorry. It's just..."

Hideki's voice trailed off as his eyes gazed around Tadashi's part of the room once more before he crumbled, falling against the wall and bring his knees to his chest.

Tadashi was gone, he was never coming back.

It was one thing to know that, and boy did that hurt.

But it was an entirely different matter for the heart to accept it, which was what had just happened.

And that was agony.

His big brother was gone!

Sobs shook Hideki's body as he curled up into a ball wanting to block out the world.

He wanted to go back in time.

Go back to being unconscious in the hospital, before his world had flipped upside down.

He wanted to go back to before the fire and stop Callaghan. Stop his brother from getting hurt. Stop the whole thing.

Suddenly Hideki felt arms wrap around him and he tensed up before realizing it was Hiro.

Hideki rested his head against Hiro's chest sobbing as Hiro hugged him tightly, rubbing his back.

It seemed like hours went by before

Hideki finally calmed down and Hiro spoke.

"I know it hurts Otouto but it's going to be okay..."

"Yeah... I guess" Hideki said in an unconvincing tone as he looked down "I'm really sorry I woke you up Hiro-nii"

"No point in being sorry, I wasn't asleep anyway. I heard you come in."

Hideki nodded slowly. The two sat in silence for a few more moments before Hiro broke it. "

You wanna stay with me for the night?"

"Please?" Hideki mumbled hopefully.

Hiro stood up, then helped Hideki up, leading the younger twin to his bed. He crawled in, then lifted the covers up to allow his twin to slide in next to him.

Hiro put his arm around Hideki and the two listened to the storm in silence for a little while before they finally managed to drift off to sleep.

Because even though Tadashi couldn't be there to dry away their tears or to comfort them, they were together.

And as Hiro had said before,

"Then it's all good."