Julius was restless. It was another 12.5 hours to St Petersburg. He longed to play chess. He did not know where this came from, as he never played chess in his entire life, but he knew he was good at it. Julius shrugged the thought away. He glanced at Kururugi. He sat sulking in his seat, seating with his back to Julius, like a petulant child. A sudden scene clouded his thoughts, a young boy that looked like a younger version of Kururugi doing the same thing. Had he known Kururugi beforehand? Lelouch stood up in alarm, his left eye throbbing badly. Yes, he had. Memories started rushing in. Nunnally…Mother…Ashford Academy…Zero… then they started disappearing. Something powerful was trying to wrest control. "NO! I WON'T LET YOU!" Lelouch was wrecked in agony, twisting and turning, like he was fighting an invisible intruder. He pushed the jar of water and glasses off the table. They clanked to the floor and a discordance of shattered glass could be heard. His eyes blinked red from the Geass. Lelouch clung on to the sound of his name. That was most important. "Lelouch…Lelouch…" he repeated, trying to drill the name into his memories. However, grasping onto his own name was harder than he thought. He arched his back in agony, wrecked in shudders. Slowly, bit by bit, like water trickling from a small unseen hole, scenes of his sister and friends came back. Lelouch tried remaining calm. Why was this happening to him all of a sudden? He tried to think but he was distracted by something insidious at the back of his mind, waiting for a moment of weakness to get back at him. Lelouch's left eye throbbed. He began to lean his elbow on the leather couch, supporting his left eye. He felt incredibly thirsty, like his throat was on fire. How long had he been suffering for? It felt like an eternity to him. Lelouch heard Suzaku coming back in, he did not even realize Suzaku had left the room. "Suzaku…Would you…Would you get me some water?" He raised his hand towards Suzaku, trying to cling on to Suzaku, to his memories. "I'm begging you…Get me water…Get me water…" He cannot succumb to it, think of Nunnally. It was helping, but she started slipping away...her face blurring…and then, Lelouch fell into a deep sleep, exhausted by the turmoil, his body relaxed as Julius Kingsley overtook his mind again.
When his name was being called out with such familiarity and desperateness, he knew Lelouch, ZERO was back. Lelouch was having spasms, talking to himself, as if he belonged to a mental hospital. Suzaku only felt disdain for Lelouch, the great Zero and his Black Knights which threaten Britannia's hold on Japan is fighting for his memories. Pathetic. However, he felt pleased too. Fighting with a Geass…Lelouch was bound to lose, unable to determine which is his real identity, it only caused pain and confusion for himself. This was indeed a worse fate than death. Suzaku agreed with Charles. He was about to reach for the water as ordered but Lelouch pushed the jar of water off the table, aiding Suzaku, spilling its contents to the carpeted floor, the only thing that could have save him. Suzaku had the urge to laugh. The Great Zero which had won countless battles against Britannia, to the verge of conquering Area 11 due to his mental intelligence, has destroyed the 'cure' by himself without knowing it. He looked up, I hope I avenged you Euphie, even if you would disprove with bestowing such a curse on him. Suzaku quickly walked out of the room, before any guards came in and see what a wreck Julius Kingsley was. Thank god the room was soundproof. He stood outside, and ordered the guards patrolling not to enter the room as Julius was having a bad headache. Suzaku glanced at the passing greenery, how he wished things turned out differently. It could have been Euphie look at this with him, or the Student Committee on a road trip. But Lelouch had to be Zero and destroy everything. Suzaku furrowed his brows, getting angrier at Lelouch. "Sir Kururugi, we'll be arriving at St. Petersburg in 12 hours." A guard disrupted him from his churning thoughts. How long had he been standing there for? "I see." "How is the Military Advisor feeling?" "He's fine. "You may go." "Yes, my lord!" Re-entering the room, Lelouch was more composed, "Suzaku…Would you…Would you get me some water?" Lelouch raised his hand towards Suzaku, "I'm begging you…Get me water…Get me water…" Suzaku stood still, never in his dreams would he allow Lelouch to win his father's Geass. He wanted Lelouch to suffer, for all of eternity as necessary. Every time he stared at Lelouch. All he can see is the scene where he killed Euphie. All Suzaku could do was stare at him in disgust as Lelouch became lost to the world. Lelouch, you lost, again.
