Living On
Chapter 4-
Hey everyone! I know you want to find out about the note and all…but I wanted to apologize for any confusion, your reviews confused me at first until I reread my story. I always hand write the story before I type, but this time I didn't, so tell me if it's better.
Disclaimer: don't own Twilight. NO reason to breathe.
The note, I guess you can say it wasn't a bad note. It just made me feel like, horrible? That word isn't even close, though. Jacob's note, was meant as to make me feel better, I guess. But it did that exact opposite.
Here's what it said:
Dear Bella,
I am terribly sorry, but we cannot be friends anymore. I just wanted to say I really liked being friends with you. I stayed with you, even though I knew we could never truly be more than friends. I knew that you loved him, but I don't believe he loves you. I think it's all just a trick, because you are so special. They wanted you for your powers, the powers you might receive because of your ability to block others.
Like you said, the future-seeing bloodsucker probably saw you coming, and what a great bloodsucker you could become. Why did I stay so long with you, you ask? Because I love you. More than anything. Monster or not. I hope you're happy with him, Bella. Because if he ruins everything for you, then you will have to live for the rest of eternity thinking of how happy you could have been without him, and with me. I am writing this at the time I heard you came back from saving your friends. I decided to give this to Charlie, because it might be too hard for me to speak to you, and walk away, knowing I won't see you again.
I am sorry I can never see you again. I love you. Don't forget me.
Goodbye forever,
Jacob Black
Jacob loved me. I could tell how much he liked me by the look in his eye in the forest. But, he loved me. And, I basically did what Edward had done long ago to me. I didn't love him. I didn't tell him I loved him, and say it was all a lie, though. So, he must be hurting in some way close I had been. Maybe not as much, but anything close to what I had gone through, is terrible enough. I did that to Jake!
I am such a horrible person. I couldn't have done anything to prevent it, though. I'm pathetic now; I am trying to make myself feel better. Isn't that Edwards job? Oh, right, he's a little busy doing good-knows-what now.
If Charlie got this note so long ago, why would he not have given me the note? Even after all this time I got back? Knowing Charlie, he probably read it. It did say bloodsucker a couple times… Oh on, Jake! What an idiot!
But, why didn't Charlie say anything? Well, he knew he shouldn't have been reading it in the first place. He still should have given me the note, even though he knew how it would hurt me….. Charlie knew how happy I was with Edward, and I would always be. Oh, he must have figured the hims meant Edward. Charlie's not incredibly stupid. Oh, he wanted me not to worry, about hurting Jake, he wanted me to be happy, and not feel like I did when Edward left.
He loved me so much, he didn't want me to know that I had hurt someone deeply, almost like Edward did to me. Why did so many people love me, I didn't deserve any of it. I stood up weakly and went to Alice's side, trembling ever so slightly.
Alice grabbed my shoulders with her tiny snow-white hands. She looked me straight in the eye, and smiled weakly.
"You need Jasper?" was all she said.
I weakly smiled and nodded. Passing out sounded pretty good right now.
Before I knew it, Alice was cradling me, calling for Jasper, I heard her say something like, "I need you to make her pass out, I don't want her to see him, just yet."
And, before I could open my eye to see what she was talking about, I felt Jasper's cool hand on my skin….
