arbitrary
by: yorunaka
Taking "prompt 10 – immortality" further
029. cruel
He had thought about it before – of preserving her smile, her laughter, her scowls, her nimble hands, her everything.
He had thought of granting her the immortality he wished for her to have because she was worth it. She was worth his own life - his own last breath.
But the more rational and humane part of him rejected the idea. He knew that giving her eternal youth would only serve to his own benefit. He was afraid of losing her. He was afraid of losing someone so important again.
He knew that granting her immortality would in turn place her on the position he so desperately tried to escape from.
It was cruel – even more so because immortality would simply multiply the pain he feared a thousand fold. Not being able to die meant that she would constantly live her life watching as everyone she loves leaves her.
He didn't want her to go through something so painful.
So even now – even with her lying in front of him, barely breathing, all he could do was look at her and grip her hand tightly as he struggled to say that everything will be okay even though they both knew that it wouldn't.
A/N: This felt like it could stand on its own hence I'm leaving this as is.
As much as I would like to say that I've been working on this recently despite the lack of posts, I haven't. I want to but a bigger portion of me just doesn't know what to write. So I'm ridding myself of all the unnecessary pressure and am now back to writing with no clear direction whatsoever because it seems like that's what really works for me.
