Hi... I have decided to do this chapter in Derek's POV. I hope you like it. I will try my best to be in character for you guys but it will be hard. Please review. I love the reviews I got and I am keeping my promise. Two reviews each chapter and you will get a new one. Please review. I do not own Life with Derek.
Chapter Three: Derek's Secret
I have always been in love with her. I may have not known it at first but I know. I felt terrible when I sprained her ankle. I remember feeling something strange when she wore a blue dress in our junior year. It wasn't revealing or anything. It was the first time I realized that she was absolutely stunning. She was dating my best friend. Sam was all she could talk about. Sam was perfect, Sam was smart. Why can't you be like Sam, Derek? I hated this guy for stealing the one I love. I forgot about her for awhile, I really had cared for Sally and Kendra, but something was missing. I had always yearned for Casey. She would never be mine.
I watched her parade with Sam, Max, Truman, and Noel. It felt she was doing it just to piss me off because she would always come home to me and fight. It was like having sex. She would get all hot and bothered. It took everything I had not to kiss her. I started to go out with people just because I wanted to. My flavors of the week, they would get my mind off of her for a little bit and if it didn't I would just imagine her instead of the other woman. It helped. I lost my virginity to Kendra wishing it was Casey. Every time after that I always imagined Casey was the one withering underneath me from pleasure. Afterword we would cuddle and I would pretend it was Casey. I was pretending throughout my high school years.
I remember the day my dad told me my mom died. I had just come home from hockey practice when he knocked on my door. He told me we needed to talk. I thought that he found out about my crush on Casey.
"Someone's been in an accident." HE placed his hand on my knee. Oh God was it Casey?
"Oh god, was it Casey?" I asked showing my fear. My dad gave me a weird look and looked directly in my face.
"No, it was your mom." Oh god. What have I done? "Derek? Why would you care if Casey was hurt?" I looked at the ground. Damn it! I was an idiot. I should've kept my mouth shut!
"I kinda like her." I said, looking my father in the eyes. He stayed quiet for awhile until he stood up and placed his hand on my shoulder.
"Derek, I am so sorry." He said. We heard a creak and I stood very still, it had to be Casey. My father stood up and walked to Casey. "It is very rude of you Casey to listen to our conversation." He shut the door on her face. His face showed complete fear. "Do you think she heard?"
"God, I hope not." I uttered, still shocked beyond belief.
"As I was saying, I am sorry. I didn't notice it and it has completely left me baffled. I should've noticed, it was obvious, I am happy for you son."
"What?"
"You have found love." He said completely calmed.
"But with my step sister."
"I expected it; I just didn't expect you to openly admit it to me. I like Casey for you, she evens you out. Now about your mother, I don't want you to go to it. It would deeply upset you and I don't think you need it." Crap, my own mother died and I didn't feel anything. How could I, she was a horrible mother. I nod and he heads to my door. "I am really happy for you son, you should tell her." He said and left. I stood shocked.
The next day I got arrested for the first time. I had walked in the school ready to tell Casey I loved her then I saw her. She was talking to Sam, he was her ex! They weren't supposed to be friendly with each other. I walked right up to him; I saw him lean down and whisper something in her ear. I freaked out. I punched him in the face, multiple times; I only stopped when the police pulled me off of him. They handcuffed me and pushed me toward the cruiser.
"Der-ek! Why did you do that" Casey ran out after me. I did it because I was jealous, I wanted to shout. But just gave her the evilest look. How could she do that to me? She should know I did it because Sam was flirting with her. I let the officer push me into the cruiser.
She bailed me out, it gave me a glimmer of hope that she liked me to. She told me she did it because she didn't want to give George a heart attack, my hope faltered. My grades lowered to D's and F's because she had been transferred into all of my classes. I stopped fighting with her because maybe she would start liking me.
"Okay Derek, tell me what the hell happened." Casey looked at me after picking me up at the police station. I had vandalized a teacher's car; it wasn't my fault that the teacher had the same car as Max. Max had been making fun of Casey at lunch and I wanted to get back at him.
"None of your business." I grumbled at her and she pulled the car over. I couldn't tell her that she was connected to all off my outbursts. She looked at me with a hurt look on her face.
"It is my business Derek." She looked at the wheel. "I miss the old you, trust me, it's as much of a surprise to me then you. I thought I hated you that way, but I hate you more this way. Please just tell me." I sighed, she liked me for me! I was jumping up and down in my head. I started to cry happy tears that turned to tears of hate. She would never like me, I was a complete fool. I heard Casey stomp on the brakes.
"It hurts Casey." I had been a fool to think she liked me.
"What hurts?" Casey opened my door. She pulled me into her arms. After awhile, she let go and started the car. She headed towards the park. When we got there, I took her hand, I needed contact. After a couple of minutes I figured out that she expected me to explain. I couldn't tell her.
"My mom died." I sobbed. I was so happy I could think of something. "The funeral was today, but I couldn't go. George wouldn't let me, said she wasn't a good mother. She wasn't, but Casey, she was my mom."
I made it seem like it was the problem. I should've thought it out more carefully because she took me to my mom's funeral. I convinced her to come in because I wasn't going through this torture alone. After the service I saw Kevin approaching me. He pulled me into a hug.
"I never thought you would come, after what she did. I am so sorry about your mother." He cried to me.
"Kevin, it's alright." I turned to Casey and told her too come here. "Casey, this is Kevin, Kevin this is Casey."
"It is very nice to meet you." Casey said as they shook hands.
"Derek, your girlfriend?" He asked. Man I wished!
"No Kevin, she's my step sister." I said, with a little disappointment. He smiled at me.
"Derek, that means nothing. There is nothing wrong with going out with your step sister." I smiled.
After we all talked about my mother, I was ready to go. She was going to leave Kevin to beg George to get back together with her. My dad loves Nora. I expressed my anger to Casey. That was the best thing I could ever do. She had come to my side and pushed my seat back. She was sexy, and I knew that I looked at her with lust in my eyes.
She opened my pants and pulled my underwear down, rolled a condom on me. Was this really happening? My fantasies coming true. She smiled at me and climbed on top.
Sex with her was better than I could ever imagine. The next day we were arrested. She didn't talk to me. I wanted to talk to her about a relationship, but she kept avoiding me. Six month's had passed and she wouldn't talk to me. I started to become depressed because of this. I explained everything to my dad, and he and Nora decided to set me up on a date with Sally. I didn't want to go, I loved Casey. I confronted Nora in the kitchen and she told me she would take care of it. Then she ordered me to go out on a date.
"Sally." I stepped up to her. She was also beautiful but nothing compared to Casey. She hugged me.
"Your father told me that you needed someone to talk to." She held my hand. I poured everything out to her. "I know how it feels. I slept with my boyfriend, the net day he broke up with me. That's why George set us up."
"Sally, I don't love you, I never did." I admitted.
"I know, you love Casey, don't worry I never loved you. Why are you sitting here with me?" I told her everything again, making it clearer. It took two ours and it was time for me to go home. Sally had convinced me to talk to Casey. I rushed into her room and stopped dead in my tracks. Her room had been stripped down to nothing. I ran through the house looking for Casey. I found my dad.
"I don't know what happened son, but Nora kicked Casey out. Casey left the kids a token, maybe she left you one." I gulped and nodded heading into my room. I turned it upside down. When I didn't find anything I lay down and wanted to cry. I heard something crinkle and lifted my pillow. There was a picture of Casey, it was her lying in the park, her shirt had ridden up and someone took a picture. I flipped it over and read 'I will always love you'. That was when I cried.
I felt devoid of any emotion. She had left me without saying goodbye, but left me something that would remind me of her. The note on the back. I did what I did and I couldn't stop it. I wanted to feel something.
"Derek?" Sally said as she opened her door. I pushed inside and kissed her hard. She kissed me back with passion. We crashed into the wall, tearing at each other clothes. I put a condom on as fast as I could. Once down with that, I pushed into her with a force that it was painful/pleasure. I heard her moan and I sped up. It wasn't long before we both reached our peaks.
After that I would go to her when I felt nothing. I was dead inside. She was just a booty call. Even after ten years, I felt nothing towards m girlfriend. I just used her for sex. I was happy that one of the Venturi's got to be happy. Edwin was marrying Liz, the love of his life. Marti had married at age nineteen to the love of her life.
"Honey, I can't wait to tell your family we are getting married." Sally screeched in my car. I rolled my eyes. The only reason I proposed to her was because of the press. They expected the sexiest hockey player and the model to get married. I grunted and pulled into the drive way. I wish Casey was here. That she would surprise me at the reunion. Tell me that she left because she had to and that she had wanted to stay with me. I would drop Sally in a heartbeat. We would get married and have ten kids because we wanted to make up all the time we had lost. But that was just a dream, wishful thinking. Sally was the one I was going to marry; I would never have kids with her, and live my emotionless existence. I put my shades on and almost laughed when the song came on, but I hadn't laughed in ages. I pulled up the driveway and got out. I heard Sally whine something about being a gentleman. I opened her door, and she crushed my arm. We walked up the steps and opened the door. Derek Venturi will not knock or ring doorbells. I heard voices coming from the living room. I stepped in and saw a sight that shocked my nerves.
"Congrats! Who did you two meet?"
"They met in high school, freshman year. They started dating in sophomore year. Got engaged at eighteen, married at nineteen." I said. Casey was here. She was wearing that blue dress that I love. She looked amazing, god I missed her.
"Casey!" Sally yelled and hugged her, Casey looked uncomfortable. Man, I missed her. I knew I was eye fucking her, but I didn't care.
"M-o-m." I heard someone say. I turned to look at the voice. Holy shit! This ten year old kid was an exact replica of me. I stepped closer to him. "You know Derek Venturi?" I smiled evilly; this had to be my son.
"Yes she does. We know each other very well."
"Orion, this is Derek Venturi, my step brother, and also your father." I heard Sally yell in the background, Nora yells at the disgrace in her living room. I didn't care though. I had a son. Obviously Orion didn't know that I was his father. Was Casey ashamed of me?
