chappie 4... sorry for the delay... but i'm really happy i'm through with 2 of my exams.. i have 1 more left!! haha!!
this chapter is too Kai-centric. i'm typing the one next to this and it's Diva-centric... i'm hoping i could make the one next to it focused on Diva too...or maybe both of them... i dunno...
disclaimer: don't own bloodplus...
Thinking Diva was at his house made him flinch and grip the glass he held tighter. What in heaven's name am I doing? He burried his eyes behind his other hand in frustration.
"Hey! Watch that innocent glass!" Sousuke, the bar tender, scolded. Kai peeked between his fingers. Seeing the old man wasn't really happy with the idea of him focusing anger on the 'innocent glass', he dropped his hand down and pushed the glass closer to the old man. "Surrendering it or asking for another glass?"
Kai didn't answer but Sousuke could tell it was the latter. The old man sighed heavily, took the glass and propped it on the sink. Kai furrowed his brow and sighed heavily.
"I know you're disappointed," Sousuke went around the bar, made his way to Kai's side, and sat down. "Fine, I'll try to take you more seriously."
Kai cursed under his breath.
"Kid, who will believe you? What kind of person will believe someone in 'SLUMBERS' is communicating with you through your mind? An idiot."
Kai slammed his hands on the table with extra effort than needed and stood to leave.
Sousuke sighed. "Sit down, kid."
Kai did so, for the sake of taking the chance to convince someone, it seemed. "So...finally want to be an idiot?"
"I will try to open my mind a little more this time." Sousuke assured. He waited for some sort of acknowledgement from Kai before saying anything. Kai leaned on the table, beckoning the bartender his permission. "You told me you don't really like the idea of her staying at your house."
The youngster nodded lazily. "I don't think I will ever trust her..."
"Apparently...and right now, I'm guessing you have no plans on going home." Sousuke pulled out a cigar and offered one to Kai, who declined.
"I don't want to... all this, I think, had just deeply sunk in me. It's making me sick." Kai gave a low groan and buried his face in his folded arms resting on the bar table.
"Then why are you helping her? Why did you give her your word?"
"I just want my kids back."
Sousuke narrowed his eyes at Kai. "Kai, they are mother and children. You can't take that away. Outweighing their mother will be rather selfish. Don't you even remember telling me how that girl seemed so eager to see her kids?"
"I don't really care. Why should I?"
The old man's eyes fell on the black hand gun strapped on Kai's belt. He isn't... "What in heaven's name...? Kai, you aren't...thinking of--"
Kai raised his head, fuming. "You don't know how hard it is. A part of me--no--all of me is dying to seek revenge. But this--" Kai pointed a shaking finger at his own head "--this! This stupid...damned thing! It's on the way! I can never do it!"
Silence took over for a moment. Minutes later, it was Sousuke, lighting his cigar who broke it. "Kid, you promised Saya too, remember?"
"To tell you the truth, I really don't know..." Kai pathetically buried his head back in his arms. "Damn it. I'm becoming senseless, huh?"
"Kid, I really can't help you. All I can do for you is to listen to you and that's just about it." Kai gave a low groan in disappointment. "But there is one thing though...will it be worth it if you try and do what you're thinking right now? Will you be able to look at your kids in the eye?"
Kai didn't answer. Sousuke couldn't really tell what he's thinking. All he could see was the top of the lad's head. Kai breathed heavily and eventually got up from his seat. "Can I stay right here for the night?"
"Just for this night?"
Kai didn't speak long enough that Sousuke had enough time going back behind the bar and finish cleaning two empty glasses.
"Just for tonight." Kai finally said.
Sousuke sighed slightly and smiled probably in relief. He himself wasn't quite sure.
:) thanks to my reviewers by the way...
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